Where to begin?

I guess with the beginning. I had this idea in my head for a long time and always wanted to play it out. I had a good time. Never really thought I'd make it as far as I did, but hey, it was alot of fun. Always wanted to get to know what Nexus was all about from the inside. I'd seen alot of members back in the day, but never really understood it all. How better to get it all down pat then to make one, eh? I really, REALLY like the changes to the Nexus philosophy since Vahlen immed, great job. So I got in and really thought there was no chance of leadership...then Divox imms. I log on to delete and BAM!!, get Lord Elder. At the time I got Lord Elder, I was in school and knew I would only be able to play late nights, as I went to school in the morning and work full time after school. I hope I did a good enough job devoting time (and hey I passed all my classes, so it's all good). Yeah...I should really stop blabbing my mouth and get to the farewells and stuff.

Complaints (I'll keep this very short):

Nexus powers need some work (I mean look at the powers of our main enemy), but I'm sure the imms are tired of hearing that one. The bond is really cool, but
1) You have to rely on someone else, something I really don't like doing.
2) There is a serious problem finding someone to bond with.
3) Why would anyone bond with anything but a warrior (without giving too much away).

Compliments (which too many forget):

To all the imms and players who make this mud so fun (read addicting). Without all of you, your hard work and dedication, and commitment to the game, cf would be nothing.

Farewells:

Immortals:

Vahlen - I put you first because I feel you had the most influence on Nydeikon of any imm. You were constantly there for questions, concerns, and you continue to do a whole hell of alot for the mud and of course Nexus. You rule. I think my biggest regret throughout 855 hours of Nydeikon's life was not making him a follower of you. I guess it works out though because he was made for Savraeth's religion and it wouldn't have worked for your religion.

Divox - You are awesome. I said it before and I'll say it again, the biggest small shoes I ever had to fill. You really did alot for Nexus as a mortal and continue to do alot for the cabal as an imm, good job. Oh yeah, stop talking about dying so much. *wink*

Arvam - Hey, thanks for everything. All the interactions were truely classic, you are a GREAT imm. From doing Iunna and my wedding, to chatting in the Inn, to backing me when I fought those Marans, you rule.

Iunna - Man, I really don't know where to start. I had fun. Nydeikon always tried to treat you like a lady first, I loved the interactions. I really was pulling for you to immort, I'm glad you did and good luck. I really dug your character for a long time, I'm glad we got to spend so much time together. I really am at a loss for words.

Savraeth - Um, who? *chuckle* Just kidding, I really think your religion is cool. I always thought it was funny how our talk started out with you telling me that you'd never tattoo a Nexan and ended with you doing just that. I really thought Nydeikon was the embodyment of your religion, I just wish I could have seen more of you. I think I saw you all of one time in 855 hours, but I know how much you do behind the scenes, so of course I understand. Thanks for everything you do/did.

Mayesha - Nydeikon really didn't know how to react to you, but I was falling out of my chair laughing behind the computer. Always popping up and messing with me, it was great, thanks.

Thror - Thanks for the compliment that one time. It really upset me to hear that you (read the destructor) told villagers to loot from Nexan kills so much.

Calradian - Hey thanks for being a friend from the beginning, I knew you'd make it and hope you continue on. Truely well played character.

Derexal - Thanks for everything, we went way back.

Vynmylak - I like the area, though I wish I could have explored it more. I had a blast with you as a mortal, thanks for the fun/help. Damn that accent is tough to make out sometimes. *chuckle*

Dugruain - Good luck and thanks for all the fun fights as a mortal. Damned grumpy dwarves.

Intronan - Thanks for the compliment at the Village, it meant alot to me. Too bad we play at completely opposite times, I'd have liked to talk to you again.

Johan - God were you a beast, sorry to see you go.

Karithia - Bah! You're not frigid! Heh, good luck with the imm stuff and thanks for the interactions in the Inn all those times.

Nexus:

Thalongrim - Man you rule. We had a blast, didn't we? I always knew I could rely on you for anything. You are a strong character all around and do too much for the Rift for me to even put into words. Thanks for everything, but above all else, thanks for being Nydeikon's best friend. Oh yeah, good luck with Dieca.

Lorak - I wanted you to be Elder Magus from such a young age... I went to Vahlen and recommended you, way back. I think you did a great job and loved watching you grow as both a fighter and a leader. I guess you were a tie with Thalongrim for my best friend, we really made a great team. You were most definately my favorite person to bond with and I hope you know that with you I would have taken on anything. It really sucked to see you go.

Sporial - You are the best healer I have ever been around. You'd heal stuff without having to be asked and you were just an overall badass. You did so much for the Rift (and keeping us kicking through some really rough times) I can't even put it into words. I really wished you would have immed, but hey, I understand about OOC stuff. Very well played.

Sphinf - God you are cool! I wish you would show up more, but I loved having you around. You truely were a good friend and had me falling out of my chair from laughter on numerous occasions.

Kazahando - Heh, you've been around forever, glad to see you are still kicking. I really liked having you around and hope your con is holding up, good job.

