"When the horse is dead, get off!" is what my old Jr. High teacher and football coach used to say to us all the time, and Mac has been dead a while. Dead in my mind therefore dead to everyone else. I started this char for a variety of reasons. 1: the Drucyrus lgs made me want a shaman to play witch, id never played one. 2. Shamans were now alowed into sylvan and I always though the RP of a zealot fit well with their RP. 3: I had told Thror I wanted to play a follower of his and it was time to make due on that.

I came very close to heroing but its hard sometimes to rank a shaman as they have little to provide by way of fighting mobs and at that rank I couldnt tank ranking mobs usefully. And from what I hear the grove could use me right now but I am on to other things and my time doesnt allow for 2 (serious) characters. I learned how to play a shaman and more importantly how to get away from a shaman. Other then that I always felt slightly detached from this character. I had fun with it but I never "became" the char. Its not normal for me to be in a cabal and not want to interview and things and I had no desire to with Mac. Some reason for that was that I didnt have the normal view of warders and their goals. I took my sphere purity and turned it into a warder. Her sphere came first and foremost. To purify the wilds and return them to their natural state and seeking inner purity the whole time.

I am going to try not to bring up ooc things to much but I want it to be said I had nothing to do with any sylvan cheating of any kind. I did not go, as I have never gone, into Hell or was involved in any hell planning. Most of sylvan knew each other on AIM and there were a few chatrooms of us but that did more damage to the cabal in my eyes then good. We tried to keep everything professional IC though.

Galjana: Probably the person I spent more time with then anyone and for one very very simple reason. I had no clue who was playing you. Everyone, and I mean everyone else in warders I knew their player on AIM and you cant imagine how much luster that takes from the game. I like to know I am surrounded my competant people but it went to far I think. You were competant, knowledgable and we seemed to work well together.

Manecit: Spent a fair amount of time with you as well but our ranking never seemed to jive. We just couldnt get the groove, not quite sure why. Pk wise we had some fun. You deserved the promotion you got, or at least that I heard you got.

Priolith: I like your player but sorry man, I just thought Prio was to pushy for my taste. My character was also a kind of domineering sort and didnt like taking orders from anyone. You did however build that cabal up into the stratosphere any way you could, nice work. I never agreed with the warlock war as a player but as a character I suppose Mac did. Just hard to one day have a war declared out of the blue on people who had been your ranking buddies.

Loranessa: I sort of came to meet you rather late in life and it was brief. You asked me to come around more often and I could almsot sence that the warder numbers were dwindling. Deep down I knew I wouldnt be back, so I gave you my hammer pendant and left. I havent logged on since but to delete. I just cant keep riding a dead horse.

Boldereth: I am a huge druid fan as most people I am sure know. WHen I met you IC and saw that you were somewhat competant with then and apparently improving each time we met, you endeared yourself to me as a player, but Mac hated that H- in front of your name. She was biased against impure bloodlines but tolerated fellow warders. I tried to emeinate this IC but was hard to hide that I really liked being with ya. WHen I met you ooc I was happy to know you and tried to help you with druids as much as I could.

Sahannara: Did you ever speak? You were not there one day and a sylvan hero the next. *shrug*

Trofjel: You were kind of cool and I wish id spoken with you more.

Orophin: You were pretty cool but we never seemed to run with each other all to much. You were usually below me in rank I think.

Yodinfrid: I had alot of fun with you and telling Priolith to press you about your warcry. I didnt find it appropriate for a warder and I still dont. Oh well, I wanted you to be a warder though and it turned out it happened.

Saldradien: I knew you as a mort with Kribli and you still kick ass. No matter what the imms tell you to do, do it. Dont become another Heroimm disapearing act. Sorry I failed you on the fertilizer quest. You said the entire grove had to take part or it wouldnt work. Getting people to give a ##### about it was like pulling alligator teeth and that was infuriating. I am not their mother and shouldnt have to get on them just to send in a note with a couple ideas. People bitch about lack of immteraction then blow off a quest. *shrug*

Jug: Didnt know you much with Kribli or Mac everyone else digs ya alot though.

Vortalscon: you were pretty cool for a Half breed *wink*

Caecia: You are an idiot but you try very hard, and I admire that. I to am a very seasoned CF idiot, but I like to think I try hard. The scene where you rescued Priolith from the executioner will always live in my fondest CF memories. Next to Prios poem about it which actually did the moment justice. Jeez im laughing just thinking of it. Thank you

Thror: SOrry man. I told you flat out that I would not approach you for a tattoo untill I felt I was worthy of it, and that was hero. I imposed that on myself and failed to meet it. If you knew my characters you would see that they all die in the 40s as I lose interest. WHen I lose interest I CANNOT trudge on. What interaction we had was cool though I could have saught you out for more, that is my own fault. You were my fastest empowerment yet so congrats! (I wont say how long it took). Id like it if you would maybe tell me any thing you happened to see from me if I was on the right track with your religion or not. Wouldnt be surprised if I was WAY off base. But I tried to let everyone around me know I was a Throrbie first, and a warder second. I had a bad taste for your character from a incident a long time ago and just playing the religion showed me another side of you even without us speaking alot. I heard a rumor that someone was sent by you to find "the warder who seeks purity" and someone came knocking at the grove looking for me. Im sorry I missed them if this is true. If it is, know that it is a good feeling to see gods are sending people your way to speak with. If its not true, oh well it lit a small fire under my ass either way.

Seb and Uller: M.I.A. as usual. I think I saw you both vis once and walked into the room at the grove, and was promplty told to leave the room. There were promotions being handed down and apparently it would be a bad thing for the gods of a cabal to be actually "seen", god forbid spoken with. I was low level at the time and didnt press the issue. One thing though: Would you PLEASE for the love of god change the "Warder Lieutenant/Warder Captain" titles to something a bit more appropriate? I dont know, call em the Silverbacks or Alpha Wolves or something. It just eminates a organised army mentality which is SO contrary to what sylvan is all about. I think Flontinot said it best when he responded to "hello captain" with: "Dont call me that!" "Call me Pookie!" He was right. Pookie is better then warder captain IMHO.

Now, keeping true to form I have to put in my little bitch and moan! *Cheer*

The #1 thing that killed this character for me was the patrols. No less then 5 high ranked warder players have told me they HATE the patrols. I have a brain, please allow me to use it thank you. I dont have any clue whos idea it was but it sucks. Towards the end all I wanted to do was hero and get mroe involved with thror but I first had to raid every cabal we had declared war on when I logged on, then I had to go walk a patrol untill a retrieval attempt came (usually 5 minutes), then I had to go raid again as I was doing what I was told. Ranking was nearly impossible and its all I wanted to do. They are to organised for warders, and take the fun facter down to zero. I see where we were going with them as some chars may have gotten lazy but no reason to turn us all into robots over it. The ranks were getting overly fat and there needed to be a reason to do some trimming of dead weight but when I logged on to see this note of a "specific" path I had to walk over and over that I was already doing for the most part on my own really was a turning point for me, as well as others. Please if this was a mortal idea, kill it.

POSTER'S DISCLAIMER: "Of course....I don't play anymore, but its just my 2 cents."