Death_Angel | Sun 19-Jan-14 09:16 PM |
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#48391, "Faenral's Role Chapter 31"
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RoleChapter 31 Journal, Page 19: Time Added Sat Jan 11 13:40:32 2014 at level 51:Such a fickle thing, isn't it? Thinking in your youth that you have all the time in the world. That time is on your side all the time. By the accounts of others, in my hundred and eighty years upon the world, I have experienced more in life than most, walked more paths than many would even dare to imagine. True, I have experienced much, but it doesn't make me better than anyone else. For two centuries, I have squandered my own time. Hid in the background whilst others hunted me. Done nothing when I could have been out helping others.
Now, my inaction is catching up to me. Time is no longer on my side. Time is no longer a luxury I have. Now it's a luxury I struggle to keep within my grasp. I can only wonder how much more time I have before my physical body gives up on me. My Spirit is strong, but now I'm faced with my very own mortality. And I am terrified.
It's not death I fear. It's that I may die without being able to say goodbye to my best and closest friend in the world, Deaer. It's that I could have spent my earlier years looking into her curse, looking for the truth behind the monster that controls her now. It's strange being in love with a married woman and keeping those feelings silent. All I feel for Deaer is despair that there's nothing I can do for her yet. For all the blessings I've been given in my life, my mortality terrifies me that I may lose the one person I've held closest in my thoughts to a monster I thought -I- would become.
I have the Fortress now. I am an Acolyte, and I'm supposed to be a shining example of Living Light... Yet I cannot say so casually that I would give -anything- to have her back to the way she was, as I know that in my desperation, I would do something foolish. At my core, I am still a selfish, self-centered man. I feel possessed to help Deaer as she's helped me over the years. I feel that if I do nothing, I've failed her. And, in my moment of weakness, I am ashamed of myself.
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