Many aspects of being an immortal are, unfortunately subjective, so I cannot promise you that a staff member will not act in this way again. In my personal opinion it would be less than ideal for this type of reward to be meted out, but my opinion is one of many.

Since the staff are from all different walks of life, and have their interests rooted in different aspects of the game they reward in different ways. Some are more hard-nosed about some aspects of PK, having learned the game and thrived during the early '90s days (ie: The Wild West.)

Having said that, this is eight years ago and I am personally sorry as both a CF player, and a part of the staff that the experience was upsetting enough to have stuck with you for so long. I don't know if that apology is sufficient for you, but it's all I can offer. I suppose something like this might leave a bad taste in my mouth too, depending on how it went down.

Much in the way as a staff member might not realize how their actions are affecting you as a player- such as rewarding an enemy for a kill even though their lack of sportsmanship probably should have negated it, the reverse is also true. Sometimes players don't realize how much time and effort can be plowed into things like code changes, or advertizing, marketing, or area creation. A seemingly insignificant act like scolding a new player, or multikilling them can very easily undo hours of work for us. It cuts both ways unfortunately and that is why we felt the need to make this known by post. Chances are that players didn't even consider things from another perspective.

The crux of this message isn't about highlighting past grievances, or staff errors (though undoubtedly some have been made over the years), it is about addressing the present and taking this game into the future. I hope you can at least appreciate that sentiment if you still play CF?