Faoin - Thanks for "the talk" early on. You did a good job of explaining the Nexus beliefs, hope I continued on that tradition. I tried to mention you in all of my interviews, though no one knew it was you I was talking about when I said "as a very good friend of mine once said..." or "as a wise friend of mine once shared..."

Jraln - Good having you back. You did a really good job and really deserved the title and the special place in the Rift.

Theerkla - I really thought you were going to get leader after Divox immed. Too bad we played at completely opposite times you were cool to have around/be around.

Bleergiem - Um...see above.

Krajus - Heart, heart and more heart. You just kept on going, no matter what happened, good job. I really wish you would have stuck around longer, well played.

Xerimnyl - I think it was you that first got Vahlen's tat, bastard. I was really jealous, too bad you were so short lived.

Caeth - Sorry you deleted after that raid gone horribly wrong. I really would have gotten to know you better. Damn that was a long time ago.

Dakherizin - *grumble* I really hated seeing you get the boot. Oh well, guess that stuff happens. I always wondered why you didn't show, care to share? Anyways, I was really hoping you would roleplay it out and get back in, you know you would have had my support.

Fristapholin - Why were you such an ass early on? Well sorry for kicking you out, I really didn't want to do it, but Nydeikon wouldn't watch you sit there and be so mean to other Seekers. I'm glad you stuck with it and got back in. It really is cool having an invoker around.

Bretchek - Bastard. I really was pulling for you to make it to the hero ranks, you seemed to know your ##### and I would have loved to see what you would have done.

Octavin - Hey, thanks for being there at the end, I'm glad I could spend that time with a Seeker.

All you other Seekers - Keep up the good work. I know it is tough sometimes, but stick with it.

Battle:

Loborguz - Damn you were a beast. Thanks for teaching me how to fight assassins, you really were a great enemy to have. I enjoyed all of our interactions.

Penz - This character really grew on me. At first I hated you, but the more and more I got to know you, the more I liked you. Great job sticking it out through some really tough times.

Shamus - Another character I absolutely hated but grew to love. You do a great job as leader, I'm glad you got it. A really well roleplayed character.

Varrik - I really respected you as a character and as a player, good job.

Thralkoz - Damn do I hate rager giants or what!? You were really a good fighter and a good leader, well done. I had tons, heaps, mounds of respect for Thralkoz. I really can't say enough good things about how you developed as a player, great job.

Vhenos - I hated village thieves as well, I'd rather fight an assassin anyday. You seemed to do well, sorry you deleted.

Mobongo - Another character with tons of heart, great job. I liked seeing your skills develop.

Sehvoor - You taught me alot about fighting with/against an assassin very early on, thanks.

Sharvin - Hey, it was fun. I still think you could have remained to be a VERY tough foe if you had stuck it out, sorry you didn't give it a try, but still well done.

Rhuean - We had some great fights, thanks. And yes, I hate choke. I hope you keep truckin'.

Tambra - Man that was a great fight at the Village. Me raiding alone, you alone to defend, an assassin against a Village axe spec, damn it was a great fight. I flee stunned at -6 hps, recover to have you come in and attack and I score the kill, damn, had my heart pumping the whole time, truely wish I logged stuff. Then my heart sunk as I got hit in the burning fields, by the fire that Nydeikon followed for his whole life, and died, only to have you loot both me and you, that really was poor of you. Oh well, I guess I just hated you from there on out.

Segroi - Yeah it was a cheap assassination, but Nydeikon viewed it totally differently. He saw it as a blessing to you, a gift, the gift of all gifts to be exact. Oh well, sorry you hated me for it.

Vorzythur - Any reason you deleted?

Marlek - I really respected you, well played.

Elshadriel - I was looking forward to fighting you alot more, sorry you deleted.

Rio - First I'd like to thank you for giving me a HUGE laugh. You see, I always have my winamp playing mp3s on random while I play cf and the first time you and I fought, for some strange reason Rio, by Duran Duran came on. I honestly fell out of my chair and had to run somewhere and quit because I was laughing so hard. Now onto the character... I honestly hated Rio. I really have no clue why Thror let you stay so long, but hey, that's cool. It sucks that real life pulls you away from the game, but if it does, just let it, delete and move on. I think it's really strange that you could play JUST enough to keep the character from deleting, but no more. Anyways, I never saw anything stellar from the character, it just seemed to me that you couldn't play that often, but when you could play you wanted to play a hero and nothing else. It just doesn't seem fair to me.

Scion:

Dullameh - Of course I'd start with you. I really considered you one of Nydeikon's good(best?) friends. From WAY early on, I liked you. I remember saving a couple items you need to lich, only to go to war with you, damn that sucked. Sorry we had to war again there at the end. You really are a great leader and a great roleplayer, well done. I know I'm not saying enough, but you get the point.

Viornsra - Yeah, I remember you. You were one of my good friends back a LONG time ago. We made a great team and you helped make Nexus and Scion allies more then you know. Our interactions so long ago really did seal the deal for a future of working together. Damn you were a beast, good job.

Eleke - Well done. I liked you alot. You also helped keep the Nexus/Scion bond strong. There were times when I knew I really shouldn't be trusting you, but did anyway (because that is what Nydeikon would have done). You play the evil backstabbing assassin very well, keep it up.

