For 'whoseever' sakes. You finally died? I was surprised to see you still around when I came back from my absence. And to see you lasted that much longer. Amazing. I suppose that I can't hold you to the same lifespan as a rager, but anyone who can age die and, even still, remain unafraid to fight, deserves alot of respect. If I were you, I'd be quite proud.

Of course, Leader Con helped a lot. I think I got Elder with 12 or 13 con. I died with 6. Without leader con, I would have died of Con loss a while back You were still one of my favorite enemies, even though you drove me all over the damned place

I think that almost everybody had a universal distaste for Kucerael. She was a tyrannical bitch. Basically, I rolled her to be a personality foil for my previous character, and to exorcise a lot of the demons associated with that character. Her name? Kierning. Gnome invoker in Nexus. Kierning was funny, cute, entertaining to be around, etc. If you ever met Kucerael, you know that she was none of that.

Kucerael was basically patterned after that really attractive girl in highschool, who KNEW she was that good looking, wouldn't talk to you if you weren't one of her 4 good friends, and had scorn for everybody else. That's Kucerael in a nutshell.

She was of the sphere Rage, and was ridiculously big on order. Anybody in Nexus under her leadership learned that pretty quickly. She killed a few Nexans for blatant disrespect, not following orders, etc.

Kucerael gave respect to few, and disdain for most. The easy way to tell if she respected you, was whether or not she would refer to you by name. If she called you 'race' or 'class' or something of the sort, it was because you had yet to gain her respect. I'm sure it pissed off a load of people, when she constantly referred to them as "wood elf" or "warrior." Kucerael didn't care, however. She was that much of a bitch. To the ones who she called by name, you saw an entirely different side to her. She was nice, pleasant, and generous. To most of you, that is probably a shock, but it's true.

When I rolled her last December, I had wanted to follow Vynmylak. The stumbling block was the 'honor' bit. I tried to play honor not as a 'never gang,' (Bond is MADE to run in pairs) but showing respect for the dead, not full-looting (Shoot, I hardly looted anything. Maybe 3 or 4 items, and usually nothing more than rager's weapons), and always defending. Leaving the Rift undefended was showing disrespect and dishonor for the Rift, basically. Vynmylak went off to do his own thing, and that idea went into the trash.

When I got the promotion to Elder, everybody was bitching and moaning about "Nexus gank and full loot squads." I got fed up with that, and put in the often-misunderstood and misquoted rule about looting. I didn't say you can't full loot...I just...well here it is. Read it yourself:
"In this respect, you will not leave them destitute and without clothing. You will, however, take their weapons, as these are their implements of their foolish deeds in living. In this, I do not say that you may not take of their clothing as you wish, but you are to leave that which you wore in its stead. Additionally, you are to destroy any of their ponchos and trophies made of the bodies of their
enemies."

Also, I tried to make my interviews difficult. Too much whining about sorry Nexus players and the sort, so I tried to make it more difficult to get in. I turned away loads more than I inducted.

About invokers: Yes, the spam can be brutal with six paths, but it's not all that bad. The only thing that I hate, is that because of the power of your spells, every single gang will point all of its attention to you normally, and each will lag a different way, so you can't protect from them all. It seems like the immortals want nearly every class to have a way to destroy invokers ability to cast. Let's see...Forget, failed assassination, hurl throat, earclap, deafen, tigerclaw...As well as the fact that it's almost like lagging skills were designed to kill invokers. Not a bitch, not a whine...just what comes with the territory.


NOW, the goodbyes:

IMMORTALS:
Kahosarin- Thanks for the induction, the promotion to Elder, and the wedding ring you etched for me. Early on, I thought ic and ooc that you really didn't care about Nexus. Then I screwed up and you stripped me of my leader con, and the ability to Induct. I figured that you were just looking for a way out of Nexus. Thankfully, you came back and took a much more active role with the Rift. And if that was you who made the Rift shake during Quezzumpliet and my argument, that was absolutely choice. It was probably the coolest 4 or 5 echoes I've seen. Oh, and thanks for never chewing on me!

