Role

Chapter 8

"An Elf will never truly care about you."

These are words that Damil heard from Vethi in regards to Celedyl. The
shapeshifter knew that that the assassin was probably just trying to throw
him off guard or put a wedge between him and his developing friendship with
the elf. But it was still a verbalization of things that Damil
"suspected." That no one actually cared about him(and especially not an
elf or wood-elf). And why would they? His life will go by in a flash. And he
never felt deeply for anyone either, and the best he could do is do his best
to fake it.

Outwardly, Damil thanked Vethi for the advice and warning but stated that he
would be fine. It is best to give people at least a small chance for a
developing friendship after all! Damil also knew to moderate expectations.
People will often favor duty over friendship and will rarely take the time to
even consider connection. Connection is often taken for granted, and Damil
suspected because it comes naturally for most people. However, even with the
logic to moderate expectations, one cannot help one's feelings.

When his parents abandoned him, Damil just dismissed any feelings that could
be born out of this. In fact, it was just created as logic. People will just
abandon you when you are no longer worth it to them. Add an attempt to add
feelings, and one creates an individual who will not handle abandonment or
any suggestion of it. And if they don't care, they will leave.
Unfortunately, Celedyl did leave the realms which feed into these abandonment
and attachment issues. And it was further proof that an elf would not care
about him.

Of course there is that feeling Rarywey, a wood-elf goddess, is feeding him
nonsense about him being valuable. Damil can't help but study and analyze
every single action or inaction.