Death_Angel | Sun 29-Nov-09 12:12 PM |
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#29544, "Bezzilan's Role Chapter 1"
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RoleChapter 1 Royal Pains Added Tue Oct 6 15:10:24 2009 at level 51:Days, weeks of oafish drunken behavior all blur together for Bezzilan. The anguish was overwhelming. The uncaring disdain for the trappings of life and courtesy and utter lack of joy at even the things formerly most cherished manifested not only in his interactions but in his art. More alcohol was consumed than perhaps ever before by any human in all Thera's history. Some depressed dwarf probably beat that, but who knows. Wallowing in self pity kept him in the cycle of pain, a constant two sentence mental conversation: How can you fix murdering someone? You can't. No way out, no path to redemption. Spiraling into an abyss of despair.
Until he met with Rayihn. Where once there was resignation, she brought hope. Where once there was surrender, she brought hope. Where once there was pain, she brought healing. Perhaps also a knuckle shaped impression in his forehead.
He came away with more than his old spirit back though. More than simply a return to life the day before his tragic mistake. No. He is perhaps less than he was in some ways, but he is far, far more. As Rayihn made clear, he is not a god. She may always be right, but it was sheer arrogance to think he would live an infallible life. He knows that know. He has tasted the bitterness of making the worst of all mistakes, for him. And he has come through it, with her help. There is a wisdom there, and with this newfound depth he has a renewed vigor to engage, to explore, to find not only sights and sounds, but perhaps meaning, and to bring that to others.
He continues to find genuine bewilderment each time someone mentions someone being made of light or darkness, as though we are all not flesh and blood (in his case, maybe a bit more ale in that blood than others!). Light and dark are just things that make it easier or harder to see. When the sun is out or it isn't, night and day. People are not made of light or dark, they are made of their deeds, and each does as each chooses. He has made his choice. And she is not shy of sharing that. But he respects others' choices. He tells how he believes, but he doesn't push and push and push. At the very least he can hope to reduce the unintended murdering, if not the intentional. Only time will tell.
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