Sat Nov 7 00:36:03 2015

At 8 o'clock AM, Day of the Sun, 27th of the Month of Winter
on the Theran calendar Bethanny perished, never to return.

By and large, the reason I come back to this game is mainly for interactions. There are others with tournaments, rl prizes, etc et al, but there are too many memories, of too much in this game since I started playing it in what.. 1996 or 7? Since 2002 I have spent more time not playing this game than I do playing, but it always brought me back, wanting to make a char to mess with people, wanting to see how things are etc et al. This time I was gone 2 months, last time I was gone 2 years. Heh, and still came back.

I did not make this char as a killer, didnt care about killing (save you gaspare your too strong ) and despite complaints, I rarely hunted until close to the end. The purpose of this char was to make people say 'wtf?'. Mainly expressive through the poems and some interactions it was to create moments of extreme sadness, to try to make someone cry in rl through the effects of my char and her doll, her schizophrenia, and repulse characters with her poems. Dreams was the only one that had that affect unfortunately, but from a few people I spoke with, finally did it.
I spoke with most people in the game, only alot.. alot harder with people that hid, sry tummel and some rangers non caballed, and other thieves/assassins, but I did mention I did not hunt much. Most often I sat in one room for hours talking to everyone, or rehearsing and talking to a few people. I counterraided, raided, and then kept on talking .

There are people that are stand out chars I want to mention and why, and will go down to the list to the bottom of the barrel of cf, and why I call them that.

Gaspare - Alot of depth to your character and amazing to interact with man. You were number 1 top notch my favorite person to speak with on this game with this char. It was also just a wee bit awkward how much this char had in common with a lich, from what I saw though, our biggest difference is you wanted your wife inside you, and I wanted my daughter outside me, otherwise.. we were both drunk twisted poets whose' closest person to them was dead. .
I wont go into details of our interactions because that was something truly shared between us, but there was one specific one in game that was likely hard to understand. I had already done everything I wanted to do with this char, save for killing you, but I was ok with that one because overall, I really liked your char. But you yourself, because of everything, I wanted to give you a gift from me to you personally. That day in raltevio's shrine I asked a ritual be performed on behalf of my daughter. My char was a schizo I designed her that way, it wasnt a spirit it was just a voice in her head and purely insanity, so that was the one thing that could not change. But.. over everything else I gave you complete control over my chars fate. If you said I needed to die for her to be released, my char would have been gone at that moment. If you said I would need to taint myself with evil and become undead, I would have taken the bloodoath right then.. I literally gave you complete control... and all for her daughter. In the end nothing changed with my char so there was nothing new, but I had wanted truly to give you something that you would remember with this char, and I hope that gave you a good experience in cf from it. Great character, great killer.
p.s. I dont throw diseases at you

Raltevio - no this char wasnt a follower of yours. Largely with how my char was, she clung to people she managed to have an attachment to, if and only if those people cared for her doll (gaspare, elothoril, mahiva, and later in life selionar). Much like dps is in rl (tanzer unfortunatelly called it right that my char was a masochist) my char would hover around the place where gaspare would go, which happened to be your shrine, knowing a part of her would be tortured by it, and fearing the wrath of the god of the shrine itself (her unworthy of anything complex she had).
The reason I do not do much with imms is by and large, most of my interactions with them are bad/nonexistant. Bear in mind after the incident I spoke to an imm in rotd (comment in my role, basically saying I can be an asshole too). A bug on eastern road I prayed about, an imm handled, but it made me and mahiva oddly when he purged the room lose our wilderness time to no longer be at home. It affects me less than a woof elf, but I prayed, no answer. I wrote a note, no answer. The imm that spoke to me in rotd said he would look into the situation where the revenants were called on me with no scarab leadership online, but all I can tell is he ignored it, certainly never got back to me on anything. At most times if you pray about a problem, or an imm says they will do something, to me its just a thing where I already have faith it will not happen. I tend to leave the imms alone because of this, I have negative feelings towards them, and I swear to god if I have one more imm tell me that a person lying repeatedly, whining, going literally ooc with their tells is not something to put on ignore is the last time I keep it in game, and not on every forum I can find.
Eh. So yeah I tend to leave the imms alone, but you were different. I actually wanted to interact with you because you were that awesome. You already knew beforehand likely that I have situations from the past with specific imms and you still held out a branch for me, that was cool, and I would like to say I ran with it a bit. Again, because of the things I saw from you, at the wedding, how much effort you put into actually interacting with chars, that bit at the shrine with gaspare was also for you. I had written you specifically of it in game so you would understand. I could have chosen anywhere for the ritual, reason I did it in your shrine, is I wanted you to see it all, every emote and action from both chars so you knew everything that went on. I wanted... the interactions from you and your follower from it to be something worth having seen. It was the only real way I could say thank you, do something for gaspare for being that wonderful, and you also. That day the who and where was settled just because of you two. Thank you for the story. Thank you for the interaction, and i'm glad you liked the character.

Elothoril - bad elf deleting on me. Thats a bad elf. You were the first non gaspare that showed much interest in amanda, my scizophrenic aspect of my daughter that I used to doll with to interact with her physically. hehehe. I really liked having you around because with you at the tree, I had someone I could mess with rp wise a bit that would likely eat it up and spit some back out at me. It was very much like you loved it, where most of the rest of the people in the tree just had shallow chars and were only for pvp with little interaction.. being able to interact with you and having you back helped give my char a little more depth, and fun to my experience. You mentioned your char was a throwaway char, but I really hope that at least with that char, I helped give you a bit of fun with your experience and it gave you something memorable. Keep getting swallowed into peoples' rp, we love people like you, with big pink floating hearts (with or without daggers in them).

