Okay, I want to start with some minor history here.

I'm not exactly new to the fields, but I have only had three or four characters total and no heroes.

All of my characters that I leveled higher than thirty (save one) were empowerment characters.

One was over a year and a half ago and the others were recently, before and now one after the player-wipe.

This most recent one is the first character upon which I have ever had any problem getting interaction with.


On ALL of my empowerment characters I chose spheres that were not lorded over by active gods.


Now, the rope, and it's end:

I've spent the last 15 hours or more (which panned out over more than a month, for various reasons, not the least of which included the complete LACK of response) of my character's game-life praying and doing randomly-thought-up, role-related and role-documented #### to gain empowerment beyond level 35. If the things I did don't work, I don't know what will. I could easily think up other things that would be just as good as what I've already done but I can literally not think of anything that could outdo my previous actions at this point.

Not only that, but I have sent NUMEROUS notes to the immortals and not received a single response, IC or otherwise, to ANY of my notes regarding empowerment.

Since hitting level 35 (I was empowered low-level by an immortal purely, I believe, as an act of kindness) I have been completely STUMPED. The only person who agreed to help me was wizinvis at the time, so I am not certain who it actually was, though I have a good idea. And even they have not responded, whatsoever, to any of my notes.

Before I get railed with the 'don't act like you deserve it' argument, READ THIS PART CAREFULLY:

I am not acting like I deserve empowerment!
I have, however, devoted more than 100% of myself to this character
when I was playing him actively, and the only reason I stopped playing him actively was because I was being ignored (or felt like I was being ignored - wouldn't you?) What I think I deserve is the chance to interact with someone and EARN empowerment.

No one is giving me that chance. The only interaction freely given so far is a surely well-intentioned but ill-received trick that turned my character into the opposite sex, and caused me to even more completely lose interest in playing the character when coupled with the fact that I was also being ignored (again, my perception of events) by the immortals. I mean, come on, if you have the time to trick a character with items in their inventory that border on out-of-character, surely you have the time to interact with them based upon the role that they've spent so much time on?

I'm at the end of my rope. I can't delete and remake the character to spark some life-changing roleplay event in him that causes him to forsake all of his prior vows, because the name will go unusable permanently at this point (not that I want to do that, but it was nice to think it was an option) and I can't drag myself to continue to log on knowing that I am going to get no response from my prays no matter what time I get online.

When I created the character I fell in love with the concept and I played religiously, and I would continue to do so if I wasn't at this roadblock of both empowerment and drastic character alteration. I've paid my dues and roleplayed both being ignored by the gods AND not being the right sex, AND included both of these things in my role, but still no response.

I don't know what to do. Someone help me, or at least poke me in the head and tell me what I'm doing wrong. I came from a mud where this kind of thing happened all the time and all this does is completely demoralize me to the Carrion Fields experience, which I KNOW isn't really like this.

A lot of this may read aggressively. It's not intended that way, it just comes from frustrated fingertips that have spent the past month typing unheard.

- JC