Sat Oct 18 01:00:38 2003


At 1 o'clock AM, Day of the Bull, 22nd of the Month of the Winter Wolf
on the Theran calendar Gamaliel perished, never to return.

How much of a ####bag does someone have to be to delete a rank 40 squire human ranger with a half-decent role and such??

Fairly big, I'm thinking.

I just got really bored with playing this role. it was hard to stay in character because the character was so far off from what I like to believe I am....

sometimes it's not hard for me to rp someone way off from what I am...as I can see what he/she would do in a given situation...but for some reason it became increasingly hard for me to see a consistency in her actions and reactions to situations. It even got to the point where I could come up to situations where I honestly did not know how "gamaliel" would react....then I would wing it...and later think to myself...wow I didn't handle that like Gamaliel at all.

Add on top of that the whole dieing so often that my time spent requesting replacement gear, not to mention the hundreds of hours fighting at the maran (civilized) against a damned shaman or ap I could do nothing against had lost me fast waylay....and was on the way to losing me fast camo...and the char was doomed.


OOC,
I'm sad that I didn't know the fortress was closed to squires until a month after I applied mid 20's and had ranked into my thirties....I never saw the scroll....I guess it had dissapeared before I rolled up.

I really kicked myself often for continueing to rank past the mid 20's while not in the fortress...because I figured that with my utter lack of any pk skill in the hero ranges, I would have to make a big impression as a young squire in order to have a shot at making full maran....but by the time I was inducted as a squire I was already entering the ranks where I was having troubles killing solo pks...let alone the groups I used to wade into and beat up mid 20's.

Ooc, I never really thought that as a squire I was worthy of becoming a maran...so that probably became a self-fullfilling prophesy by leading me to not go out of my way as much to try to prove my worth....cause deep down I didn't think I deserved it anyway.


Jirash, Lariya, Wootie, the healer posse...

Loved interacting with you, and will really miss that in the future....but especially with Jirash...I found me the player wanting to interact with you guys on a level that gamaliel would not have been comfortable with...and that clash between what I wanted, and what gamaliel would have wanted, just grew to be too much.

Rogardian. Thanks for being around all those times, you are the only fortress imm I ever saw, and while we never talked all that much, I did appreciate your presance, and that one time you moderated that discussion we squires were having on the nature of should we kill good and neutral sylvans who declare that all Marans need to die "because marans fight evil". I felt I was losing that discussion before you stepped in and seemed to back my position.

Tyo...something...always forgot how to spell your name...... you might not be the most deathful maran out there, cause I really didn't see many of the higher maran out on hunting runs....

But to see a warrior letting the cabal know over cb about your kills at HERO as often as a mid 20's ranger was able to find and kill people....was awe inspiring. I hope to one day be half as competitive in a fight at hero with a warrior class as you seemed to be. I can do it with invokers and shifters easily enough...but the whole pk skill at hero with a fighting class thing is just ....well...I guess Jimmy buffet said it best ..."It was so simple like the boogaloo.....it plum evaded me."


To that shaman, and one of those ap's that I faught (been a couple of weeks, don't remember names), Damn you and your NEVER failing to land a damned blind. I know for a fact that I dropped over a million at healers just healing blindness and healing plague and poison from fighting you two. And another half million easy buying various "heal blindness" or "heal plague" or "heal poison" pills/potions/scrolls from all over thera....all of which worked a combined total of Zero times.

The other 90 ap's that were about just didn't seem to get it like you two did.


I think I will post a log of the high-point of gamaliel's life.

**First, I don't know if either of these guys are still active, so I will edit out their names**

*I had faught the arial foe twice just prior to this, and arialfoe had killed me at the pit in tar valon
*but either I was fast enough to get everything, or he was nice and let me get everything back.
*after I unghost, we fight once or twice more, he is attempting a retrieval I think.
*
*Then I notice the thieffoe log on. Damn, much higher than me in rank, and I see him in the area
*I know he will be around, so I ask Vorondel for a haste and a fly...and go after them before they can
*get to the maran (civilized) where I will have no advantage



Vorondel says 'I will go inside and rest a moment'

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==9 PM=wilderness/outdoor- People near you:
Vorondel Redhorn Gate
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==9 PM=wilderness/outdoor- l
Redhorn Gate
The winds howl fiercely through the pass. Here on the western side of the
pass, the snow piles into drifts as high as the cliffs. A gigantic snow
drift lies directly across the pass, blocking any attempts to go further
to the east. The freezing cold cuts right down to your bones. The path
down to warmer climes lies to the west.