Umm. Golthazar - We did not interact much until the latter part of my characters life, and I am really sorry about that considering what I got from you after I started doing so. Truth, always saw you running around gathering preps and fighing and were always active, and I spoke to others. When you were there it was likely going to be a counterraid happening soon with you, or you and nexus against us (or just me) and even then, it was a situation of typing where alot, so I had a little time to prep some. Otherwise you hurt.. bad x.x. I was going to delete that login where I had fought you, already planned it already, but with that fight I wanted to show you that I can do some stuff, just choose not to hunt (seemed like you had the anti tragedy edge, so could only pump out damage though). I was laughing so bad when I was taken by the guards, could only say bah just one more freakin song man! bah! oh well, good job with that one man. You also deserve mention that when you knew I was ending things, you stood there as an enemy, and rp'd your way for me to stay. From enemy to enemy it always means much more to me for some reason. Thank you for that, but I had already reached the end of my char with things I wanted to do, was out of ideas, and was tired of the same old stuff . We did not interact as much as I wanted, but I hope you liked the poems, the little bit we did have, and can understand why I had to wait to make things right from what had happened of the tree that day. OOC I cant take the #### that was done, but I still had to wait for the ic part to be able to take a better road for how things should be in my eyes.

Terxaxous - would you believe I did it a few times on purpose too? My char had five flaws, I did not want her as smart or wise as other humans, because of her background, and she was known for being innatentive. As one of the few non nexans I did group with that was against things she used, I had to have a person to make her innatentiveness stand out. A few of them, like the one I moved a few rooms away with at the island, really WAS an accident. I tried to show her innatentiveness and nievity with tummel a few times too, giving him a few gifts, or trying to, and things I knew were magical (my char didnt though) and breaking her heart that her gifts couldnt be accepted, all in fun . Still giving one or two for giving to tahren just because he played his part of the villager . Yuo have a strong char, I love your lisp and that you really try to speak with one and its the first I have ever seen on cf. What I was hoping for is to get you to be a bit more mean to my char, so I could give you bad guilt trips, more of them and keep hoping you would forgive her. As a person she adored you though and loved being with you. I may have overdone some things but really, I just loved your char and your lisp and liked bein around ya for it.
p.s. sorry about accidentally killing you at the empirial palace / centurions.

Selionar - I really felt you were given the shaft by your cabal a few times and I felt really bad, but also I really liked your attitude about it, that you were still trying and truckin, and really for a polearm path, REALLY put a hurtin on my rear end holy crap. Tried once to fight you with shield / aura / stoneskin / protection and that was the only time I could manage to stay... a little while. OW. But I wanted to start speaking with this guy, so the day my daughter wrote the poem, i used her wanting your opinion as a means to start speaking to you some. I did not interact with you as much as the others and I am sorry for that, but you I also saw much less, and was harder to remember previous interactions with because of that, and struggled a bit. I take alot of pills each day. Sometimes I'm not the best at remembering everything eh . Still, you came across to me as a real paladin of the code, a person that was a real ass-kicker if he needed to be, and a person that when things were kinda shady with some others, you were still top notch in what you did. I was actually glad that I got to interact with you the times we had. I am personally impressed with your char, keep it up man.

Umm.. Jonsen - stop calling a female char played by a man beautiful. Its creepy . You probably didn't know though but still. She hated being called it because she hated her beauty, hence the comments she wished she were ugly and fat sometimes, though she hated the thought of that too, and being old, and looking old (and just about everything). I hope you got a kick out of all that. You were one of those people that hid alot, so i had to use keepreply and miss all the others, but i kept you on reply more than most of the people even if i had nothing to say at the time. Did I make you cry at all, especally with the one moment I was trying to make a pity party for my doll never having had a life of her own -really hopes so, was trying to-. I really tried my ass off with alot of people to affect them emotioanlly IC, and that was one of those times i am sure I could have made a rock cry with it. You seemed more shallow rp wise, just much more of a person lookin for pvp, but it really seemed you enjoyed these moments, and I loved just.. even if nothing else, keeping you on keepreply just because I knew speaking to you would be worth it when I did. Glad you are back in the village, and glad your part of the game.

Tummel - Dis tummel. I loved hearing it so much I had to steal it (I did mention alot my char was a dirty little thief, I stole croaks from voszoad, alot of rum, words other people used, items from gaspare (forgot to mention I stole the hoops gaspare, that was my bad sorry). IC wise it was something I tried to use to make her fit in more, hopefully get some attention from people because of it and interactions but never once panned out, except from you a little bit. I loved hearing from you. We did not interact as much as some. Hiding.. both of us hiding but it goes down to the point that, there was 1 person.. and only 1 in the shadows of everyone in near hero range, that was not an enemy. You were a comfort to her that she was afraid of (lithodora and i interacted much less).. but my char was desperately afraid you thieves would steal her doll. That fear was something that I could not easily get passed when it came to interaction with thieves, and I did have to make sure that showed since amanda was most of her world. Things did not progress much more than that with you, but you stood out to me for specific reasons, and secific interactions. Good job with getting drillmaster. Level up dang you, and keep truckin man.

