I wished to thanks the players of Carrion Fields for a wonderful experience in the virtual world of Thera. You have created a magical place that provided me with years of enjoyment and entertainment. It is, however, time for me to go.

To the staff, I wish to acknowledge a wonderful group of individuals whose efforts are often unrewarded and their compassion and dedication unnoticed. Thank you for tolerating me, but there is a new group of immortals and they will fill any holes I might leave. Some of you are a class act, an I am richer in knowing you.

Good luck to you all. I will ghost about for a time to write of things and perhaps post a log or comment from time to time. In the end, I shall fade.

E

nt

Would you like to read a copy of the Role I wrote for your religion? If so, tell me where I can send it.

Aside. I now have no drive to do anything CF.

You will be sorely missed!
Your creative input and well as your inspirational RP.
From both player and Imm perspectives you were a class act.

Thanks for all the good times as a player and all the assistance and feedback as an IMM. I hope life is good to you and yours.

take care
Ysal

Kind words, Ysal. I wish your time in CF to be an enjoyable experience. Your rp is well-liked by the players, keep that up!

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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Ahh.. man, I was hoping I would get to interact with you more. I liked the few interactions we had and the random cabal talk if anything good was done. Thanks for what it's worth and good luck with.. whatever it is you are doing.

Sletren

Stop resting on your laurels! You have the skill and the promise of being a power when you put you mind and heart into action. Go for it!

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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Well god damit! I said it a little bit in my goodbyes...but YOU kept me going as Igbah...little echos, everything. When you have as many hours in a char as I had, things tend to get boring, the same every day, and just plain not fun to play. You coming back definitly brought me through the slow point of the char. Again, thanks! Igbah was the first char that I had that was on 'your' side, and I can say that I am truely upset that my endless string of villagers never looked at your religion as a rp angle. Again, you brought so much to this game, and you will be missed greatly. I'm half crying right now...........just kidding. Good luck with life, and whatever else you do. If your ever in the great outback of NORTH DAKOTA, feel free to drop me a line at d-rock160@hotmail.com. I feel like just repeating myself again...but it is us...the playerbase that should be thanking you


Happy travels
Derik

But the player/character was a force. I know you got dropped into the meat grinder when you became chancellor, but you handled it well. I did have a couple villagers as followers, but for the most part, those who followed missed the blood aspect that would have been cool to see. FWIW, my family comes from NODAK, Minot to be exact. What a...place.

As I mentioned, I will ghost here, maybe grab a new handle so I don't have all the baggage. I will be around, just doing other things for a while.

E
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Well this is a sad thing for me to see. I always enjoyed watching people when you were around, as Soucivi, as well as when you were playing Eshval or Innis. There was just a great presense there that will be missed in both the rp and the general feel of the game itself. Sorry to see you go, but wish you all the best.

Offhandedly I am curious. A long while back I had created a transmuter that had sent notes to you as if they were works of art that he had crafted from parts of his victims. This was before the court when you still had the Mausolem and were going by the Muse. Just curious if you had the time to take a look at any of them or what you thought, or if you even remember~! If not no worries, and GL out there.

I looked at everything that was sent. It helps if I have a name to look for...or if you want, email me copies if you have them.

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yeah I took a look through all the information that I had on old characters and I can't find anything to help direct the search. I think its all on my old hard drive which is stored around my palce somewhere, I just have to dig it up.

In any case it's not that big a deal, so no worries.

Thanks again for such a great presence and all your hard work, you will be missed.

I have Eshval's life all logged and could have some more insight into your character.

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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Yeah, though to be honest, if it's not prying, there's one other character that I have nearly everything for, and that's Nazdreth. Scion Dark-Elf Shapeshifter around lvl 36 when he deleted that you personally inducted into scion when the leaders of the Cabal at the time were just running me around.

Curious if you had any insight into him that I could know about? Especially since I don't think that was normal procedure for an IMM to induct someone when the leaders were still around and kicking.

Sorry to be asking about so many characters but curiosity is just eating me up.

Thanks for the time.

Do you foresee continuing to play play mortals, or is this a total break from CF?

At present, I am letting go of playing CF. I have burned my logs, notes, characters, area, everything to DVD and I am putting it away. I cannot say "never" because I am not prescient...things change.