Talia- The entire time you were offering me the Hell trip, I was beating my head against the desk. I wanted to go, ridiculously badly. I mean, how many people get to go to Hell these days? And I'd already gone once with this character Unfortunately, Kucerael's devotion to the Rift would not allow her to bring 4 others into Hell and leave the Rift unguarded. I felt like stabbing my eyes out. Just know that I am very very very appreciative of the opportunity. You rock.

"A shadowy voice"- Thanks for returning my leader con and my inducting ability You never made me pay up for that though. At least not that I know of.

Typo checkers- I left you a couple handfulls of them in the typo log. Enjoy.

Quezzumpliet- Up until the end, we got along very well. You had her respect from a mere kitten up until Immorting. Toward the end, however, we started to clash. I think we complimented each other well as leaders. Sorry for killing you on the Erinin. It wasn't my intention at all :O Best of luck up there in the heavens.

Ocelevan- I kept trying to give you a chance as a mortal, and you kept on breaking the agreements. It was about to get ugly when you immorted.

NEXUS:
Where to begin...nearly a year in the Rift. I'll forget a bunch of you. My apologies. Holler at me, and I'll respond.

Munro- So, it turns out that you didn't like Kucerael after all. Seems that Munro had two faces to him. Kucerael liked Munro, and he had her respect. Your interview still stands out as one of the best. Having a tranny about is very nice Sorry you had to go, and that Kucerael made you angry.

Boigeran- Beast of the Rift. I'm 99% sure that you HATED Kucerael. She liked you. You had her respect from the start. All of the clashes we had dealt with the rigid order she wanted to keep. OOC, I had no problem with you heading on into the village and doing what you did. Hell, I would have done the same probably. Not so for the bitchy gnome. Keep. Being. Beastly.

Nampnotble- Much respect for you. Getting the forms you did doesn't hurt either. You kept me laughing most of the time. The schtick with your whip or staff talking to you was a great idea. I'm only happier that Munro tied your whip into a knot, and broke your staff.

Jumalde- I knew that you were a good one from the start. You got a name right from the get-go. I was very happy to see how good you turned out. You should have agreed to go to war, however. Even if we got pummeled, it would have been a lot of fun.

Cassougi- I wanted to make you pop. c vitrio cassougi. Watch giant die

Erinphalis- You were MY elder. The bond between an invoker and a bard is one of the best I have seen yet. It has some of the neatest little side-affects of any I saw. Together, there was basically nothing we couldn't do. Simply amazing.

Jarldar- You know how much contempt Kucerael had for you. It was a 10 out of 10, and it finally had to happen. Fun little throw down we had.

Sorehk- The only thing that pissed me off more than your deletion, was you trying to use that to get your warrior into Nexus. Kucerael and Sorehk together was a beastly combo. I wish you would have stayed around longer.

Kibling- You should have stayed around. I guess s.ss.stuttering and having cobra form were getting to you, though. You were one of my buddies.

Kaavraus- I thought for sure that you were going to get Elder and not me. Did you even try?

Elik- You tried to be one of Kucerael's many suitors in her youth. Just not good enough looking...and too human. Kucerael wanted a gnome. I'm glad that you figured out so much of the Kaubris stuff.

Punblinpo- Kucerael's beloved. I finally got a ring etched with your name in it. It was "A golden wedding ring etched with the name 'Punblinpo' in jade." Kucerael had tried for years and years to get one made, but kept getting thwarted. Punblinpo brought out an entirely different side of Kucerael. Anybody around the two of us saw it for sure.

Urzkoo- I guess you're still alive. Don't leave, Beast! Urzkoo's talking always gave me a chuckle, and his fighting left me amazed. I wish you would have been around more toward the end.

Sokoerker- What happened to you? You were always a tough giant.


BATTLE:
Gre- Your specs, legacies, and berserker bonuses were too much to handle. I think I finally had a game plan for fighting you--one that would only work if you didn't spellbane my first two spells. I tried it out 3x, but your saves were too high. You were far too brutal. Along with this next guy...

Rhomelanthos- See Gre. Brutalized the hell out of me.