Litho - boo. I attacked all five nexans / others lvling in the basillica, then you come and kill the last one remaining before I could. Poor olachmet eh, I really did not know you were there, but he blamed me for it bad. Killstealer lol. Is fine though. Again as with tummel my char was afraid of thieves deathy, because she was afraid of having her doll stolen (wine was secondary to the doll but i was afraid of the wine stolen too) and you just happened to be a thief. I want to say this here though, you have a great presence for the maran and when gaspare is running around, that is a hard thing for a thief to deal with that can be seen. You still were on the hunt, still had a good presence, still went balls out from what I saw you of, and it just made me say that guy is a damn good captain. Thank you for being my eyes sometimes when i asked, and even though I could not interact with you much, I got to see alot. Your doing good man, and I wanted to say good job with it, and thank you for helping Zang I spoke to him alot also even as azuretouched, because he was.. umm.. lost... and could have done with some speaking with.

Kolo - Thank you for forgiving my character, but I had made a deal with adira and had to keep my word on it. A lich is sick to fight, especially as a shaman without a very, very specific path.. all you have left is holy word, and using it will see you dying quickly (leaves a shaman without a shield, correct?). I felt so bad for you man but you took it and kept giving anyway. I did not know what I could do for you, at all. With you I wanted to speak some but I was afraid to, because my heart was going out for you ic and my char was not the same as I was, in the end I did not speak to you very much beyond hello kolo. Im truly sorry because of it, and I wish now just once after seeing your deletion, that I had just spoke anyway, found out what I could have done to aid you if there was any means. You had a great presence, you tried your ass off, and you did not just say #### it I wont even try anymore. You tried every time and I bled for it. If there is anything I can do for you man, ask on my death thread, and will try to speak.

umm. An apology to people in the inn of the eternal star - my char was afraid of crowds and crowded places, as mentioned in her first poem she was born and raised to be a child prostitue it comes a time where she cannot be somewhere because of paranoia. Gaspare had known the details but being there was a thing she couldnt be (she made exception, had to because of the wedding) but beyond that I had little interaction with any of you. I really.. really wanted to know your char well high herald elf arcane whose name I cant remember (now i feel like crap for it) daph something. I know gaspare spoke to you of a certain subject because he accidentally sent me a reply meant for you, that certain subject made me fear you and fear what you planned. Hehe. Heralds are typically people more in depth for roleplay than most people are even ready for, so I try to interact with them alot (like kowelu back in the day, and listening to her stories etc) but due to circumstances, I did not this time around, and I want to apologize to you guys because of it. I usually love my interactions with you all, but maybe next time.

Olachmhet - will still put you here. That.. was one of the oddest and most unique descriptions I have seen, but it created a mental image well enough that I said to myself, that person deserves at least to be recognized in a poem I write as something my char should be afraid of, and that alone.. that desc is why I added you in that one poem. I thought it was awesome. We spoke once philosophically when you were younger, but as you levelled up some looked like you were getting a bit angry. When you died in the basillica to the thief, it really showed then too your frustrations. I am sorry things got like that, and no I really did not call in the maran. Push comes to shove that conversation we had when you were younger, and that description, put you as an honorable mention here because when I saw you, when I was speaking with you, I really thought you would go far. Im sorry things turned out how it did

general category - Mahiva, Hraltir, outlander elf shifters, so many more people I did interact with some, helped a bit, raid and counterraided a bit with. Outlanders got powerful FAST, and for like 3 weeks in a row we had what. 10 items taken or nearly per day? Wooah, there was a dramatic shift in power during my chars life. Many of the rest of the people did not have much roleplay to them, they existed mostly for pvp and fighting etc than speaking, or that is how our interactions tended to be except when I was helping people understand things, find preps (non instinct ones) helping them gear, or helping lowbies understand some things from random tells I would get from them asking me about stuff. Parandalia fits in here and so many that while we did not interact much, but just their presence changes things.

Other comments and bottom of the barrel -
Zszaun - I loved your char a bit you kept it fela, but you did not seem willing to do too much or go far from the tree, without wanting to test skills on me, and test your ambush damage . I dunno, something with your char though rubbed me the right way that I adored you anyway, save for at the end of my chars life what you did with Golthazar. That rubbed me the wrong way. seems you took quite the beating from it also since then.. but man things really come around on a pvp game.. really.. come around.

Nalana - mute so we couldnt talk much for obvious reasons. I wanted to take you once, and see if I could make you at least laugh in rl to make things a bit better, so that one day I offered to help you, I had said, "The reason.. I like you so much is you never get mad at me or yell at me" and as a mute duh, but ya laughed, and hopefully ya did in rl too. Then you promptly got mauled by a bear and was never seen again by me wtf happened?

Cainasir - Also didnt talk much -duh mute- but one day you left a pile of feces at the huntress, and it made me laugh my ass off in rl . It looks like your doing good for yourself, but its hard to judge too much without even being able to do so much as talking.

duergar shaman scarab whose name escapes me at the moment - never got any rp from you at all, ever. Granted we were enemies, but it comes down to that you wanted everyone as an enemy anyway. All I got was a general thing of, you do what you want. No rp, nothing. And considering how your char was, I never made it to a point where I would 'go out for preps' when you were around, and just killed you when you came or fought you when you came to the tree, because the character wasn't worth much anyway in my eyes, that I didnt even bother caring much about him. Then it got to the point that you died so much even I felt bad so I did let up a bit and did not hunt you anywhere except when you came to the tree but still. I feel bad, but man give me something more than 'i do what I want' and thats all your char seems to be on the end of an enemy. Speak a bit. Use your religion to cause an interaction or something.