I really suck at playing mortals. While I can rp, the pk eludes me. I am also not overly interested in the current sphere system as it stands, so I dislike having to make a choice of lesser evils.

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I had a good time playing Eryndorial the paladin, who was one of your (possibly less memorable) followers.

You were pretty helpful in explaining the religion and pointing me in the direction of mortals who knew more.

I appreciated all the work you put into Scion/Outlander, your religion, and your various agents and enemies among the mortal world. I echo Zulgh's sentiment that we always need more roleplay-heavy staff, and your absence will leave a void there.

As for the characters, I always felt you were most 'at home' as Innis, and what you brought to Outlander in that guise. As you know, I'm generally very wary of people changing roles often as an Immortal (*), but you remain one of the few who was able to do it without diminishing either.

valguarnera@carrionfields.com

(*): For players: The brief version of my argument there is that religions often take time to take root and really develop, and any change tends to create a lot of chaos for empowerees, plus a lot of hard work (shrines, tattoos, etc.) goes to waste when one is retired. I'm willing to bend when a staff member's "had a good run" in the old role, which Eshval/etc. had done.

I like this "nice" Valg.

You are quite a force behind the scenes, Valg. Part of the agreement among immortals is that we agree not to mention what happens "behind the curtain." I am going to break from that and write that to almost all things good/bad that happen in CF, your presence is felt. Your voice is expressed in your work and the passion you show when working on yet another project or fix. You are good at what you do. If you would only give up on the mainstream fantasy sports and jump into fantasy bass fishing, you would be so happy!

Luck

Eshavl/Innis
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I endorse this post. Please give up the mainstream fantary sports.

I never got to delve too deeply into your religion but I know you enthralled your followers and enjoyed every last minute of it.
And that's what matters. I remember you giving me a talk about quests and such, and showing me your room with all the nutty mobs in it for running various things. Still feel a bit creeped out from that but anyways. Even though we stood on opposite sides of the coin I was glad to have known you and I'm always around if you ever want anything.

I don't know why Cadothu doesn't have a who list with him, you, and me (Desmonn) in it..that would be a classic.

Wish you the best.

Corr

Corrlaan followers are NICE. With a capital NICE!

I probably do, and will look for it now that you bring it up bro. Thanks for reminding me.

You dont stop playing because you grow old, you grow old because you stop playing.

Still searching around for that who list Corr... Found this in the meantime.





<48 Human Thi> (PK) Soucivi Daneloth the Tea Pusher of the Inn, High Herald of the Eternal Star

<563/563 452 685><9023 civilized standing 11 PM> l souc
Soucivi is of mixed heritage. The timeless beauty of the east, the
fluid, deadly grace of lush jungles, and the clean-modeled, arrogant
sculpting of warrior racers living under northern skies all find
expression in her, as in the end product of some world-spanning
sultan's harem.

Tall, she gives an impression of being taller still - sleek, almost
bonelessly graceful, taut muscle sheathed in velvet flesh a bare shade
lighter than caf au lait.

Hers is a runner's physique, costumed for the artist's eye, with long,
tapering legs flowing almost uninterrupted to slim hips and high,
rounded buttocks. Her belly is taut, flat - waist long and narrow. She
shows just a shadow of ribs beneath small, softly rounded breasts. A
sculpted collarbone draws together slim shoulders, and smoothly
rounded arms. Her long, slender neck is set to arrogant carriage and
holds her head at the precise angle from which empresses look down on
lesser beings.

A heavy cloud of coffee dark hair lightly mixed with the silver-grey
that comes with age, curls, twines and tumbles to the middle of her
deeply muscled, smooth back. The curls raggedly frame a face with
high, sweeping cheekbones, smooth forehead and long, dark brows. Her
eyes are almondine, long and wide. Warm, bottomless, the brown of a
deep jungle river, aloof and sensual, they are shrouded by heavy
ragged lashes. Her nose is high-bridged, lush, beautifully sculpted,
generous but not over-ripe. Her delicate, rounded jaw and chin caught
midway between sharp and strong, complete an arresting portrait of
racial harmony.

Her voice though, is low, soft and whiskey rough - like a cat's tongue,
soothing and painful.
Soucivi, a female human, is in perfect health.

