You didn't really bounce back the way I hoped after getting reinducted but I'm glad you still had fun.

Some advice to you would probably be to not hold so much limited gear in your inventory, especially if you can't handle losing it. People already hate Heralds for being "gear lockers" who don't have the same risks to lose said gear as other PK-oriented characters/cabals. And if I'm being honest, you kinda struck me that way too especially given your meltdown when you actually lost some of it.

Take it as a learning experience and good luck with your next!