Role

Chapter 28

(Note: I know this is impossible and failure is a given longterm, its
entirely an aspirational thing. Felt it best to be clear I know it can't
actually be done due to constraints and I'm 100% cool with that going in to
the trainwreck.)

It is interesting how perspective changes.

I still remember it vividly. Strange that, when so many of the peripheral
times are hazy. Its stranger still, because it is rare that I remember
things that I held in such disdain. Those were so often unimportant in the
end, and so were easily let go.

I remember being a young and bored audience to yet another tale about a
group that even in the beginning I knew to be fundamentally flawed. That I
knew to be a lie. That I knew to be self-defeating. Wasn't I right? Did
they not fail in the end?
I was right. I still believe that. But not for the reasons I thought. Not
because of the failure.

Perhaps at the end, they were what I believed them to be. Perhaps they fell
into a trap of their own Creation. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

But who really knows where it went wrong? All journeys end, and not
necessarily how you hoped they would. Sometimes you get lost on the way, or
sometimes you just don't find what you expected to at the end.

I think in my youth, I would've hated to hear that. Would have believed I
would always succeed.

I mean. It would be nice to get things right more than not. Yet even in
failure you find something. If you always knew you'd succeed, what would be
the point? We can only try. Perhaps this limit will be the one that cannot
be overcome. Or perhaps the next one will be. Or perhaps the next, or the
next, or the next.

And when you do fail? You learn. And next time perhaps you don't fail. Or
perhaps you do, and the cycle repeats itself.

Yes. It is funny how perspective changes.

What is mastery?

Its just a limit to overcome. Is there anything more aspirational than that
when it comes down to it? To see a so called master and to know with
everything that you are that one day you'll be greater, or die in the
trying?

Can I really judge them for falling into a trap I fell into myself?
Believing that it was the goal, and not the challenge? An open invitation:
surpass, if you can?

Of course I can. They should have known better. That's the difference with
an organisation. You have people to tell you when you're messing up. When
you're not aiming high enough. When you're being content with simply what's
been done before. When you're looking for the line in the sand and trying
to reach it, rather than trying to reach beyond.

They got it wrong in the end.
That just means we'll have to do better this time.
How hard can it be?