Soucivi is using:
<worn on finger> (Glowing) a fiery ring
<worn on finger> a ring set with a single sapphire
<worn around neck> (Glowing) (Humming) the Ankh of Loch Terradian
<worn around neck> a wooden hummingbird pendant
<worn on body> the chitinous shell of a rainbow runner
<worn on head> (Glowing) the star-set crown of Ellithyr
<worn on face> a filmy black veil
<worn on legs> some worn studded leather leggings
<worn on feet> a pair of black suede boots
<worn on hands> (Humming) a pair of black enameled gauntlets
<worn on arms> (Humming) the bracers of Archery
<worn about body> a tattered, color shifting cloak
<worn about waist> the blademaster's sash
<worn around wrist> (Glowing) (Humming) a bracelet of electricity
<worn around wrist> a braided silver bracer
<wielded> a silver studded mace
<dual wield> (Glowing) the dagger of betrayal

You dont stop playing because you grow old, you grow old because you stop playing.

You were a treasure to the game. Best of luck!

Good to hear from you! Same to you!

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I guess the lesson is never disappear.

You may have had some crackpot ideas (but hey, who hasn't...let me tell you about MY idea for the mage cabal revamp...), but you definitely made a positive contribution to the game. I put you in the roleplay immortal category (man we need more of those) and I thought you brought a lot to that corner of the game. Thanks.

Good luck with your future.

So long, and thanks for all the fish!

No matter how long I was an imm, you always had an imposing presence that often popped out of nowhere. Your walk a very interesting balance, you offer much in the way of coding, and yet when you become visible, the world often dances to your tune. Impressive.

Thank you for the kind compliments.

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But I admit, Graatch is growing on me too!

How do people like you manage to stay so mysterious in, and even out of character?!

<3

Staying IC as much as possible helps.

I spent a year writing as the opposite gender and met with some modest (local) publishing success. It was somewhat funny to attend poetry readings when the audience was expecting a different person.

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Thanks for the interaction re: Minos. I'm sorry it didn't seem to turn out like you were hoping it would - I honestly didn't ask for what happened.

If it makes you feel any better (doubtful, but maybe(?) the whole ordeal made it harder for me to get Maran'd, I think - I definitely got a "boot up your ass" vibe from Baerinika for a couple weeks after. (Not surprising, given the purity aspect of her religion and all that).

The whole experience was rewarding to me overall. Thanks again, and good luck in the future.

I was hoping for a more prolonged interaction that might have been epic if it had continued. Such was not the case, however. I am pleased you had a time of it!

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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We've had very limited interaction with each other, and what interaction there was between us was seldom positive. At first I was not upset that you were leaving, but now I am. The things you did that I disagreed with were never "wrong," they were just different from the things I do. I apologize, because I let those things cloud my judgment to all the good things you did for CF.

I am truly sorry to see you go.

I don't know what your "RL circumstances" are, and if you don't want to share them everyone else needs to respect that. If you have problems with other staff members, that's between you and the staff. It's none of anyone's business.

My heart always goes out to people who are hurting, and so as my final words to you, Eshval, I leave you with this:

William Ernest Henley. 1849–1903

Invictus

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Inspiring, for me, at this point in time.

Hope Eshval can take something good from it as well.

Thank you for the reflective piece. I am more of an Auden an T.S. Eliot fan and often tend to compose in their styles.

T.S. Eliot (1888–1965). The Waste Land. 1922 (An Excerpt)
A woman drew her long black hair out tight
And fiddled whisper music on those strings
And bats with baby faces in the violet light
Whistled, and beat their wings (380)
And crawled head downward down a blackened wall
And upside down in air were towers
Tolling reminiscent bells, that kept the hours
And voices singing out of empty cisterns and exhausted wells.

The The Wasteland can be viewed at this link.


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I took a few days before posting because I was bummed when I saw that you deleted. I had really wanted to work on that project of yours that we had discussed from your first go around.

I always enjoy our talks. Even about RL issues because we were always able to keep that part of us in our perspectives. It is about these issues, more than anything, that I wish you the best. Because this place is a game and outside of this place is where things really matter. You know how to get a hold of me if you ever need to talk.

Lyr, always the good guy for me. You should take that project and run with it, it really suits you. Take care of yourself and have fun (avoiding hurricanes is a start).