Ozlif- I didn't expect you to be as hard a fighter as you were. You come in at just a step or two below these first two. I was really surprised at how hard you fought. I couldn't beat you. *dismay*

Rhulgum- Strong, but always hid when the head was taken.

Drahkul- Lacks my respect. Would go run and hide whenever the head was gone, and full looted every time. I'd leave you everything except weapons, and you'd loot me down to the squashes. Then you told all of the village to do the same. It just looked sorry. Unimpressive showing.

Zylundak- Tough arial to beat. I'm sure that the score is heavily weighted in your favor in our fights. Well played.

Aidamo- Huge respect for you. Maybe some of that is due to that we were both female leaders. Maybe it was because neither of us would shy away from a fight with the other. I hated your Landslide drives. There's always a way to lag an invoker

Brogg- Puke this and puke that. Kept me laughing. I still can't believe you got that disembowel off on me at Blood Square.

Sayangu- Good God you were old. What a nasty assassin you were. I don't think you missed many tigerclaws. Ever. Damn you

Graklan- Fighting minotaurs is always fun, if for nothing else but the yells. Thank God for a berserker who wasn't as brutal as Gre and Rhomelanthos.


MARAN, SCION, EMPIRE...not much to say here
Astilamos- You pushed and pushed. I don't know if you wanted a war, or were just beating your chest, but it was about to happen.


SYLVAN
Sassmi- Our talks were fantastic. Thanks for the tutorial in Vynmylak's shrine. You're one that I wish I could have hung out with much more.

Zuou- What a bloodthirsty wood elf. Full moon sure gives Druids a load of confidence, and rightfully so. Should have known that the rager would have tattled to all of the druids when I tried to burn him out.


HERALD
Mossi- Kucerael's favorite Herald. She saw that Mossi actually DID something in the Inn, not just entertain. By 'did' I mean that she cooked. Mossi always made me want to laugh because of how funny she was, intentionally or not. You must cook a lot, or watch Food Network, because what you would do in your emotes was great.

Darch- Again, thanks for leading me to Hell through the woods. Couldn't have done it without you. Great ooze elemental

Meladori- It seemed ridiculous to me to see a 1000 year old elf jumping up onto a table, doing a little dance, and prancing off of it. Maybe it's just me. I cringed at the thought.

WARLOCK:
I hung out with several of y'all in short spats, but nothing really sticks out. Holler at me.

TRIBUNAL:
Can't remember any now. I liked the one that Beladorizid played a while back.

UNCABALLED
Queesha- Thanks for being a great friend, and for being one of Kucerael's suitors. I'm glad that the Chromatic Whip saved your ass a couple of times

Gorlas- Ruthless suitor. You weren't attractive enough for Kucerael, with your hair sticking out everywhere. You get an A for effort, however.

In the beginning you were like Quezz's adopted mother and I got to see your tender side often. When Erinphalis failed to show up after a month, you lost your leadership, and Kahosarin left I knew I had to act. I was worried you were going to delete the way things were going so I did my best to help keep you going. I'm glad you stayed, Rift wouldnt have been the same without you. Many people had problems with what you wanted but as I gained leadership our ideals were, for the most part, the same. I think you did a fantastic job, one of the most memorable characters I've had the pleasure of interacting with. Congratulations. I'll miss the ear rubs.

--Quezz

It's been so many months since then, I'd forgotten about how it was. I'd smooth your fur, you'd purr, nuzzle me, I'd shield you and send you out on your way to kill people. Pretty normal relationship I'd say : )

Once you heroed and were all grown up, there was much less of that, if any. There was a lot more hollering and foot stomping. Less 'Leave it to Beaver' happy, but fun roleplay none the less.

Now, let's see what you make out of yourself in Asgaard!

To be very very honest with you, 95% of the things I told you were true. I was always attacked first, and did what I did to get back. Ocelevan wasn't gonna sit back and be the only one holding up the agreement. As for waging war on me, I had already spoken with Munro to make yet ANOTHER truce, but regardless of how it turned out, I was ready to rumble. Thanks to you and the rest of the Rift for supplying the Galadon Guid and Ocelevan with means to survive lol. No but really, good job, and luck

Kucerael always had a dislike for thieves. They seemed to be less trustworthy than drow, and rightfully so. I don't believe that you and I ever had any direct run-ins, and we only talked a few times--always regarding the truce, pretty much.

