Role

Chapter 5

I must admit to myself here and now that my last set of notes and claiming
Jhelruk is Mr Idiot not overly becoming of one of my profession. I let
frustration get the better of me and for a moment fell into the trap of
becoming judgemental rather than helpful. My primary frustration is I simply
feel well I did feel that I was a pawn in his little game. My sole purpose
not to actually help but to be an outlet for justification. I guess similar
to a priest who takes confession from a sinner or has no plans in anyway
shape or form to change, but simply wishes forgiveness and the passage of
forgiveness is somehow an enabler to continue the same behaviour. Else why
would forgiveness have been given if the behaviour was truely unforgivable.

But today, today I saw the glimmer of change and an engaged mind, indepth
discussion was held on the impact that Rilora has had on him, specifically
the Imperial and Tribunal inquisition that followed. Rather than an accounting
of victory of the victory against the unsurmaountable odds against him, he
instead discussed on lessons learnt from this encounter, and that his own
impulsiveness at that time was not the correct time nor the correct place.
On its own I would have my doubts but he also spoke quite passionately of the
arts asking me many a great question on sculpture, paintings and so forth. Such
is simply a small hobby of mine but none the less an extended interest outside
of himself for me shows that change may just be starting to happen.