First, a small point RE: Nexus. You said yourself in this thread that you tended to group almost exclusively with goodies, and killed lots of baddies. Therefore, you tended to aid Good. So if Good was in power, it would make sense to kill you, too, even if you're not the "best" target for them to be piking.

Secondly, RE: Heralds.

I personally believe most of the in-game newbie help-type stuff about Herald is somewhat misleading and outdated. It's true, that most of the stuff in game supports primarily the notion of entertaining, but there's a lot more to Herald philosophy than that, and I don't think you ever quite got that, and I don't think anyone ever tried to explain it to you. Basically, the fact that you felt like an ESL Noob at the beginning, combined with the fact that you were obviously struggling at just the basic "entertainer" role created a wall of miscommunication and lackofcommunication that made most of the Heralds who could have helped you understand more about Herald (including, probably, the Imms) reluctant to try.

I encourage you to try another Herald, but you should do it with these questions in mind:

1) Why do Heralds entertain?
2) How do people benefit from events?
3) Assuming everything that happens in Thera contributes to a "Force", like Light/Dark Chaos/Order, and so forth, how do you think Heralds contribute to the balance (or imbalance)?

Basically, while you've got the "small picture" of Herald down (entertain, be nice, etc.), I never felt like you were even aware of the "big picture" philosophy of Herald, which is where the real meat of the cabal lies. When you can tap into that, I think you'll find Herald much more interesting.

Overall, congrats on heroing and sticking it out to age death, that's two up on me!