If you stole from me, it was never any gear that I can think of. Maybe you jacked a load of my gold. heh heh. I've seen what you Galadon thieves can do in some of Gastaad's logs. It's pretty amazing stuff.

Punblinpo hired me to "find" some presents for his girlfriend, you. And when I asked Punblinpo why you weren't nice to me he said you were a woman.

I thought that was funny in a misongynistic kind of way.

Hahahahahaha, that's great. The time you super pissed me off when we were in our 30's levelling in the arial city, I really wanted to kill you...but I needed a tank. I don't think it would have been much of a fight...invoker vs galadon thief I slowly began to not hate you, but the trust was never there. Not for you, Moligant, or Ocelevan--all of whom ran into errant geysers while hidden and trying to give stuff to Punblinpo for me, or steal from me (as Kucerael always thought). Those thieves never liked getting hit for ERAD geysers when they snuck up on me

well this has to be quick still at work but anyway I interacted all with you with previous chars and yes this is the exact opp, mine and your prev char where friends and I atleast though i was on the way with this one, though i did not get a mention and yes your interview was one of the hardest i have been through, got me so flustered infact that when i talked to jum i was all messed up hehehe, well looks like soon I will be one of the only ex-nexuns left everyone is falling off in droves oh well, and if you dont know who I am you should be able to figure it out, i never try to hide chars i just play.... oh well you where nice to me.. and that last day you finally started calling me by my name all the time, and plus was funny how you made it seem like it was a honor to be able to help you, some times you lost your mean streak though you did help me personaly out quite a bit and was happy to return the favor oh well, c ya in the fields

matthewgrindstaff@yahoo.com

I guess it was just how Kucerael came off, but I never intended to give the impression that you should be HONORED to help out Kucerael. She was a bitch, but not THAT much. That would be just over the top.

And as a side note, your posts would be 5x easier to understand if there were any end-marks to your sentences, and new sentences began with capital letters. I'm not being a grammar nazi. They'd just be a lot easier.

Hehehehe sorry about that. I stay kind of busy and run down at work, makes it hard to properly put my notations onto the computer. Also dont think Uncle Sam would like one of his Marines writin on the CF message board hehhehhehe. Oh well was great to know you.

natherin

I was there with you for a lot of the last few months, and I was there with you for the last hour of your life. I knew you weren't close to too many people, and didn't want Kucerael to have to die alone. Christ I wanted to go run amok and gather all the things you were wearing, but I refused to leave your side. Ahh well, soon enough you'll have company in death. *sigh* Save me a seat in hell.

Pretty choice set I had toward the end, wasn't it? I think that I had something like 620 hps naked. I didn't feel in the least bit secure until I had 800. 900 was good. 1000 gave me scotch courage I think I had 1015 when I age died.

I was really surprised and impressed when you told me about you sticking up for me when I wasn't around. That, from a character and roleplay aspect, is ridiculously awsome. It would be a great exchange to see as a whole in a log: Me tongue-lashing Codus, me quitting, Codus talking bad about me, and you forming a lion and ripping him to ribbons.

And thanks for sticking by me as a ghost. I age-died a dwarf several years ago, and had to sit out my last hour alone. It was terribly boring. We had a good time

Absolutely hated you from day one as Juamaniquo. I would see you log on and be like 'damn', there is that bitch again. All in all, a really well played char that I had some interaction with the char I am currently playing now as well. I saw I could harm you the other day, and gave it a thought, but I just let it stay as an OOC disdain from my prev. char. My thoughts of you were that you always had your own agenda with Nexus. Heh, I just remember the earful you gave me that one time while near Kiadana(sp), and from that moment on I knew I hated you and didn't care what you said from that point on. Heh, the funny thing about it too was you were asking me to do something, not sure what it was, but I had no idea from an OOC standpoint on how to do it as it was my first char. So I guess my hate was from a bit of embarassment as well. Anyhow, good job and good luck on your next.