Scarring the path here is a horrendous black crack in the earth, forever
filled with a solid piece of the purest white stone.


A steak of the burnt corpse of an orc is lying here.
The severed head of an orc is lying here.
A warg leaps out to attack you!

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==9 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
Ayuzen In the Foothills
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==9 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
The sky is getting cloudy.

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- whois ay
where
<46 Human Asn> (WANTED) Ayuzen the Sensei

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- Ayuzen scans north.
People near you:
Ayuzen Redhorn Gate
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
Ayuzen Near Redhorn Gate
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate

-470/542hp 356/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* A Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- way *Arialfoe*
You wait to waylay *Arialfoe*.

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- where
People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel Redhorn Gate
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep west
You begin creeping in that direction.
Near Redhorn Gate


An ugly orc wanders through here.

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep west
You begin creeping in that direction.
In the Mountains


An ugly orc wanders through here.
An ugly orc wanders through here.
An ugly orc wanders through here.

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep west
You begin creeping in that direction.
In the Foothills


A warg leaps out to attack you!

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep west
You begin creeping in that direction.
In the Foothills


A warg leaps out to attack you!

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==10 PM=wilderness/outdoor- scan s
You scan south.

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep west
You begin creeping in that direction.
In the Foothills



-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- scan s
where
You scan south.
***** Range 1 *****
*Arialfoe* is here.


-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- People near you:
(PK) Gamaliel In the Foothills
(PK) *Arialfoe* Along a Dried Streambed

-483/542hp 365/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- reply *Arialfoe* outside
You tell Vorondel '*Arialfoe* outside'

-499/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- creep south
You begin creeping in that direction.
Along a Dried Streambed


*Arialfoe* is here.

-499/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- way *Arialfoe*

Someone whispers 'We'll just on the maran.'
You wait to waylay *Arialfoe*.
You step out from your cover.
Your surprise attack >>> ANNIHILATES <<< *Arialfoe*!
*Arialfoe* yells 'Help! I've been ambushed by Gamaliel!'
*Arialfoe* is gushing blood.

-499/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
Your shocking bite MANGLES *Arialfoe*!
*Arialfoe* dodges your searing cut.
*Arialfoe* parries your shocking bite.
You dodge *Arialfoe*'s crush.
*Arialfoe*'s crush EVISCERATES you!
*Arialfoe* is writhing in agony.

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- serp
You dart in quickly past *Arialfoe*'s defenses with the speed of a snake!
Your serpent strike MASSACRES *Arialfoe*!
Your shocking bite MASSACRES *Arialfoe*!
*Arialfoe* is DEAD!!
camo
butcher corpse
You hear *Arialfoe*'s death cry.

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
*Thieffoe* steps out of the shadows.
*Thieffoe* stops using a mace with the head of a screaming demon.
*Thieffoe* dual wields a blackjack.

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
A sudden pain erupts through your skull.

*sigh. I can't remember one time in my past handful of characters where blackjack actually
*failed, nomatter if I was fighting or not.


-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- In your dreams, or what?

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor- In your dreams, or what?

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
An Immortal tells you 'Well done, huntress'

**WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

-451/542hp 381/432m==12346tnl==11 PM=wilderness/outdoor-
Vorondel yells 'Help! I am being attacked by Ayuzen!'


*I am woken up, and sit at the corpse waiting for thieffoe to try to loot the corpse, he does....
*steps out of hiding, and is waylayed...and is driven off.

