There is a reason that there are certain classes that are advertised as being for newer players, and those include the melee intensive classes, ones that are a bit more straightforward for getting your bearings before being steamrolled left and right. You might want to think about rolling up a melee-based char and learning more about how to survive and equip yourself for survival or killing. Once you have that knowledge base, then you might have a bit more success playing a mage. Without a lot of base hp or defense, and due to the fact that there will be a lot of low level mage-killers, your mage will have loads of trouble with pk if you don't have the requisite skill to outmaneuver or overpower them.