Seriously listen to nep. I was spam killing an orc of mine in frustration at how easily I died, and thrak comes out (because I had been assaulting his shaman ... alot. and sort of lets me know I killed as much as I died. It put a whole new perspective on things. (I did end up deleting him later but rolled another character later)

In any case the characters I had the most fun with were Dimion and Nimelerion anyone here who knew them knew exactly how badly they got ass raped and full looted. My most "successful" pk'ing character to date would have to be feichin where I got to feeling bad about killing half the people I did. (and the other half I was astonished at how quickly they killed ME!)

I started out with a 100% pure rp character and ended up with pretty much pkers. I took a few months off and now I couldn't pk dimion!
hehe. Anyway that's not what the deal is. Just roll with the knocks and you'll come out fine. Try a different angle on things and do a pure RP character.. maybe something that you know is totally unable to survive. Like someone who never under any circumstances retreats, and attacks all his enemies on sight (include mobs that kill you in 1 round in this.) and just have a blast. Then go back to a more normal style of play and you'll feel like you are Mr. sooperwhoopass.

anyway there's my 2 cents. You can MAKE the game fun for you even with what you feel are assholes around you.