*Well, there it is, the sum total of all of the Immteraction that I have gotten with my past 4 characters
*(not counting me trying and failing to start conversations with heroimms who can't hide from me...heh)
*That one little statement sure did make my month.

role
Your role chapters are:
From the past:
< 1 > IMPORTANT HAPPENINGS, rank 1-19
Added Thu Sep 11 22:12:31 2003 at level 19:
< 2 > PERSONALITY, IN A NUTSHELL
Added Thu Sep 11 21:48:29 2003 at level 19:
< 3 > EARLY HUNTS, AND CONVERSION
Added Thu Sep 11 21:31:26 2003 at level 19:
< 4 > IN THE BEGINNING
Added Thu Sep 11 21:18:58 2003 at level 19:


role read 4
Subject: IN THE BEGINNING
Added Thu Sep 11 21:18:58 2003 at level 19:
She made the mistake of being born in a human barbarian village. And she
made the mistake of being more intelligent than the men of her Village. And
she had the GALL to actually show her intelligence.

Therefore, her youth and the beginning of her life ...well...sucked. She was
beaten, humiliated, assaulted, and basically treated as worse than a slave,
because of how brightly her strong personality and intelligence shone through
her clear, unblinking, hate-filled, eyes.

Because of her situation, she did as many do when under the thumb of
oppression, she sought for and found ways to convince herself of her
superiority over her Oppressors.

And with oppressors that are stupid barbarians, she didn't have to seek far.
The three most powerful that she came upon were that: She was more
intelligent, she was female, and she was wise enough to have a sense of
Honor.


role read 3
Subject: EARLY HUNTS, AND CONVERSION
Added Thu Sep 11 21:31:26 2003 at level 19:
She was still young when she was able to work up a decent escape plan. And
she used it.

She became a ghost in the wilderness, teaching herself the rudiments of life
in the wilderness. But she was not content to just survive, she had an anger
burning in her from the injustice of her youth...and she channeled it against
all Men. It was the Stupid lumbering MALE who had done what was done to her.
In all ways, the Female was superior to the Male, and the Men needed to
suffer.

In her early hunts, she traveled far. One day, she was tracking a group of
male monks in a mountain range south of Galadon, planning on making them pay.
But she lost their trail, and in her urgency to make them pay, walked right
into a place in the mountains from which there was no escape.

She despaired. This was the end. But then she felt and heard someone walk up
to her, although she could not see who. And this someone spoke, and it was a
Man.

The conversation that they had was long and long. And the specifics of it are
not important. So I will only touch on the highlights.

It turns out, that this invisible, hidden, or otherwise un-seeable man, in
his own words "represented the fortress", and offered to free her from this
prison of rock, if she would just agree to listen to his words.Gamaliel at
first suspected a trick, but her sense of honor would not let her refuse to
listen to words from a being willing to help her.

As I have said, the talk was long and long, and it was mostly this man who
spoke. Eventually, Gamaliel began to be moved by his words. She began to
see the truth of them.

She saw that it was not the MALE that was responsible for what happened to
her in her youth...it was the things that drove those men. Jealousy, rage,
fear, covetousness....

In short, it was the Darkness that drove those men to do what they did, not
the fact that they were men.

This someone also convinced her that all of Thera was embroiled in a war. A
war between the Light and the Darkness. And that to attempt to stand aside
in this war was indeed playing into the hand of Darkness, doing what Darkness
wished.

And her soul was changed. This unseen man led her in her prayers and she was
converted to the Light forever more, then he set her free from the Mountains.

Gamaliel has some deep, suppressed, suspicions that the "man" who set her
free and converted her was in some way more than Mortal but she indeed
cannot help fearing what it would mean for her life if it was. On some
subconscious level, she knows that she was not worthy of such aid and
salvation, both of soul and body, and she fears how much her sense of honor
would force her into believing she has to owe to such a one as he who freed
her.

role read 2
Subject: PERSONALITY, IN A NUTSHELL
Added Thu Sep 11 21:48:29 2003 at level 19:
While she has turned to the Light whole heartedly, there are a number of
personality traits from her former life that she retains to a greater or
lesser degree,and that she tries to control,again to a greater or lesser
degree.