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this isnt fair. You know I decided to get pregnant just for you, so I could give you a toy baby to run rampant all over thera with, you know that dont you?
I actually had to ask the nexan imms basically just how far I could take the pregnancy, raising the kid, and wrote in my role i wanted you to have it however you wanted it for your own uses, just because you made alot of this char fun, and me rl happy with having your fangs. On another char
my last char you likely knew, just a char I wanted to experiment with a class I didnt know. I guess you saw with this one I learned a few things.
damnit eshval, I think with about 90% of my chars you have bitten / interacted with while you were as eshval. Even as back as seffar until I burned the crap out of my hand due to me and my brother playing at work and myself deep frying it, I always loved you.
I will honestly miss you, and you were my favorite imm. Just kinda wanna say thank you for being a part of cf, except the whole baby thing with this char you know I had to choke my char to make it so I wouldnt see a man have his way with my char? I am a man in rl dangit. lol.
eh
sigh
later eshval, and hope you come back one day
my next char cant be a follower of you, I think I only really ever had one. didnt get tatted wasnt the race for it, but had wonderful bitings and interactions then too.
Its also so bad that I would rather be full looted each death, even lag deaths that I suffer quite often, than to lose those fangs.
after the last time you bit me, I died an hour later because of lag drowning.
anyway, I am out. I need to sleep, I work 10 hour shifts three nights a week, and last night was busy as hell.
later eshval
and good luck in rl

Try the Bathhouse or the Inn...good place to find true love/lust.
FWIW...Eshval liked biting...oral fetish I guess.

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I tried for a day or so to think of what to post here, but couldn't come up with anything very good.

So I decided to go with the KISS (Keep It Simple, Stupid) method:

I enjoyed your presence and wish you nothing but the best. And your RL circumstances are still in my thoughts, and I wish you very good luck with them.

Ever much the consummate diplomat who could take the time to listen to both sides of a story, or just the story itself. Quite the suave guy with lots of class. Good luck.

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asfasf

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nt

entee

We'll soon be celebrating my second year of stalking in the usual style. That is, I'll sit in his bushes while he has dinner, rubbing my 'Zulghinlour is my Bishi!' t-shirt lustfully and using his throw own newspaper as a stylish captain hat so I can pretend I'm a captain of his world. So yeah, this is nothing new. Move along.

Oh, and see you there, Zulgh!

Spell out your reasons for leaving, or all the people who play the game are going to have no choice but to invent their own.

If the reasons look bad for certain people (whether they be Imms, Players, or some fella in "wherever the hell you live" that has stolen your desire to play with freaky voodoo sex), spit them out so people know and can have a resolution.


I am sure you won't.


But yeah...

Eshval's reasons for leaving are because they were abducted by alians and they put a probe in place much like Cartman's, Eshval can no longer sit in a chair long enough to play CF due to the giant Sattelite dish that deploys itself periodically from thier orfices.
In reality I dont want to know why they left. I'm a firm believer that what happens behind the scenes by leadership in scenarios that have a potential negative impact on morale/unity of the leadership group should be kept behind closed doors. And if such was the case I respect Eshval's decision to do so. For all we know they could just be completely burned out on the game from putting so much effort into it and they decided it was time to dedicate more of thier free time to doing the RL things. Or they could have just gotten a smoking hot girlfriend that keeps them too busy to play. Who knows.

He might not have given an itemized list, but if you look at his posts, responses, and non-responses over the last few months you can see the pattern. This has been building for a while.

Hopefully things will resolve, but airing the laundry fully would likely cause those involved to fortify their positions rather than listen to each other's perspectives. In the event it never resolves, we can ask whoever is around a few years from now in a new addition to the conspiracy post we saw after the Cabdru unveiling.

Let us respect their expressed wishes to keep their affairs semi-private and hope for the best.

That and no other Imms wishing him well usually tips me off.

Except for Nepenthe who is always the dilplomat.

THats my conspiracy theory anyhow when I see goodbye threads from Imms.

The tone of the post pretty much verifies that. Leave it alone, I say. No need to shake the bee hive.