Tsalantha - Yuo also have rare logins compared to me, I think I saw you three times in my chars 390 hours so we did not interact much. I do though love your character, and did on the character before this. You are the only scarab I have met in this char and spoken to, that actually makes me believe they are a scarabite. p.s. stop interrupting my time for getting drunk! And umm.. thank you for not torturing the children!

Hitrilipimi - I have alot of respect for you as a player, because of a past char. This char had alot less fun interacting with you, especially that day I walked into galadon and killed you. (Most of the time you will hear no songs, is even worse as a leader because leaders get even more bonuses. Vindicator even more -wince-. Most of the time I left you alone because I knew if I sang, you would ignore it anyway. Just that day I was frisky and wanted to really bring it to you alone 1v1. Powerful fiend, only one ever gotten on you. Your attitude about your death then was bad, and so was the one at the spire when we went to take the scales through you. I dont know what happened with you and your char the past few months, but I will still always remember you as a person that helps everyone with knowledge, tries their ass off for everyone they can, and at least does that much. I still love your char for the memories I have of him.

bottom of the barrel -
Quopos - long ooc/lying tirade from you invited you onto a position on my ignore list from you. Heres a thing, reason I dont log off and am on alot of a day? I am a cripple in rl I am paid to have no job. To go shopping? Thats right, since I cant drive and cant walk far guess what, my heavily medicated ass gets a free ride to go shopping. So when I am online, I can be online for 24 hours if I damn well pleased, now for you? For going blatantly ooc telling me to have a life etc et al, now you can just be jealous that I am in a position I can play video games 24/7 if I damn well feel like it. Also, telling me not to write you, the notes were to all. You can do something completely new such as 'not reading them'. I do not know what your problem was, but the first time you ever interact with me comes with ooc ####, lying and spam, you get a spot on my death thread as the bottom of the barrel for cf chars. Try to roleplay sometime.

Jeede - I got in trouble for putting you on ignore for one of your whine festivals you threw. But in two chars I have never heard anyone lie and whine near as much as you, and have an ego far superior than any char you ever have will be. The crap that comes out of your mouth makes me so dissapointed that I am even dissapointed with scarabaeus that you are even tolerated. I had one of the first few voices, and to see you in that position makes me feel like scarab went to utter ####. i have not seen otherwise save from Tsalantha. Because of the crap from quopos and how similar it was to your crap, I can easily believe that is your alt. Heh. You act like your something, but all I can say is what a crappy character.

Gromm - last char I am adding to this thread before I respond to others. I dont.. I really dont know what you were thinking, or even if you were capable of it. In all our interactions all I have ever known you to need was help, you never was capable of anything, #### you couldnt even read your notes to even know about the war with scarab wtf is wrong with you? But then you picked a fight with a harbigner, knowing he was drained completely and was fighting a person she called a betrayor (that was ic mezow, ooc I could understand and cheered ya on btw). You decided to do something as stupid as picking a fight like that.. so yeah. Understand your actions have consequences and you had BETTER be able to suffer them. When I went after you in the tree I was pretty certain I would be icked for it, but I went after you, chased you from the tree and couldnt find you again. Went back to the tree quite a few times to try to find you after that and yes I was going to kick your ass out of the tree again. Here is the worst things about what you did.. 1.. you got your ass kicked by a bard that couldnt sing at you. 2... you whined about it. You are a reaver, reavers are expected that when something happens in the tree that shouldnt, a reaver takes care of business, then speaks about it. What you did made even me feel sorry for your branch because you made the ENTIRE reaver branch look bad. I doubt adira will even let it stand if she sees you again, but you are known for very long periods of absense save brief logins to keep your gear. likely just for reasons like this . I see the character as worthless and unable to do much of anything, especially when you get your ass beat so easily by a bard in the wood that cant sing at you. You had no idea what was going on at any time.. and all I can think of is.. really? Inserted as bottom of the barrel char. Get a clue man.

p.s. complain about my grammer all you want, my english all you want at the moment. I am high on pain killers, had a needle in my face inserted from my roots to the bottom of my eye earlier today which really was not fun, and took my other meds just before writing this all at once, so yeah

Twist - late warning for you. You might not want to read this post because it could make you feel like your eyes want to bleed.

I warned you that you would regret killing me with 4 other people and then again with 3 others. I warned you that you would not be able to stand your ground against me without the others. Then I followed through on those warnings and bested you twice. The first time you fell I didn't guard your corpse because when I finally got back to mine you were telling a lowbie to take everything that they wanted or could carry.

The interactions with you were painful at best, and you very much seemed like you would appear at just the right time or pop out of the void at just the right time to stack the deck in your favor. It's a shame because an outlander bard is very tough without all that nonsense. That said, I am glad that you are using the shift key in your goodbye. The apparent lack of depth to the character coupled with the other things made interacting with you painful, in the end I just avoided it. Hopefully you can get rid of the bad things and build on the good. Also, mudding for 14 hours a day can't be healthy for you.

I didn't regret killing you, ever. You also decided to come to the tree, on your own, facing those odds. You chose to, I regret none of it.

You managed to assassinate me. At least you did manage something, and stripped me. Did I regret it? Nope. Check with cordoze though who was stripped right after said incident. My second death, dont wear a ring that keeps you from fleeing, I killed myself because of it.

You have a bad ego problem which makes you think you actually matter, but really you dont. Stripping me didnt matter. Your lying and whining, didnt matter I put you on ignore.
Both zszaun and cordoze said you had stripped me. Cordoze after wore much of my things, and kept my harp in his inventory. I know because I saw it where after I killed him again another time. I had better by then.