Well, she was that way toward you because she expected perfection from everybody, and would settle for nothing less. When you were unable to do what she said for you to do (and I can't remember what it was either), it was seen as unacceptable. This all stems from her militaristic upbringing (Basically grew up in a military academy of sorts, but only mages), where everything was to be done just so, and right the first time.

It's unfortunate that the successes in this character's roleplay caused people to groan in front of their monitors. I'm sorry about that.

As far as her "own agenda with Nexus," it was simply to bring the highest quality members into its ranks. That somewhat stemmed from people complaining about 'nexus-scion-etc gangs' and 'nexus full loot squads' etc. I figured that if I could bring a few really good members into Nexus, then other good players would want to do the same, and would roll up Nexus characters. It fit into her 'accept nothing below perfection' role perfectly, however.

Hopefully this clears up some things

Personally I didn't like your role, but I have to say you did one hell
of a job implimenting it, I could hear from many people about you that
you were a very tough leader. I have to admit I respect the age die
but why did you just barly start being seen for a time near your end?
Nothin but props from me, nexus was a tough cabal to be in especally
when ya'll were weak in numbers even if being an invoker helped you
while alone. All in all great job, maybe we will meet again elsewhere.

DarkTears

You didn't like my role? Most people didn't. It wasn't meant to be likeable except by a few people. It was really a difficult one to get into at first, but after playing the snobby, iron-fisted gnome for so long, it got to be second-nature.

Regarding Logins:
For the majority of the summer, any time I spent on CF was time I was deducting from sleep. I work as the first mate on a charter fishing boat, and during the summer, we fish every day, and long hours. Getting up at 4:30 am means getting to bed early too, and when you work 'till 6 or 8pm, you don't have much time to screw off and play CF. So...now that we're into the fall, I actually get days off, and don't have such a hellatious schedule. That's why you saw Kucerael around a lot more during daytime hours--and a lot more period--toward the end.

Thanks for the support

Well sad to see you go, you are one I was hoping to run into more now that I got internet back(lost it for like a month the reason I wasn't around too much). I always had a lot of fun with you and am glad you did too, heh Urzkoo's speech is pretty damned fun, if annoying to remember to keep it up heh. He'll be kicking around for a while longer, maybe till he age dies too. Drop me a line sometime and I'll be seeing you in the fields.
laters

Haha, whenever Mossi told people that Kucerael lady was 'So nice', no one believed her. But you really were super nice to Mossi.

Thanks for the compliment about the cooking! That's about the best I could have gotten. I do cook in real life, yes, and I have watched the Food Network (that show, the Iron Chef, oh man, it's great)... although, we don't get that channel anymore. To be honest, for some of the recipes, especially with Kucerael, I had to look them up online. But a few of them, like Pumpkin Soup, are family favorites, so the emotes really shone there.

No one really wants Mossi to cook anymore, though, not like Kucerael did. I kind of miss it.

I'm glad that she made you laugh. She was always really nervous that 'nice Kucerael gnome lady' would not approve of her cooking. I tried to make that come through... it probably just made her more humourous.

Anyway...

Rest in peace and all that.


----- Alaminore, Of Course! -----

There weren't many female gnome invokers. Very very few in fact. That was part of the reason Kucerael liked Mossi--she saw her as a daughter of sorts. -I- liked Mossi, because she was entertaining and funny. She appeared very well role played, so I liked that too.

I'm surprised that you took the time to look recipies up. That's dedication!

Like I have said a few other times so far in these goodbyes...If she liked you, you would know it, and she would be nice. If she didn't like you, however, you would DAMN SURE know it, and you'd have the uber-bitch on you. Mossi gave Kucerael a break from the constant fighting that she'd had for most of her life. That's something she valued greatly. That is why she proposed the deal with you for the cooking. I only wish we could have done it more. With a little effort, you could do big things with Mossi.

PS- You're the only person I wrote a note to when I died. Hopefully that means something.

Again with the compliments!

