Wow, what a ride, there is so much I experienced with this character its hard to know where to begin. My first character in the Nexus was Faoin. I had a great time with him but warriors had just gotten old and I'd never played a mage beyond 20th rank before. So when I rage deleted faoin, I knew I wanted a mage, and I wanted to try another Seeker. I thought a good mage to start with was Shapeshifter and I was right, it was relatively easy to play, allowed me a bit of exploring, and was just plain fun.

Mostly I made another Seeker because the roleplay aspect of the Nexus is so strong, much much stronger than virtually any other cabal ive been in. I had a villager under loborguz and hated it, the purely one dimensional rp I found there sicked me compared to the days of old.

In the Nexus, the strong and very detailed philosophy of the Rift gave me great room to try some theoretical roleplay. Mainly my 'works' which was a group of philisophical scrolls I wrote concerning planar theory and the possibility of a Fifth pillar. I love writing those papers, it was such a great outlet to do something wholy creative and not worry about pk. Being that this was my first above 20 rank mage, not to mention a roleplay character rather than a pk character, I had a really low pk ratio as you can see above which was mostly lowererd against scions, against the villagers I had a fairly decent kill ratio, closer to e, but that didnt really matter to me. It felt like the days in the Knights when I had Aan, my redeemed duergar. I didnt really care how well he fought either and it made the experience so much richer. I didnt bother searching for a/b/s wands or that sort. I may in the future if I do another mage, but for now, it was the strong interactions I had that made this truly a great experience.

I died in the Inferno, actually the entrance, heh, man ram sucks on its own, trying to complete a vitality quest which I wasnt whole heartedy wanting to complete. It would have been nice to have continued, and maybe even immorted, as I had alot of ideas for astral/etheral plane areas. Perhaps the next one....

As for regrets, and there always are with every character i suppose, It would have been nice to live to see my works in the Lyceum, which I believe will be added. That feels great to make a difference that gets permanently noted, even if minutely. a name on a pillar, etc, I had two more works in progress but the damn war broke out, and my roleplay didnt allow me to work on my scrolls when the Link was taken, so it led to a lot of quick deaths. Alot of those writings were to prove a Fifth Pillar, which I think I did quite well on, hence the title, but unfortunately I doubt any new pillar will ever be added, no matter how sound the theory behind it, unless its an imm who determines its where the cabal should go.

I also probably would have liked to have been an Elder, I really enjoyed teaching new seekers and applicants about the Pillars, getting them to learn and think. Especially those with no clue as to the philosophy. Many of those talks/interviews went to two hours or more. I wasnt easy on who i talked to, but I was confident they were well prepared.

As for my death, as my con went down, I realized I had never seen anyone rp their con loss. I am sure people have, just that i've never seen it and thought that a wasting disease that got worse as my vitality went down would spice things up. I based it on 'experiments' that went awry, causing me to degenerate slowly. It seemed to help get some roleplaying out of those around me, which I am always trying to encourage. Roleplaying really is the heart of CF, and its a shame more people dont realize that or dont care.

Goodbyes,
NEXUS:
Vahlen, you live up to your title. very Stoic. When you did interact with us it was great. I also assume you used the mobs about the Rift alot as well as the Emissary. I enjoyed it all immensely, thank you.

Divox: I tried not to give myself away in the interview, saying I learned what I knew of the Nexus by spying on you during your interviews, seemed to work, though I blew through the interview waaaay to fast. Still, it was enjoyable as all my interactions with you have been. You deserved to immort in many ways, keep up the excellent work.

Nydeikon: Whil, you were an excellent ingame friend and your roleplaying is almost always top notch. You are a very good leader and I hope we get our own 'hall of heros' like many other cabals do, you deserve your name up there. I have to say I was a little miffed that you wanted me to continue physical conflicts even though I was 5 deaths away from full con loss. I tried to explain to you I needed to go lightly but when you were adamant I fight, I did, as my character would not disobey his leaders under any circumstances, including his 'Great Death'. It was fun to watch you progress and evolve as leader, considering I , as faoin, taught you the ways of the Rift.

Lorak: You also have done an outstanding job, poor Talno wanted it bad, but you got it and did a great job. I have to say im wondering where you have been lately though, I hope its not because of the war.

Sporial: Amazing job that you do. A bit greedy for items at times, but you give the Rift a huge boost when you are on as you are a very competent healer and your knowledge of the game is huge. You are stalwart with your rp beliefs and it shows in a very positive way. Thanks for helping me hero.

Fristapholin: sorry bout getting the boot, I hope you willt ry to get back in, you are quite talented and it was sad to see you go.

Thalongrim: You were a hoot, Lord of the Pool, just stop being so forgetful.

Janroth: Damn good shifter, you know how to play them, and Jraln looked up to you.

Theerkla, Talno, Monty, Mholako, amongst a host of other old timers, It was great fun, unfortunately I knew you more from Faoin than Jraln so my interactions with you were limited in this incarnation.

For the rest of the Seekers, if you show up despite this hard war, good, if you are one of the ones who is hiding til its over, do everyone a favor and delete. There is nothing worse than cowards in a cabal that has to fight all the time.

Everyone Else:
Tilaen, you were a fun ally and a viscious enemy, Too bad we had to war, you made a fun friend to interact with, as an enemy, you are total jerkoff btw, I enjoyed the inferno trips

Dullameh, congrats on the Lich, you have a really solid roleplay and are fun to interract with, but lay off the multikilling and desecrating every corpse you find, especially ones you didnt kill, thats just weak. Sorry, but it isnt inspiring to see a Lich sucking up corpses form other peoples kills. Still, I'm sure you will do a great job.

Ahmed, also a good job, I liked that you had a sense of honor and integrity when the rest of the scions turned into pricks.

Penz, good fights, you really could have made something special of your roleplay if you had gone with it.

Blasko, really good roleplay, not sure what became of you but it was good to see someone with integrity of the old ragers. having played many many old school ragers it was nice to see that again, which leads me to ..

Marlek, you also exude that old school rager feel, which blows the current state of villagers away. I just cant help but think of the villagers as running around with their thumbs up their asses, JUST like empire used to be. I also appreciated your willingness to sit and talk with me, that shows class, which is so severely lacking in most these days, and not just villagers.

Tertalith, had fun on the inferno trips with you, thanks.

Arvam, thanks a tons for being patient with me, I know im a pesky bugger. =) I enjoyed my time at the Inn.

Johan, thanks for the help at the end, I appreciate it. I'm glad you immorted.

Aliera, you were always fun to group/raid/retrieve with, thanks for all the hugs

There are so many more people, some I may have forgotten but I shall add you as I remember. To everyone I interacted with, who made real attempts to interact with integrity and a genuine sense of RP, thank you, I enjoyed every minute of my ass kicking.

--Jraln the Seeker of the Astral Plane, Scholar of the Rift, The Spicy Radish.