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Chapter 5

Woe is fate, the endlessly driven entity of viciously circular agony that it
is. And woe is Nuloh, for I the being known as Nuloh have been a subsequent
center for this cruel entertainment from the day I was born. I do not
remember my truly early years of course, any that does is either truly
blessed or truly cursed, but I do know that my birth was my mothers death and
my fathers hate. The earliest memories are those of a dark room constantly
filled with the soft half echoes resulting from endlessly dripping water
leaks. This time I could not measure for I was not subject to the permission
of knowing what time even was, I only know that it stretched almost endlessly
and brought about a kind of stirring madness within me. And yet, when the
door was open to give me food I would rejoice and be tormented at the same
time, until of course the door was open to bring me out on that day when
things changed and life began. Was I truly born on that day, or was I born
later?

Tossed from the back of the carriage I only had a last fleeting glimpse of my
fathers bearded face as he pulled back the curtains to shroud himself from
the glaring sun. Of course I felt a certain elation at the freedom of this
endless place and the texture of what I would later learn to be sand below my
now bruised palms as I sat and watched the wagon roll away into the endless
wasteland. Those first few days and nights will haunt me eternally.

Or was I born finally as I found out how to survive in the wasteland that
seemed to seethe with unkempt hot burning rage at day and draw away into an
utterly solitary chilling blackness during the night? When I finally learned
how to siphon life stretching water from the cacti and take the sustenance I
needed from quickly crawling insects and rodents. This existence seemed to
stretch almost endlessly as well, though as before I still had no knowledge
of this thing called time, nor most other simple things for that matter. And
still I survived, somehow, someway, and for a decent amount of time, or so it
seemed.