That is precisely what I was talking about. It's not much...and the poster wasn't trying to be malicious. But right there, in black and white..."It's clearly an altercation between some Imms." Hence, the rumor mill starts cranking out hate-pepper not with a rant by some loony, but by some dude who was just making an educated guess and presenting it as a fact. Next, people will speculate as to which Imm the supposed altercation was with...give it a year and it'll be presented as gospel and backed up with an intricate weave of "interpretable, but not necessarily factual" links to old posts. Ugh.


I just know how people think around this joint. Well, at least the outspoken conspiracy theorists.


Again, I am totally cool with you keeping it on the down-low. I would do the same (though honestly, if I wanted to leave without causing any fuss, I'd say it was some big RL stuff and let it die with that).

I would be lying. I try to avoid compromising my basics.

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(and you are feeding the monster now)

These are my own, and not open for public consumption. What I suggest is that any conspiracy threads would be without basis. What I will say, however, is that the staff is like an extended family and it holds all the social dynamics and activities that go along with it. They are a good group of people and deserve more recognition than they receive.

There is no need for people to have a resolution since there is nothing for them to resolve. If you want to foment a conspiracy thread, feel free...create something out of nothing.

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>If you want to foment a conspiracy thread, feel free...create something out of nothing.

It wouldn't be something out of nothing when you yourself said in a thread below that your leaving wasn't do to real life complications.

If you want to foment a conspiracy thread, feel free...create something out of nothing.


I certainly don't. But, others do and will. It never fails.


Keep it as confidential as ya like.

Eshval really is a Vampyre, and the sudden wave of Global Warming is forcing him into non-internet ready caves.

What is the conspiracy story behind it?

When anyone first become an immortal, there are two major things (among many others) that stand out. The first is the NDA (Non-disclosure Agreement) that all of us agree to and sign. The more important one is that we accept the understanding that "what goes on behind the curtain, stays behind the curtain."

The NDA, while a nice piece of paper is limited in its intent, scope and legality and could be contested if such a desire existed, which it doesn't. The important part is my agreement to not discuss anything that happens in imm-land. It is my position that any immortal who does so has violated that trust. Sometimes one of the staff may accidentally/unintentionally make a comment...it happens. But for the most part, this premise is a guiding principle.

That being said. No conspiracy. The staff exhibits admirable qualities.

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almost for all cf russians. You were our favorite Imm for a long, long time. Despite our Engrish you presented us hours of cool rp. watching us and adding depth into our characters.

I still think that both your followers (Greddarh. Taelina) were my best chars at least at RP side. You really made me want to RP not just for getting rewards but just because I can get pleasure of it.

Thanks for everything.

If you ever go into Moscow(Russia), drop me e-mail.
e-mail: danik_iv@mail.ru
aim: Elherus

I would love to see Moscow! Both characters you name are ones I remember, thanks for taking the time and effort to rp so well.

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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You won't know who I am, but even in a few months playing, it's been easy to see how much you add to the game in terms of RP. I'm one of those who had a role all planned out for a follower, so I'm sorry to see you go (for that and other reasons)! I'm sure others will step in and become evil gods/goddesses, but I doubt anyone would do it in quite the same inimitable fashion. I hope the reasons you left won't ruin your memories of the fun.

Take care out there in the real world, and if the urge to come back strikes, don't forget to succumb quickly

Saer/Sionel

Perhaps I won't know you, but that doesn't matter, CF is somewhat of an extended family with distant "relative" we don't really know, but we see them around. Yes, this thread will fade and so will the memories good and bad. Eshval and CF have been part of my life for a long time, I have wonderful memories...even more important, I have logs I can use to embarrass folks...like those logs of "lovers" who made the cellar floor at the Inn all nasty and sticky.

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Wow, you will be missed. It sucked the first time you left, I was glad to see you come back. I've tried to roll a few followers, my most recent was a scion shaman but I just got sick of all the insane gangs. The character however I loved, I was really into that one.

I had always been curious about the fountain in your shrine...

Before you left the first time, I had done a follower with a role about a serpent goddess. Did that have any influence on the statue? It looked an aweful lot like what I had described.

If not...well, great minds and all...

They shifted the alignment of the drinker towards evil. The design of the state/fountain was from an old design I did back in that last century. I do remember a recent shaman...gangs vs Scion are part of the package and one of the hardest things with which to deal.