Jhamas - I wanted to fight you, but at the same time I really didn't, great fighter.

Rhowyn - Damn you did such a good job roleplaying, where did you go? I really expected to see good things from you. Best of luck.

Krivohan - Wish we could have talked/interacted more then we did. You do a great job as a leader and as a fighter as well. Keep up the good work.

Tilaen - I knew you were a backstabber all along, but Nydeikon was very trusting to those he called a friend. Well played and thanks for the interactions.

Iillien - I just know you were waiting to attack me on the ocean. I never really talked to you, so I didn't trust you at all.

Bezonsalith - Too bad you deleted, you seemed to play a scion warrior really well.

Taelen - *grumble* You were just frustrating all around.

Tribunal:

Gorgan - Aargh, I hated you. Thanks for giving me an enemy, sorry you deleted so soon.

Brindale - You were a great friend, thanks for everything. I always knew I could count on you for help, thanks.

Widdengrub - Wish you would have stuck it out, I was looking forward to talking with you more.

Herald:

Xiouze - Hey, great fun. I really liked your character, keep on truckin' and good luck.

Cariatid - Another great character, thanks for all the statues, you really are well played.

Claustren - Damn you for deleting.

Dieca - Wish I saw you more towards the end, I really liked your character. Make Thalongrim a married man, will ya?

Dalentar - I'm not sure if you were a Herald or not, but it was great having you for a friend. Thanks for the interactions.

Sreath - Not sure if I spelled that right, but I really wish you hadn't deleted.

Jashere - See above.

Dawn:

Lanaulyn - You really were a great friend of mine. I'm glad you ended up getting Savraeth's tattoo, you deserved it....but why'd you delete!? Ah well, I really liked your character and enjoyed having you "scout the skies" for me. We made a good team.

Scarab:

Maelifarau - I wish we could have interacted a bit more, I was looking forward to talking with you.

Entropy:

Zandrumial - Damn you were annoying (of course I know that was just you). Wish you would have stuck it out as an imm, you did a great job as a baron, in my eyes.

Krogum - I really enjoyed your character from the first time we talked. You were REALLY young, but something about you from that time on stuck with me. Good job.

Warlock:

Shila - I was really curious to see what you would do with leadership, I'm glad you got it, I really can't think of anyone else that deserved it. I truely hope you stick it out, you have the potential to do alot for Warlock as a whole. Thanks again for being such a good friend.

Shilite - I have no clue why I remember you, but I do.

Maran:

Aliera - You can really be a force when you show, least you seemed to be. Thanks for the interactions from early on.

Karhon - I guess I can include you here now I really hated that time at the Inn, I still honestly feel all of you were in the wrong. I have no clue how you could even begin to think that attacking the Inn, just to kill one evil bard, even if it meant falling two neutrals, the Inn guardian, bouncers, and offending pretty much every Herald would be a good idea. Oh well, I'm glad you got in and hope you stick with it.

Ravenoth - Thanks for the friendship from early on. I wish you would not have disappeared, but hey it seems like all Marans seem to do that.

Zardik - I really like this character, I just wish you'd show more often. Thanks for the talks/help.

Lorimer - You saved the lives of more goodies in our fights then I ever thought possible, great job. I really liked having you as a friend and absolutely hated fighting you.

Tylinn - It really upset me that you would invoke your tattoo on me everytime we fought. How could you even justify that on a neutral? Ah well, that is all that led to our little...misunderstanding. Glad we cleared it all up.

Kerikorlian - In Nydeikon's lifetime, you were the embodyment of a perfect Maran. I'd tell you that the Light tipped the scales and you'd offer your life to protect them and I respected that. Great job, I was truely impressed with your character.

Sylvan:

Weswin - grrrr. Was looking forward to fighting you more, can't even remember why our characters clashed so much, but I remember the fact that they did.

Those fire dousers from a LONG time ago - I was REALLY looking forward to a "war"-type relationship with you all. Sucked that you all deleted before we could play it out.

Others:

Esoehi - Thanks for being such a good friend.

Tiberianus - Damn you, it really sucked that you attacked me that one time, I hope you know that Nydeikon considered you a very good friend and would not have attacked you, no matter what. It really hurt him to have you attack like that.

Asielith - You were really fun to talk to, wish we could have hung out more then we did. Thanks for being a friend.

Albaszn - See above.

Kaicentsai - Thanks for all the help in my young years. I was looking forward to fighting with you as the years past, sucked to have you delete. Was there any reason for it?

Everyone else I'm forgetting:

Sorry, I really suck with names.

Some of my past characters (because I kind of like seeing who was behind the character):

< H-Elf > (BATTLE) Gough the Dumb Blonde
< D-Elf > (EMPIRE) Tyldur the Knight Hero, Imperial Soldier
< Human > (ENTROPY) Yarnty the Hero of Alteration
< Elf > (ARBITER) Calarathiel Tanthanalas, the Beloved Child of the Hummingbird, Aribter Lady
< Human > (MARAN) Pohanad the Ale-Soaked Maran, Drunken Drummer of the Brigade

Well, see you in the fields.

Ryan.