I look at that long and I'm like "dude, yer a tool."

It did help me, later, to not act like that, though (one reason I recommend reviewing logs of your own deaths after a few days - not only can you see what you did wrong pk-wise, but you can view your own RP honestly).

I don't think I ever logged stuff during my Maclochlan times, but I wouldn't be surprised if I had a few "bleh RP" moments with him too.