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Well this is a sad sight to see. As Innis you empowered my first empowerment character, and then a slew of failed paladins, shamans, and druids. I was sad to see you hang up that religion. And while I was never able to get into a mindset that allowed me to feel like I could play an Eshval follower, that doesn't mean I didn't want to!

My favorite little interaction was a little brawl in the inn around Halloween a couple years back. I screwed up the log so didn't capture any of the fight but this was the mob which I am 99% sure you were controlling.

(Translucent) (Red Aura) A large female stands in the darkness, licking 'something' off her finger

Hormah the Dark Sister of Tormented Pleasures concentrates for a moment, then resumes her position.

Hormah the Dark Sister of Tormented Pleasures licks the blood off of the head of Mavinero.

You say to Hormah the Dark Sister of Tormented Pleasures 'I see you have gotten your blood.'


Was even more fun because of the complete randomness of it. Completely unexpected when I poked my head in the inn.

Anyway, you were an asset to CF and will be missed. Good luck with whatever fills your time in the future.

I have a few things to do...mostly they involve mundane things like fishing! I have a couple stories in the works and a book that has some interest. Add teaching classes at the U and I have a pretty full plate.

Yes, those were my mobs.

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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Teaching classes at the U? Ok I have to ask now, English teacher?

Cognitive Ecology and Creative Writing.

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So there is no ambiguity here, I want to insure the players, understand that while a member of the staff, I had errors in judgment. I was far from a perfect immortal, and for any errors I made, I want to offer my apologies. I hope my presence in the CF world had a more positive impact than a negative one.

To answer the next question, no I was not asked to leave.


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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
http://blackmarquessa.blogspot.com/

>I hope my
>presence in the CF world had a more positive impact than a
>negative one.

I think it's safe to say that it was.

I'd still be happy to see you back if, at some point, the things that seem fun outweigh the things that don't, again.

I was really getting into reading the blog (and I probably still
will just to see where you go with it.)
As much as most of my characters "hated" you, I always thought
Eshval was pretty spiffy as far as imm's go. heh.

Soucivi was cool btw. I think I might have been Lerrik or Vanadulin
around that time. I'm not real sure, probably not as far back as
Dimion though I think. Hrm, when was that anyway??

Anyway Good Luck with whatever you get into next.

-Bajula (and a host of others)

I'd say she heroed sometime in December 2003 with Soucivi, perhaps a bit before, perhaps a bit afterwards. As for when she immorted, I don't quite know, I just know Dec 03 is when I died with Odelius.

You really aged nicely over the years and the characters!

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I remember the names, isn't that odd what kind of impact a virtual world can have on the person behind the world. Characters from the past linger like ghosts of memories. Thanks.

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I'm pretty sure you are one of three IMM's I've prayed for.

1) Zulgh
2) Khaso
3) You

I played a necro named Echoic, and you gave her attention, thanks for that. Wish you the best of luck.

The two you mention are quite wonderful and are among the best I have witnessed.

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You are a great imm, sure there are some haters out there. But seriously, who gives a #### what they think?

Maybe you'll be back, maybe you won't. I hope you know that alot of people will miss you, and don't let the bad memories tarnish the good ones.

Either way, I wish you the best of luck in things.

You are correct about the memories.

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Eshval's slightly off-center (unofficial) blog.
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You are one of the reasons I play this game. I find the game mechanics a bit boring, but the roleplay, writing of roles, interacting with people like you, to be highly addictive.

I tried dungeons and dragons years ago, and a guy running it was amazing. (Dungeon master) You actually felt like you were in a different world with the work he put it. Once this guy stopped running the games, the game became rather dismal. (Bunch of creeps gathering to roll dice and hack and stuff...)

ANyhow....point being, you really made this game fun for some of us.

Loved the roleplay ,the whole vampire thing. Wish there was a vampire lich class, named in your honor.

Take care,

Crulvane, Malic, Anith, and countless other creepy scion followers of yours.

Lightmage

Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs the torment of man.

It is my opinion, that when mechanics outweigh "human interactions" it's like talking to voice mail that sends you to the next voice mail, that directs you to yet another....

And thank you!

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This is ####. I finally get a decent role for you and then you poof?!?! Good luck with life. I'm sure the character would have sucked anyway. Luckily you'll be back soon. They all come back.

I liked (most) of your characters, hence you didn't suck.