Yes, I was -- and still am -- very dedicated with my character's cooking. I mean, that's her thing. She cooks... so she's got to be good at it and have her wits about her in a kitchen. I really loved cooking for Kucerael, learned a lot of new recipes that way.

And the goodbye note did mean a lot. Thanks for that.


----- Alaminore, Of Course! -----

.. I wasn't really made for it. My character was a stickler
for doing anything it takes to get the job done, meaning if
Ragers are in the way, they should be obliterated. Meaning,
kill, multikill, full loot, destroy all their applicants,
etc. No holds barred, brutal sodomizing (kidding), and um, well
just plain mean crap. So, I was also a little suicidal, and the
extent of my RP was the 'emote chirps.' and 'stand beats his
wings softly as he rises from the ground.' at irregular intervals.

You're RP was better, you were more organized, and you were just
better. I didn't have a problem with it, but if I got Elder
Magus, I wouldn't have cried or anything :)

- Kaavraus

*neener*

It sure was fun ripping off your wands, your containers, your... well... you get the picture. Sorry, but I wasn't going to fight you. It would have been completely ineffective, and in any case, I was a thief damnit. What did you expect?

Hope you had fun, and see you later, I think.

- Sabs

You weren't one of the always-full-loot-our-enemies battleragers, and that was a welcome relief. Even when the others did, you'd return me something that they'd left around...albeit some times it was just my food. Food's good to get returned to you though

I always wanted to get you into a one-on-one fight, because well...Kucerael was a fighter, and saw the blackjack-and-steal-all-of-her-magical-stuff tactic as simply cowardly. That, and it would have been ridiculously lopsided Of course stealing was effective, and exactly what I would have done in your case.

Have fun in ImmieLand

>
>Punblinpo- Kucerael's beloved. I finally got a ring etched
>with your name in it. It was "A golden wedding ring etched
>with the name 'Punblinpo' in jade." Kucerael had tried for
>years and years to get one made, but kept getting thwarted.
>Punblinpo brought out an entirely different side of Kucerael.
>Anybody around the two of us saw it for sure.
>

Yay! That's awesome about the ring! I can't speak for everyone, but your character definitely added a fun dynamic to my time playing Punblinpo. Hope you had a good time too, and have just as much fun with the next.

-Punblinpotrublix

Started a lowbie...and then he sat around for a week without being played. Just got too much work to do, and don't have the character role really figured out, and worked into ME yet. Once I've got a character's personality figured out, I've got a desire to spend nights playing him/her. That...and getting killed by ferrets and unicorns just pisses me off I'll get an other one rolled up, but it may be a few weeks yet. I don't know that I'll ever get a character as involved as I was with Kucerael. There were times when I was at work, and was thinking as she would. She was my alter-ego for like 10 months. Maybe I'll get a new one that works with me like that.

IC I didn't like you because Kaavraus had no concept or care about
honor, and you told us to return our main enemy (Rager's) gear. Also,
he considered himself a scholar of balance and thought we should do
more than just keep the scales balanced. Sorta like as if the scales
were more of a guideline than an absolute. From my perspective, though
you were definitely present, nothing changed, and Kaavraus wanted
changes.

OOC I didn't like you because it was getting boring as hell in Nexus,
I was tired of only fighting people resistant to my magic, considering
the multitude of cloud warrior axe spec berserker ragers that were
about (About 1/2 of them). I was tired of seeing about ten goodies in
my range with two baddies, and not being able to help the shadow.
Eventually I did it anyways just waiting to get the boot, but never
did get the boot.

But, on the other hand, you played a self-righteous bitch to the
T, and your roleplay never lacked from what I saw.

- Kravidian

People not liking me, and thinking "But, on the other hand, you played a self-righteous bitch to the T." I'll consider that one vote for success.

I knew that you were unhappy with the rules Kucerael put in, and that she was so staunch about them. I was waiting for you to really get angry about it and watch the sh1t hit the fan.

Isn't it nice fighting somebody without spellbane for once? It's like beating puppies...or seals...or kobolds. After 2 years of fighting essentially nothing but 'ragers, I'll try something else.