Wow what a fun ride right up to and including the end!

This whole character was built around the concept of Loss.
Unfortunately my later role entries kept getting deleted which
I think is a bug? That would have made it difficult for the
immortals and namely Rahsael to really understand the nuances
of the character but I did my best IC to flesh it out. In
hindsight, my roleplaying needs to improve a lot to pull off
such a dangerous knife's edge approach because I felt a lot
of interactions were misinterpreted and for that I do have to
take responsibility and apologize. I learnt a lot though and
hope to do better with my next role. This one may have been
too hard for me!

In essence though, I wanted to try and accelerate various angles
of loss to Dhaudeshia, such as, but not including:
1) Loss of position and reputation in the spire
2) Loss of finances and valued possessions
3) Loss of morality
4) Loss of mortality without redemption

I wanted to become a damned soul, loathed by all, hated by many.

In the end I was unable to achieve this because my pathway to
wight was closed off to me. Wight was to be a gloriously fitting
end to this character but I was disbarred and again I take full
responsibility for this because my roleplaying was not up to
the challenge that I set myself. Which sucks(!!) because I was
really looking forward to applying for Rahsael's religion and
discussion all the nuances to the character.

300 hours is a lot to pick through as I was lucky enough to
interact with so many great characters. In fact I cannot remember
a single bad interaction from others. I just hope they were
able to get a glimpse of what I was angling for here (there were
definitely times were I let myself down!!).

Firstly to the Immortals - thanks for an amazing game! It will
take me another 10 Dhaudeshia's before I even begin to understand
how to play a necromancer because they are so nuanced (so, so
powerful and so, so powerless all wrapped in a neat little bow!).

Ishuli - I LOVED our discussions and the way you were not willing
to let a (100%) corrupt magistrate push the boundaries. I was
hoping to get provincial before my fall, because it is a greater fall!
But the fall itself was the hook I was after and a piece in the
Loss puzzle that was needed. Keep up the great work!

Rahsael - I feel like a massive disappoinment now that I was
unable to pull off this character. I put my heart and soul into
roleplaying it out but in the end I was defeated. Please accept
my apologies (I really think you would have liked my role
additions but I am not sure why they disappeared. They
certainly would have cleared up a lot of vagueities).

Mortals - WHERE DO I START? Apologies for those I miss out
because I am still tingling from the loss of this lasting character
that I loved.

FORTRESS:
Borlan - WHY DID YOU DELETE ON ME! I wanted to RP with you
more and see if I could bring you to the darkside!

Jeunne - Amazing paladin that stands up to the dark face of
corruption. You were unbreakable! Far too strong a player for
me, well done!

Ueradinl - We had a LOT of great fights when we were younger
and you would definitely be what I consider to be an arch-enemy
because we ranked up at basically the same time! Very skilled,
very slippery and very deserving of one of my final deaths!

Rederic - You were a real trooper and I thoroughly enjoyed all
our interactions. I just wish you stuck it out longer!

Tamhas - So, so powerful! I never would have thought an
azure monk would be so deadly. I had to watch my every move
and you brought out my most corrupt side (I believe I summoned
you several times in town!). You are a true paladin and my words
for Jeunne ring true for you as well.

Drissa - Every time I interact with you on various characters I
am never disappointed. Truly a generational character, well done!
I only hope bigger things are in store for you!

Battle:
Broutgroic - We had some fun fights at the end there. Like I said
IC, you are one tough bastard! Seeing you beating up like four
people on the outskirts and then nearly one rounding me was
hilarious. All the best!

Ifriq - Super strong commander and well deserving of the position.
You were incorruptible, though I didn't stop trying! I always love
a rager who gives a big "FU" to the law and hunts a mage in town.
Beastly!

Drizzo - We had some amazing fights and some great dialogue.
You put the OW in drow.

Zorumef - To put it simply; you are WAY too strong for me! Well
played my little friend.

Zah - See Zorumef and add a little more! Best rager I've seen in
my times playing CF! Hope you made the pillar!

Outlander:
Ischer - Whenever I walked on the open sea I could always count
on you being there to ambush me down! I have no idea how you
can be so good at that, the open sea is a nightmare for me to
navigate! Really good sunwarden, all the best for what is in store
for you.

Rassel - Ahh Rassel. I can't even write your name without a smile
coming to my face. I thought you were hilarous (in a good way)!
I want my periapt back!! I am always impressed by someone
RPing a thief in outlander and forgoe-ing hide. It's a super tough
row to hoe.

Japhire - I missed you in the end, where did you go? You were
ALWAYS up for fun and I appreciated that! I got lonely in the
spire without you causing havoc.

Spire:
Luciaquos - Really hard name to type out for me but thanks for
guiding me all the time whilst I was a magisrate. You are a great
provost and always inspiring.

Jeremiaca - You must type at 1000 words a mintue! Sometimes
I think you exceed the rate at which your keyboard can handle
for half of it sounded like Minotaur speak! But I loved our chats
and how passionate an Ishuli follower you are. I hope you make
Justiciar one day. Fingers crossed!!

Itham - I was really trying to work a RP angle on you and I think
I was almost there but then I see on twitter that you are trying to
con kill yourself, and then you con died, and that was that! Damn
it!! I had a whole chapter of my role dedicated to our little tussle
and I really appreciate your time and efforts.

Krizhul - I'll add you under the Spire because you're close. I have
to say that you have the most nuanced backstory I saw with my
character. Sorry we couldn't travel much in the end however I really
do love characters that roll with the punches and evolve over time.
When one door closes, another opens? You are the shining example
of that. I look forward to where you take your character!

That's about it for now, sorry if I missed anyone - I know I would
have!

In summary though - I apologise if my roleplaying of this character
was poor but I tried my best and I knew it was going to be hard!

Have fun out there all xx