I completely understand bailing on the Baerinika route when you realized you'd chosen a dormant religion, but after that you really dug yourself in deep by essentially treating your character's role and RP like a wine tasting.

Nobody wanted to touch you because everyone knew that if they waited 24 hours you would have changed your mind and tried something else. Don't get me wrong, I understand your frustration and anxiousness, but at the end of the day Mournagr was just too "all over the map" and non-committal to anything to be bothered with.

As for the whole turning evil thing, I'll note that there really isn't room in CF for an evil Paladin. An "evil Paladin" is just a Paladin who failed and doesn't have any supplications, and that's a non-accomplishment anyone can achieve by simply behaving badly with a Paladin for long enough. What you wanted, as I understand it, was to quit being a Paladin and instead be a completely functional (read: rewarded) evil character instead. That, on the other hand, is whole other ball of wax, as they say.

All that aside, it seemed like you genuinely enjoyed Mournagr for at least a good portion of his life (and I enjoyed watching him during his early Fort days), and that's the point. So good luck with your next and all that jazz.