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The first and only imm I've gotten to follow. Thanks for the fun, but I think now I might never get into the game to a high degree. It sucks I had to take so long off, I was really looking forward to coming back and finally being a worthy follower. I imagine it came down to a situation of "We thought we were wise because we were powerful." Which I think you anticipated with what was said on the creation of the blog. Oh well.

Thank you for the experience, and all your help.

I don't have a good grasp on what you want to say, sorry. I will say, you are welcome for the fun and our interactions.

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Now who's going to hug the evil kids when my good kids beat on them? Aw, who am I kidding.

Good luck in whatever you do, and I hope that you never stray far from this place that we've all put so much time and love into.

- Morgan


There will be no white flag above my door. - Dido

I've always enjoyed kicking little jaguars around. :-P
I've also enjoyed provoking you with my evils!

Despite it all, you have always been gracious. Thanks

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My family dragged me to church yesterday, and in one of those rare moments of spiritual enlightment, I had an epiphany that can only be described to a traditional christian as heretical: God is a personification of one's community. I won't digress here to explain my leap, but interested parties can pester me elsewhere if they really want more information.

"God as community" is relevant to your departure in two ways. First, each loss of a community member leads to a loss of those differing viewpoints that enrich the whole. CF and the immortal staff become weaker with the loss of each person's unique contributions. Look at what would happen to our government if our fearless leader were surrounded by yes-men. Oops.

Second, this heretical view also means that the narcissistic "I am God", or in this case, "I am CF" is the most dangerous belief an individual can have, for it creates a feedback loop that isolates oneself from reality. The wording of your goodbye suggests that insurmountable disagreements exist somewhere in the upper echelons of CF, and although this is common in all organizations, I entreat all parties not to get caught up in some sort of destructive god-complex.

You departure does me sorrow, but in parting, may your life be filled with all that is good.

Sothlice.

It seems to me you are reading too much into my departure. There are no insurmountable disagreements
I suggest you don't place your epiphany along side of the Cf immortal staff, as they are not really the same. Thank you, however, for your kind wishes.

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In regard to my epiphany, the immortal staff is a community, just as the whole of CF is a community. As such, there can a arise out of it a communal construct seemingly with a life and will of its own. It's that aspect which makes working within a dynamic group interesting.

I respect that you say you have deleted without reasons personal or professional/immortal. At your request, I will not read into your need to either depart or the purpose of your an enigmatic goodbye, and I am sincere in saying that I appreciate the varied and diverse roles every person plays on CF. As an example of your contribution, it was your Innis persona that turned me onto roleplaying here, for prior to that I thought this mud was all about regearing, getting ganked down, and full looted. Rinse and repeat.

I would have quit playing years ago if I had not encountered your characters, because mindless entertainment can be obtained anywhere. Frankly, it is the complexity that this world offers that keeps sucking me back in when something or someone angers me, when I get frustrated at my substandard connection speed, or when RL reminds me it is more important.

Should you never return as an immortal incarnation, I hope that you will at least come back to inspire us with your mortal characters.

Godsped.

Hopefully you make it back again. You know you're good for the game.

Good luck, and enjoy every sandwich.

What the heck is the reference to the sandwich? And thanks.


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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WhRRWwH3Fro

It's a line Warren Zevon said about life. 'You need to enjoy every sandwich'.

Send lawyers, guns and money
The #### has hit the fan

I've only ever had one follower of yours. Back before the the changes to your religion. I had been planning another follower. An eccentric, and nearly impossible role to follow. But I was willing to try anyways. Wood-Elf Druid Sphere Beauty turned Evil NightReaver.

We had some pretty decent interactions. My follower of yours was Mhaltharsta (spelling). A dark-elf healer who tore apart the bodies of various creatures and healed them together to create something totally new. I hope you enjoyed that role.

I had 2 interactions with you as Khrathtyn. One was direct, the other indirect. The indirect kind of pissed me off as it totally ruined our Hell trip. But it was nonetheless appreciated. The direct was as expected and I'm sorry I couldn't go forward more with it.

As it is, Carrion Fields has lost an amazing IMM. One willing/able to spend their time interacting with mortals.

Maaltharsta, Nezlintryzn, Naerzghul, Khrathtyn

--BattleCharmed