Role

Chapter 10

The Becoming has changed Gaspare's personality in the following
ways:

- He has unpredictable moments of apparent insanity, which plays out
as disordered thinking, hallucinations, "blackouts," regression
(forgetting he's undead), and darkly nonsensical babbling. Thus far,
he hasn't completely lost himself - that is, he wouldn't become
mindlessly bloodthirsty or do other things that are completely out
of character.

- He is convinced that he remains able to feel emotions and tap into
them for artistry. However, they're different. Love's warm comfort
has grown unattainable to him. He can recall it from his past life,
but it now manifests instead as a cold obsession. He is able to feel
excitement, curiosity and fury. Many other emotions are now purely
intellectual in nature.

- He believes that it is part of his duty as an artist to document
and convey the experience of undeath.

- He has a fascination with life beyond that which he had as a man.
From his newfound distance from life, he now better sees the
miraculousness of it.

- On the other hand, he has no qualms murdering people and turning
them into his art materials, such as phylacteries and body parts.

- He still feels an attachment to Raltevio and Daphedee. Those two
are the last true connections he has with his mortal life. Losing
either or both of them would probably cause some major turmoil
and exacerbate symptoms of his Becoming sickness.

It is his plan to have a posthumous wedding with his beloved, who
had haunted him as a shade before his Becoming. The tentative plan
is to welcome her into his mind or body (without ceding any control).
in order to keep her with him forever. It's an incredibly selfish
plan that would probably cause her torment, but he either doesn't
see that or doesn't care.