Role

Chapter 12

Iliunezyn asked me to join him in the chasm, to forsake things here and go there.
He says I am not appreciated here, and he is lonely. That is a consequence of his
choice. He said that together we might perhaps yet stop the worst from happening.
Seductive and sweet, and full of lies I think. I do not know the future, but I will not
stray.

I will, however, keep talking to him, and we will see if that ever bears fruit. If not,
that is alright, but it does sadden me.

I spoke with Elitorsa on Judgement. The first word she said is responsibility. Casting
judgement is not without consequence. So it is important to remember that when you must.

Speaking with Quivdereayeh on Judgement, and on Iliunezyn.
On judgement, she says that without Mercy the Light is cruel, without Justice the light is
ineffectual. And withing Judgement the light is reactionary.

Judgement lets us look into the facts, and the pasts of those involved, and to determine
the outcome most likely to lead towards a better world. Justice simply exerts a punishment
or reward on the matter at hand. More about righting wrongs in the past than about the future.
Mercy wishes to forgive the past in hopes of a better future. It is less concerned with
righting wrongs of the past.

Judgement in effect tempers both towards a better outcome.
We spoke on Iliunezyn, Quivdereayeh and I. On how he was flirtatious, and tried to lure her
into the temple. And how she was loath to follow, how it was not the first time.


She was asked to lay down her life, same as I was, yet I did and she did not.

The same offer he made to me, he made to her, a place within the Chasm.

I will continue to speak with him, and understand in my heart that he lies even when
he may speak a truth.

It is not in me to give up hope.