Role

Chapter 4

Greetings to you Father and Mother,



Let me first apologize. I know I said I would do better at visiting and writing
while we were last speaking during the holiday. I feel I have not been true to
my word and know I will make a greater effort to stop by the farm for a quick
hug or bowl of stew. Things have been very busy for me of late.

You asked to write of everything including troubles, ups, and downs. Let me
cover the not so well things first.

I knew that this war would be a bit depressing at times, but here lately I have
lost many close friends. It is odd though. They do not fall bloody and anguished
never to rise again. You just simply look over at their bunk one day and
everything is gone, their weapons and war arms left in the chests of the
Fortress. If a fellow named Jerastan stops by the farm at any point, please
entertain him as a special guest. I spoke often of you both to him and we became
close friends. The same can be requested for another fellow named Yolrun, though
I was not as close to him. Perhaps he will stop by as well. I hope they find the
peace they left to seek and hold no ill will towards them.

I find myself getting frustrated from time to time with those I am sworn to both
fight beside and protect in combat and there is some sense of shame that comes
along with these feelings. Do you remember the brief months you attempted to
raise goats father? You had the best intentions, you wanted to protect them and
keep them safe, but they all simply wanted to bust out of the fence and run away
from you towards dangers unknown? That is what it feels like sometimes. Herding
goats. But even still we have our adventures and enjoy each other's company,
forgive me if I make things sound worse than they are.

There is one more individual I will be bringing by myself sometime soon to meet
you both, I think. She goes by the name of Zsarreyen. I have many feelings
surrounding her that I'm not certain how to process. She is a thief by trade,
and apparently a gambling cheat before that. She is brash and loud, opinionated
and stubborn when she wants to be. She has the brightest pink hair you will ever
see and curls like the ocean breaking. All these things but I still find myself
wanting to spend a lot of time with her. I don't want to list all of her
positive attributes, I'd rather you meet her for yourself. There is no real
guidance in the Code for situations like this. There has to be some sort of
balance between fighting a war and..spending time with the ones you..(last
sentence struck through)..taking time for yourself. I simply don't know where
the line between personal time and war time is drawn when I have a vow, a Code,
and a Creed to follow that are all far larger than myself.

Well this is getting a bit long, I will end here. I do hope to visit you all
sooner than later. Some quiet reflection would serve me well.

With love,



Aerithas