Many might call her, in our world, a "Femi-nazi". She still has an almost
inbred, down to the marrow, distrust and dislike of the "Male". She knows
that such an attitude is counter productive to the Light, and she tries to
control her natural urge to hate men,and she is somewhat successful, mainly
with those men who have proven themselves lightwalkers.

She is also quite a bit of an introvert, and has trouble with large groups of
people.And she WAS raised mainly in a barbarian village. Her manners are
terrible, she almost always speaks her mind, she never beats around the bush,
and she NEVER hesitates to tell someone exactly what she thinks of them, no
matter who they are or how powerful they are.

In short: She is a rabid, raving Bitch by nature, but attempts to temper that
now that she has turned to the Light


role read 1
Subject: IMPORTANT HAPPENINGS, rank 1-19
Added Thu Sep 11 22:12:31 2003 at level 19:
Firstly, since the first night that she could hunt others who were evil, she
has. And partly because she knew that she will at a time in the future
attempt to join the Fortress (when she feels that she is knowledgeable enough
to make a contribution), and partly because she hold the Fortress in such
high esteem because of her Salvation, she began bringing steaks made from the
fallen corpses of those evil adventurers who have fallen to her Hunt to the
Marshall (the reason she chose the Marshall and not the Captain, is that the
Marshall is female and the Captain is not), believing that as a
representative of the Maran, the Marshall would appreciate the steaks.

Next, she was near ruined keep when she alone slew a Duergar warrior
( *namedeleted* ). To her shock and dismay, an elder Storm giant warrior (*namedeleted*)
fell upon the spoils of her hunt with speed and with greed almost dripping
from his pores.She had seen a few items on the Duergar that she wanted, and
would have gladly shared the rest with *namedeleted* had he but had the Honor to
ask to share in the Spoils of a Hunt that he had no part in.

But no. He did not ask, he just took, wore the best pieces, and refused to
return them.

Needless to say, this angered Gamaliel. Not only that a Lightwalker would
allow greed to have such a hold over him, but the DISHONOR of his actions.

So, Gamaliel set about warning all of the Lightwalkers she could see about
*namedeleted*. After a few days, *namedeleted* repented, and returned the items from
her hunt that he had tried to steal.

Gamaliel is not sure that the Honorless dog did this just to stop her from
warning everyone of his greed, or from a sincere desire to reconcile and gain
forgiveness, and she is torn between her continued disgust at his display of
his honorless greed, and her desire to give him a second chance.

Damn. I thought we could've had some fun RP there. Oh well. I liked our brief interactions.

It's FOUGHT, not FAUGHT!!!

You have been giving away who you are for god knows how long because
of this one misspelled word. I never want to see it again!!

*twitch-twitch*

Sure, I agree I often make spelling mistakes. *shrug*

But, doing a site search for the word "Faught" I turn up a WHOLE lot of posts.

And only one of them that I can find was by me.

Makes me curious as to why someone would pay attention to idiosyncricies like that and link them to characters....

I myself try to go to lengths to NOT do things like that.

And also makes me really interested as to who you think I have played in the past. Go ahead and guess, I promise I will be honest if you get it right, as keeping my past character's hidden has never been much a concern for me.

I must admit, I hadn't foreseen this. I had never heard of you before, then all of a sudden piles of steaks started to appear in the fortress and I heard rumors and was told about you.
I got to know you a little better over time and I liked what I saw. Damn sneaky rangers always hiding *cough*

Good luck with the next is all I can say, I think you're on the right track to getting some really interesting characters going in the future. See you in the fields.

Jirash

Sorry your role didn't click, I've been in that situation in the past myself. I'm also sorry you got caught (or is it cought?! Urden, help!) up in the time when we closed Squire inductions. We knew it would be rough on the people that wanted to make Maran characters, but we needed to do some Fort cleaning. Our numbers were just overflowing. Anyway, if you let me know when you're going to make another Maran, I'll make sure we close inductions again. No need to thank me, just trying to be helpful!

Good luck with your next one.

Rog

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