For some reason APs, even Fires just don't parry enough with bloodlust up to survive against an average or better melee type. Barrier probably changes that, but very low chance to have it at 36. With any joker disarming you at every opportunity, building up a weapon is incredibly hard. Especially now with much fewer people to fight. Trying your luck at the hero ranks with no controls is just asking for trouble, you'll most probably delete before finding the barrier.

As for why I didn't ever bash Finley I don't have a good explanation except that I didn't want to frustrate anyone more than necessary probably, and you seemed to be a long-hours AP, plus we had some talk going. It would have been incredibly easy though, just rushing in with everything up at you sitting in the guild with nothing. I don't think it matters how many charges you had. Another thing was that I was lawful Anathema, not sure if it had to have much bearing, but didn't want to bash down a tribunal.