As per our interactions I would appear at just the right time? Yes, it happens when I sit and drink in the exact same room, and spent probably a good 150 hours in that same.. exact room lol. Pop out of the void? Nope, was always speaking with people, just not a whiner like you.
Knock of the lying, knock off the crap.
And mr. english teacher, the first word typed in the sentence is actually say and not what is after, but hey at least you know much about the shift key.

I don't do full loots, ever. When I died and only got back my sword that had been disarmed your stuff was in the pit and so it became the base of my regear.

I did hold onto your instrument because 25-50% of my deaths were to your fiends. No matter what I did to prep 1/3 of them were invincible and killed me, even with 2 edges, 95% dam redux, big saves vs spell and save vs mental and tower. Really every time you sang that song it was a crapshoot if it would cheese kill me.

As far as RP, not all characters are interested in outward influence. On the flipside I didn't receive any attempts to open interactions from you either so I guess those are some decent drugs.

All that said, you were a presence, without you the tree would have been a non issue. I look forward to seeing your next, hopefully as something that can't single command cheese me so we can have real interesting back and forth.

Wanted to say very well done! I enjoyed our interactions and our fights both. Thought you did a great job RP. GLWYN

Thanks for the kind words. I could never tell whether you were just role-playing being paranoid about me stealing your stuff or if you were actually paranoid about me stealing your stuff.

Also, in case you were curious, I never knew you had attacked the Basillica group until you told me in game. I had found Olachmhet in Eil Shaeria and stupidly walked into his mephit, so he left. I then checked the Basillica and found five people there, including Olachmhet. That's a pretty tall order for me, so I tried to call in Kolo to summon Olachmhet out. But by the time he got there Olachmhet was the only one left. I figured he'd retreat if Kolo and I went in together, so I went in alone and happened to find him first.

I had no idea about any past characters, issues etc. Even if I had, I don't think it would matter.

People can make a fresh start if they choose to do so. Most staff will forgive and forget. The big issue is that a lot of players tend to be set in their ways in the sense that they follow similar patterns of behavior over consecutive characters etc. This makes them both easy to pick out of the crowd, and means they tend to get stung by the same rule infractions or called out on the same BS over consecutive characters.

"p.s. complain about my grammer all you want, my english all you want at the moment. I am high on pain killers, had a needle in my face inserted from my roots to the bottom of my eye earlier today which really was not fun, and took my other meds just before writing this all at once, so yeah "

Yikes. Good luck with that. I hope it isn't serious.

Not really serious at all, I'm a cripple. Walking is just a hazard for me sometimes last night I ended up havin a fall. This morning my face is swollen. Is why logged on a few times late last night waitin for the edge to be taken off with what i do get to have usually. Ended up having a bruised jaw, then a tooth that absessed. Should be no relation to the second happening but you know me, its gonna happen lol. But all better. Had to wait till I got home to take my meds all at once, while already on a good bit of pain killers soo.. it was nice. yeah

I think you are a bit of a newer imm on the other part of the post though, especially as you havent yet gotten permissions on the herald inbox yet, hope they get that done soon some heralds especially work their butts off as characters.
As far as the staff, the last imm I knew that really cared to speak with the players, was zulghinlour. If there was a situation and no imm was responding, you wrote a note to him and he would. He would go vis in front of you and speak, you knew who you spoke with. No imm otherwise will do this. It is always 'an immortal'. So who do I speak with now? No idea, but if you have a situation, it is nearly garaunteed the immortals will ignore it. There is no more zulghinlour. There is no imm you can rely on to say ok, I looked everything over, I see everything that happened, and explain everything and fix issues.
I had to go to him a few times, as well as other players.

Look at these comments on one pbf -
Tue May 12 17:57:13 2015 by 'Destuvius' at level 30 (35 hrs):
Your rp is pretty solid and pretty much always on. However, since you seem to think the use capital letters to start sentences is not necessary, I cannot bring myself to give you xp.

-This comment from destuvious. He is far more concerned with capitalization than he is for rp.

Mon Jun 15 12:54:24 2015 by 'Twist' at level 51 (468 hrs):
I'm putting this here in the hopes that someone buys the PBF. You sir need to look at your roles while you are writing them. The formatting is so bad that it makes it nearly unreadable. The fact that you ramble on and on in them

Mon Jun 15 12:55:14 2015 by 'Twist' at level 51 (468 hrs):
...doesn't help matters. TL-DR - Reading your role entries makes my eyes bleed.

- This. I have a problem with english as a third language (can be argued fourth). There are times where I overexplain things, has been known for years, comes from a fear of not being understood, also deals with having english as a third language. This is something twist already knew, also something I had stated to 'an immortal' while playing the character. For all I know twist was taking a pot shot at me because I killed his mort a few times, and he never got me. It could be he was having a bad day. I dont know, but when it comes down to it, he wanted to pull this crap with me, is why I took the pot shot right back on my death thread here, I can treat him in kind.

Thu Jun 4 20:17:38 2015 by 'Twist' at level 51 (348 hrs):
Caught him calling himself a God while he was a ghost. Twist don't play dat. Called him out on it, he called me 'godling' to my face. That earned a slay.

Thu Jun 4 20:18:21 2015 by 'Twist' at level 51 (348 hrs):
Didn't do anything else permanent to him, so far. If he keeps it up, he might just lose his Magic (good suggestion, Desty!)

- While playing that char I had spoken to an imm about a 'defiance of the gods, rise of undead' sort of thing I wanted to have, going with the things with davarrah, also written in my role. The imm, no i dont know who it was, unfortunately did not mention any of it on the comments section. During this time I expected to be slain by a jaguar imm, turned out a different one. But you look here at the posts again by twist, its definately like the imms cant speak, or dont speak to each other. They will also not 'hey, what are you doing with this'.




