Role

Chapter 7

Tides.

High and low, ebb and flow.

Curled up in a pit in the weald thinking about how insane she was for what
she'd given up, what she'd done.

From the triumph of slaying Grivs to the black pit of suicidal despair over
perceived failure towards her goddess, Zoraikla was so terrified of losing
Rarywey's love depsite her constant affirmations of 'forever and always' that
she renounced the Scions in essentially an instant after being given the
directive to 'give up everything' for Rarywey.

This is probably an excessively bad move for the saurian's health, and one
that Morius will either be extremely wrathful about or extremely impressed
with.

When's the last time any of His did something like that for Him, after all?

Zoraikla supposed that if He challenged her, she'd argue that Morius hadn't
fulfilled what He promised.

Tilea wasn't slain by Him, as far as Zoraikla knew. Maybe by arguing such a
thing to Morius she could be reinstated.

The power of the Chasm was immense and losing it grieved Zoraikla, especially
since her constitution was so low that she adored having the Sceptre
fortifying her deaths as a leader, but she knew she would rather be weak
without the chasm than strong there and without Rarywey. To not have both be
possible...this was the next best thing. She wasn't certain if Rarywey would
be angry if Zoraikla sought re-entrance from Morius. She's afraid to try. She
had highly underestimated Her reaction to Zoraikla 'peacefully' breaking
through the Inn for gambling's sake. She'd proven that she'd choose Rarywey
over the Chasm. Would trying to rejoin somehow break what she demonstrated?
She wasn't sure, and that scared her most of all. No other cabals would take
her. She'd try to join the Heralds, but Rarywey said no.

Being hurt emotionally, or feeling like she said the wrong thing and was going
to be abandoned, felt far too much like what had happened with Tilea to not
send the saurian into a self-destructive spiral of iconoclasm and shedding of
anything she could possibly do to not lose her only relationship, because
Rarywey had ALWAYS been there for Zoraikla, from the first day they met when
she declared herself to this one.

Having literally written the book on shadow magic, or at least shadow as an
element of its own, Zoraikla can still cast the blackfire nova, for now.

Wood-And-Bones has done a good job of cheering her, at the least. Zoraikla is
afraid of what the future holds but feels for once she might be able to handle
it.

Maybe for once she can experience the feeling of high tide and replete waves
instead of feeling like a failure.