Role

Chapter 4

Now who can tell me about some important events in Erendinia's life after going
to the wider lands of Thera? Anyone? "She joined the Fortress!" "She met with
Baerinika!" Excellent, excellent, 0all of you! That's right, Who can tell me about
the Fortress then, and why it was important to her? You, Soliterrisel, go ahead.
"Well, ma'am, she'd been alone ever since she'd left home, and she really didn't
even realize *how* alone she'd been until she found others she might begin to be
trust, and who would trust her. Her only goal, her only vision after leaving home
was to try and make up for the deaths of Dereninian and Lohseravel, her brothers,
for whom she felt entirely responsible. She still felt mostly responsible, but she
realized that the duty she felt might have been inspired by the tragedy, but was
really something much bigger, a much bigger fight against all that is dark. And
when she got to Voralian and started hearing of the Fortress, she learned they felt
the same, and had dedicated themselves to it, just like her, but even more, and with
great teaching and learning as well. So she grew, inside, and her spirit began to
come out of the small hard place it'd been in. She found it easier to live up to
her vow of purity, because she was supported by her new family. But harder, also,
because though she still was scarred enough not to want to ever speak for or tell
others what to do, she realized that just being a maran would mean she must set
an example. And so she resigned herself even doubly to live right as she must."
Well said Soliterrisel. Now, who can tell us of her first real takling with her
Goddess, Baerinika? "Me, me!" Ok, go ahead. "It was really great! And she had
this really huge spear that was white and there were jaguars walking around and
grass and it was misty and..." Stick to the importance for Erendinia please, child.
"Ok, ok, anyway, after she'd joined the fortress she'd started seeing a lot more of
Thera and she began to have questions that weren't easily asked. So she wanted some
advice from her Goddess. And I think she just wanted to get to talk to her, you
know, like wanting to talk to a hero or something? Anyway, afterwards, she felt
much better about trusting her judgment, and when faced with a difficult decision,
she could think what would Baerinika do, and usually she'd be alright. Or, maybe
dead, but her spirit would be alright, if you know what I mean, ma'am?" That's
true, but wasn't there more? "I can't remember... I'm sorry." That's alright.
But what you should always remember about her in this part of her life was that
this was the first time she'd really been part of anything greater than her
immediate family. Melding her personal drives and the things she thought were
proper, in accordance with the ways of Baerinika, with the need to work together
with her new fortress family, was difficult, especially for her, who did not want
any responsibility for anyone else, having had such trauma with that with the death
of her brothers. It was a conflict that made for an interesting life, as she
developed. But we can talk more about that tomorrow....