Now if an imm says they will look into something, you will not get a response. Pray none. Write a note? none. There was an incident today with an immortal that again, if Zulghinlour were still here I would ask him to look at this, because the imm was wrong and lied about it. I wrote a note, but I know that will be ignored, even with having a time stamp.
Imm's hold grudges too, and have all the way back from when I was first playing, when there was an imm that once teleported everyone into tiamat to be killed. There is and has been no 'clean slate', it is things like on this pbf. It is an imm using forceall to force all my undead to attack me. An imm calling revenants, to which I had made the comment I had on my characters role as bethanny. There was the incident today, in which i am fulfilling my word I gave on said comment. Maybe one day we will have an imm that cares again, I do not have faith in it. There is shady crap that happens on this game, and not many imms that are willing to keep your word. You yourself, i would love to have more interactions with you, but at the moment it really seems that you care. That does not go with most imms.

No wonder you were ####ty to me before I had a chance to interact with you for the first time.

Nice going there, using your OOC bias from Jermet to carry over and act like the same jerk to me with this character.

Your stupid. I didn't interact with your character at all, until after you started your whining festival. That you started with this character, and that was all on you.

"You yourself, i would love to have more interactions with you, but at the moment it really seems that you care."

Right now we are fortunate in that the spread of the Imms tends to work quite well. I've tried to ensure that my personal niche for players is in interaction. Other Imms do far more important things (like code, or discuss balance) behind the scenes. I think it would be erroneous to say that the Imms don't care about the game. Even the Imms who enforce standards (often garnering an unpopular reputation) care deeply about CF being the best game it can be.

PS: As an Imm it's also hard to get enough hours hours in the day to cover everyone's needs or desires. Right now I have a significant number of characters which I am juggling, for instance, and some obligations to several active characters which I am trying to get around to.

Slotting CF into a daily schedule can be tough. When imms start something and it goes nowhere, this is usually the culprit.

I wish that we didn't live in an environment where finite resources (including time) was an issue. Unfortunately it is. As a player you don't really have a sense of how many projects are ongoing, since maybe only one or two (of many) involve your character.

As an aside I obtained some written stuff from your character which I need to review later today. I'm muddling through some player written material right now and looking to get it into the game.

I think people saying it is leader only may be misinfo and you may have had it called by a hidden char out of your pk.

..just to get hero people raiding IC so they could kill them.

Looks like it worked at least once. =P

Judging by the sheer amount of text you post - you sure take things personally, it's ok.

And then goes the nonsense

1) Gromm's RP and role has no place for gratitude, affection, friends and whatever. If you would, you could call him a scarabite among outlanders. It also includes not giving a damn about what is happening. Politics? Who cares.

2) I was hunting you for a reason, a reason you well know. You having 100% or 50% hp does not matter. Gromm's build is a bard killer. Outlander bard? Even more of it. The fact that you were oh not ready for my attack? Well, that was the point.

3) You did not chase me from the Tree, I was resting two rooms from the Spirit, there are nice options to being a ranger. Look into log of your "kicking my ass" - I was doing nothing but talk to you for like five rounds when you were hastily swiping me. Outlander bard has no chance of killing Gromm. Just. No. Chance.

4) Reporting you as a defiler was an IC matter. You break what is sacred for an outlander. What else did you expect from me? RP is not about living a life of would-be-prostitute who schisophrenically nightdreams about her deceased daughter (I will abstain from commenting on mental health of an idea of such a character to start with). RP is about being in character. Ancients are sacred for Gromm, Bethanny defiled Tree, hence the concequences.

5) I can take a schisophrenic bard defiling the Tree out of bitterness - that's totally fine, that's quite schisophrenic. But complaining about being reported as a defiler? Please. You clearly have OOC issues with it, which I don't really care about. All that was done was done IC.

I'm done, mate.

I take rp personally. Yes, yes I do. I take my personal experiences in the game personally, as personal as they are sir, quite personally

1. I wouldnt call him a scarabite among outlanders, scarab is an entirely different cabal with a different dogma. War isnt a politic, its war.

2. You were not a bard killer thats a bit... very laughable. Look at the logs on the log board of you against bards. Your build is not a bard killer, its a savage mountaineer whose bearcharges only really permalag in the few mountains there are.

3. I went into every room of the tree, and then below it and through some of the forest. You were also bleeding and a blood splatter was on the path out.

4. It is an ic matter. However what you are ignoring, is getting your butt beaten out of the tree was a bad thing for the image of the reavers, and HOW you complained about it. A reaver, a reaver should kill them, then report that they did so and why, a reaver takes care of business. You... not so much.

5. Schizophrenia has absolutely nothign to do with defiling the tree. Nothing.. I didnt complain about it, I fully admitted why I did it and that I did it. I also did mention it to the others of the tree that I did it, just to rub it into the entire reaver branch .
You do not have a clue. Get one.

Good luck with your medication.

Tsalantha couldn't ever bring herself to get deep into conversation with you because of your drinking. To her, becoming a drunk is wilfully surrendering control of your will. But I did like that you did talk to me, instead of hiding in the hope I would think you weren't on. I think I was always aware of your presence so it was good to get to know Bethanny a little, even if she embodied so much of what Tsalantha scorns. As a player in scarab who doesn't share playtimes with anyone else apart from rare passings, I rely on enemies being engaging to keep entertained.

