You seem to think that your role was unique, and on some levels certainly I can see the novelty. But what I see overall was someone who wanted to basically be evil without any of the drawbacks of that. Sure, you handicapped yourself a good bit with your role, and thats always a sign of a well thought out character. But characters who go around randomly attacking people get turned evil, thats just how it is. Just ask Rogue, I think he's had more gnomes turned evil than the combined totality of all people who have been force changed in the last 14 years. It's been said countless times before. Role is no reason to ignore alignment. You were for all intents and purposes acting evil for a VERY long time without actually being turned evil, and that put certain kinds of characters who had to deal with you at a disadvantage that really wasn't fair.

Then you also were very reliant on immlove for things involving your role. You can't go into a situation and just expect them to love your role every bit as much as you do and want to give you the stuff you want. Immteraction really just doesn't work that way. The best you can do is make an interesting role, go about your life and let the imms come to you when they are interested enough to interact. The tone of your initial post was very self indulgent and carried a strong tone of "I expected this and this from the staff, and when I didn't get it I deleted". You just can't go into things EXPECTING the staff to give you their time and energy and be dependant on them for anything relating to your character, if you're not doing a regular old empowered follower of an established and current religion.

It sucks that you were disappointed, but really I think you set yourself up for the disappointment with having your expectations set too high. Good luck with your next.