Come play a Villager, die lots, kill lots and most importantly, lose lots of gear! The high risk, high reward around gear is one of the reasons why CF is great, but you need to learn to not fear or get upset by it.

As for Tiamat mail, the main reason I took it is not because I needed it (as a Giant I obviously didn't), but you were an extremely tough cookie and that one item more than anything made you tough vs. Zah. I would take it from any of my foes. I could have taken a lot more and arguably I should have, it was actually breaking my RP returning what I did, but I could tell you were upset by it.

It's obvious you're very passionate about CF and I think you're great for the game. As I said, try your hand as a Villager, I think you would really enjoy it and help get over the fear of losing your items.

GLWYN.