You guys came close to killing me on my first retrieval attempt. On the second you were a bit lucky, I think, that the fiend made me flee away from Cordoze, meaning I couldn't do damage while you lagged him or send him home just before he died. Worse still was that having killed the fiend on me I rushed back in to rejoin the fight just after cordoze fled from you, so got him killed. I did have some ways to reduce the risk you posed but I underestimated how tough a fight it would be. In fact I was using one of them in the second fight where cordoze died.

As far as Jeede and Cordoze go, I'll just say that while I haven't seen much of them (maybe 4 times each in my life?), with Jeede I always feel that her rp is putting mine to shame. With Cordoze I really feel like I'm with a duergar. From my perspective both are very well rp'd.

I had you pegged for the player of Kregan, by the way. Mind sharing some of the characters you played before you left?

One of the problems with both the duergar and jeede, is I am on the enemy side of the coin. I do not get the cabal speakings, or anything else of that matter, I get the enemy side of the coin, which is the whinings or silence, or only that one comment from the duergar.

Said duergar knew how to hunt and what he was doing, I would have loved more depths from him for speaking together I really would have. Jeede.. would have loved him to stop whining

I can understand being against my char and her ways because of the drinking, but you DID interact with me, and I fully loved it. I wasnt the type that 'maybe if I hide for hours noone will know' I was constantly interacting with people. I hope you enjoyed some of the conversations, especially where I spoke of my fears with your torturing . I did enjoy some of your responses, and umm.. accidental replies to me Or maybe purposeful I dont know but still

I had to prep through the teeth when you came, something I rarely did at all. Stoneskin, shield, aura and protection from evil all up and you nearly killed both of us Tsalantha, both of us about 25% you could have pushed, but yeah the duergar died x.x in that one. Just.. bad luck with timing that ended up with cordoze falling. Has happened to me too.

Kregan? No.. during his time I was playing jermet, the wight. I had interacted with you a few times with him too, is where I knew your char first, and had a good feeling I would like speaking with you, and made a point to do so. Before him I had not played for almost 2 years, due to some incidents with immortals then. I took a break after jermet for a little bit and came back with a nexan assassin, got tired of twist already over cabal channel complaining about how people speak and deleted, then made bethanny.

My characters before this I dont know. My long term memory is not the greatest with names and such. Comes from being medicated like I am, I cant help much there. Its worse that I have forgotten as much of the game as many people even know. Now that I was back in the first circle of hell walking around pretty sure I can remember the second maybe some of the third.. make it to dis? Not likely. Moss that heals? I forget. Some areas changed, no longer know them. Where does the ragged cloak come from again? Etc et al.
No I had a svirf transmuter a few years back that I purposely dressed as a warrior, and was capable of killing villagers without using spells. Not the most successful but definately something very different. Beloved of someone was part of the title? I forget the name. Oh well. Im sorry I cant help more

I'm pretty sure your name was Pelrin.

And I'm also pretty sure you've played a ####load of other characters.

I didn't really have any problems with you, it was all just drow rp. I was hoping we would get a chance to fight more, but my character wasn't going to show you a lot of respect, there was too much pride there after our experiences.

I feel like you might have been overly sore that I killed you out of range and took a few things with that summon trap when you raided, but you got to admit, it was a pretty sweet victory. You took it a lot better than the other parties involved imo.

im sorry I forgot about you. As far as the incident in the throne room, fela chief legsweeps are a pain. I think I got one command in after the first legsweep before I died . Its jusst one of those things where #### happens, I was only happy I wasnt full looted hehe.

I didnt speak to you because I was speaking to alderia and getting her calmed down, and really the incident didnt matter. Took the codex anyway. Gear comes and goes, play enough characters and that stuff doesnt matter. I ended up even after being stripped by jeede, getting much better anyway.
What did make it so I never did speak with you, was qhcf, and really how childish some of the comments were by people. Summoning things isnt new, been done for years, and here is children... yeah.. no. I didnt speak to make sure I kept things completely ic.

And nah, i've had mobdeaths, stripped from mobdeaths. I remember once killing a char, then been slain right after and came back naked, and the slay was from an imm, that almost a decade ago now. Just random stuff that happens.

P.s. So nope, not sore. Wasnt a trap also one song could have gotten me out of it, just didnt get to do it, was an accident of mine not prepping and #### happened. After qhcf I gave you no thought until you entered range, then was a matter of actually fighting you

Nope, not a sweet victory at all either, just a summoner hoping to swarm someone with minions. Just this time it worked, never did any other time with this char, and rarely works. People just do it for the vain hopes that eventually it will. It was a thing of just that time it worked is all. Nothing special to it.

I had assumed Beth was played by a man, but Jonsen the character got a kick out of flirting with an older woman who wanted nothing to do with a relationship, so for this player flirting with you in character was safe. I knew I wouldn't have some internet french model trying to contact me to hook up.

As for my roleplay being shallow, I can't argue. I've tried going a few different directions with my roleplay, and from that I've gotten no positive attention and a lot of pushback, so I've fallen into a pincersvirf mentality. I don't like it, but there it is.

Beth's rp was good in that when you shared her story with me, I felt that uncomfortable feeling you get when you encountered someone mentally ill and you begin looking for a way to extricate yourself from the conversation. You reminded me of a short-lived girlfriend in college who felt that in order to be an artist, it was her duty to not only suffer, but to wallow in the suffering she had experienced throughout her life. Whenever players can connect your roleplay to something that has touched their lives, you are doing well.

You did well.

