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Chapter 15

Time yet again to put my thoughts to the page, though I almost question
the wisdom of doing such. My journey has been a long one indeed. When I'd
left the Academy, I was in my mid forties. Now, I am approaching my
eighties. Very little have I seen of the Lord of Archons, though this
does not dishearten me. I know the Lords and Ladies of the Light watch
over me as much as my friends within and without the Fortress.

When my sins were lifted from my Spirit, I'd felt a terrible burden
lifted from my shoulders. The hunger and lust that is the call of magic
to me began fading day by day. Had I not undertaken this great Journey, I
would have been lost within the darkness as much as those that would seek
to twist me to become that hungry creature I'd seen in my dreams. The
Duality of my Spirit has been settled. There is now only me. I am neither
the elf nor Yggvass. I merely am as my Spirit wills.

This brings me to the most difficult thing I've had to contemplate.
Captain Neltouda has begun teaching me the Healers arts. Learning to
Commune truly is a different thing from the use of magic. One does not
demand the power, for to do such would betray the link between the
Communer and their Deity. It is... An intimate feeling. For several
moments, I was acutely aware of the Captain's presence. I did not sense
her as I do other Spirits. Her Spirit to me feels as though she is the
essence of the storms themselves. More than this though, her Storms are
not merely weather. Hers is a storm of Spirits. That which has the power
to both empower the spirit of another... Or to break it. But... Before
all of this...

The Captain asked of me something I'd never heard of, let alone dreamed
of being possible. Captain Neltouda would have me be the vessel of her
Spirit. To be sure, it is a great honor, but the request dumbfounded me
to no end. I'd no idea if she meant to have me join her in Immortality to
reign over the Spirit itself, or if she merely meant for me to carry out
the presence of her Spirit to the Mortals of Thera. Truly a thing of
wonder. Naturally, I did not feel worthy of the honor she would have
granted me.