Rally. Well who will write those poems? You helped me a lot and will miss our conversations.

English is not my strong suit. It was my third language. First being togalog then german. Admittedly started speaking french also before english, but not for long and not much. You have no idea what its like for me to write a poem in english, it takes horridly long comparatively.

Anyone else can write poems, and jees there is even a bard making text pictures that are freakin awesome.

I did not help you as much as I would like, but a gnome druid while can be strong, you had a knack for not having all your pets like you should... they REALLY are powerful, and you have them for a reason .
I felt a bit awkward with you because of that. Now you are nearly alone in the tree and I feel bad that I did not really help you as I should have. Im sorry man. Makes me feel like im a bit crappy about it. Please finish levelling up, and please learn of all your abilities, and how the herbs affect them, especially the offensive herbs / pet herbs!

Druids can be sick, and violently sick against undead. I want to see you being by the end of your life a terror, and you have the courage to try i've seen that much. I want to be a fan horner. Make me a fan

Will do my best as this is the first time playing a Druid and an empowered creature. Been using my animals more since hearing of your death.

I was looking forward to killing you a couple more times after our fun endeavour.

P.S. Quite surprised you were true neutral. Wanted to go Nexus?

Wow man, just... wow. Don't think man.. just... no... that isnt your strong point at all. Not.. at all.

You were fun to be around and generally a good ally to have. I did wonder if you brandished that gem in front of me on purpose but feigning an accident.

I got a kick out of your grudge against nexus.

mentioned you in my goodbye thread and answered this post there, save for the thing against nexus. They want to attack my tree I hunt them, they want to take my item and give it to others, I will do the same back, was just a general thing that they went against my home, I was going to trash theirs.

I wasn't sure if you were trying to follow Raltevio. Bethanny's RP was sort of in conflict with the religion, however, I really enjoyed your RP. You did a good job and I'll miss our talks.

answered this in the big post I made. I actually want to make a char just to have you say stories, and smoke them too. How sad is that x.x you had an affect on me. But I wrote to you on the big post I made.

Why couldn't you wait till age death at least?
What happened? I thought we will end this story with your doll somehow, next week after end of my vacation.
All in all it was fun to have some interaction with you and I really wanted to continue later... though you was usually busy with PK...
Anyway GLWYN.

Dionis I forgot about you, I loved your char and interactions, and I even went so far as to tell raltevio that you wanted to molest me to get me pregnant and cried at him I loved it all. Another outlander made a comment they do not know why you are in the tree, but here is the thing. Killing is just killing it will always happen, but the roleplayers (unfortunately these days the ones that write roles and dont rp also) are the ones that change the face of the game. I loved your char, and a person that actively spends their entire life looking for one thing, to truly change the face of thar-eris for the better, is a char that belongs in it. That day I had that incident was my fault dont worry about it. Your char I loved because you actively tried to make thar eris happen, in your own tragic miserable way. Also no wasnt busy with pk except when I was raiding or defending, which for much of my chars life a raid happened, with no need for a defense for hours, usually until gaspare logged on and made an army .

I did everything I wanted with the char. The outlanders were too strong in my opinion and I was getting bored. I couldnt top my last poem I did on all hallows eve, I couldnt even write again because that felt like.. the best I could do. I left my fate in gaspare's hands as to how my char would proceed, but ended up as just the same ol Nothing wrong with it.. was just.. bored. I did all I wanted to do but the one thing of killing the lich. Hard as a bard but with how awesome of a char rp wise gaspare was, I was still fine with it. Please find what you have been looking for, and I hope you have a finish with your char that makes you proud of having the char and happy with it.

>Dionis I forgot about you, I loved your char and
>interactions, and I even went so far as to tell raltevio that
>you wanted to molest me to get me pregnant and cried at him
>I loved it all. Another outlander made a comment they do not
>know why you are in the tree, but here is the thing. Killing
>is just killing it will always happen, but the roleplayers
> unfortunately these days the ones that write roles and dont
>rp also) are the ones that change the face of the game.
>
>I left my fate in gaspare's hands as to how my char would
>proceed, but ended up as just the same ol Nothing wrong
>with it.. was just.. bored.
>

Heh that was a nice interaction indeed and I was ready to continue and fulfill the promise ... I wanted you to stop all those grievance on cruel life and set you on the real purpose of those of the tree - the natural and chaotic life ( wink to Strienat): the production of offspring, even more so Dionis had the similar problems with it through his unrequited love... (will not reveal all the background yet though, as Dionis is still alive and going to live long life)
And yes, RP is always on first place for me, so this is why I was not usually involved in all those Tree ganking: often when i logged in there was a real tree-gank, almost always I have seen you, then logged Mahiva and Aderia and the gank has began and i just had no time or chance to interact with you properly, and caught you only couple of times in the Villa and in the tree. Feeling your decadent moods and readiness to do something bad to self, Dio dared to offer you his seed for the new life to come and heal your schizo with means of fighting fire with fire That was really fun, when you refused and continued to stay in your decadent mood, but Dio did not gave up and threatened to forcibly treat you from it through your pregnancy for let you forget the deceased child and born a new one continuing life and your offspring.

PS: Did not knew you was Jermet before btw, i have fought him with my previous bard. You was a nice wight, but we have not RPed with him much, cos there was no ground or appropriate motive for it it seems.

Bah! I liked Bethanny. You were a lot of fun. Wish we had more opportunities to do things together! GLWYN

wrote to you in my goodbyes in the big thread, only forgot about dionis sry but I remembered my 'dis tummel' guy
So please look there.