Posting this here since I think I was too young for a battlefield post and you can't make new posts in that sub-forum.

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Well.... ####. How to begin this. It's gonna be long...

I had the idea to play a 2-headed giant (kind of like Ogre Magi from Dota2) and I had this amazing role/concept all thought out. I wanted to make a solid role after some lackluster characters and had this idea where I was a created being that had no idea why he was created (giving an Immortal a blank canvas to work with). So I decided to ask Baerinika - there's been all kinds of strange combos lately, why not a 2-headed fire giant druid? I was declined, not because of the concept, but because I made an account on those other forum (this was right when that whole #### hit the fan and she said flat out she wouldn't work with someone who goes there - I've made a whole whopping two posts there). So I decide to try and ask Scarabaeus for maybe a frost giant druid... he says it's not possible, it's hard-coded for seasonal races to not allow them outside of their season. I ask him about the fire giant druid, he says Baerinika already said I had to try and get that it in-game.

Right then and there I should have done the same role as a cloud giant druid - but no, I'm stubborn, and I decide to try and force the issue. Challenge accepted.

Now, I really hate shamans. In my 16+ years in this game, I've had one other shaman and I deleted it. The class is boring, I hate the playstyle, and frankly think they're retarded. There's no other fire giant empowerment options though, so I figure I can survive until I get a class change right? Logging into this character was a personal torture. A character, with abysmal intelligence, with skills in the 60s that I don't want to put hundreds of hours into perfecting because it'd all go away on a class change anyways.... and god did I have no idea how important black channels was. At level 30, I'd cast sanctuary (3 hours) and protective shield (4 hours) and be at 46% mana and I'd get maybe 10% sleeping. Seriously, I would have had more fun on a gnome warrior.

Well, I won a rolecontest and was given ventriloquate at 100% and a room description - people seemed to like the character. The problem was I loved RPing but I absolutely hated everything else. The only enjoyable moments of this character is the time spent in the Inn with random heralds screaming about ice cream. I was somewhat level sitting (again, why rank for a class I hate that will hopefully get replaced) and was mainly doing random crap when I logged in. I eventually gave up on wearing gear after I got full-looted fighting a group of four as one person (because who cares about gear on a shaman). So I'd usually login naked, run around and fight some people, die and lose a con, pray, logout.

Then someone gets a dwarf transmuter. I'll be honest that I was raging pretty badly the day I saw that. I wanted to play a sub-optimal combination and despite an amazing idea, and probably half of my adult life spent playing this game, I was declined.... and then someone is handed at level 1, with a crappy description, the insane powerhouse combo of a dwarf transmuter. Words cannot express how much this was a face slap after all the effort I've put into sticking around and helping this game because I made two freaking posts sharing absolutely nothing on another forum.

I tried sticking it out, but really what was the point if I'm finding any reason not to login. The whole "blank canvas" idea for an Immortal was a pure flop... every time I interacted with Arvam (found out it was him in the end... and you give it away Arvam with using smile emoticons in your speech), it was him asking me questions but the idea was I had no idea. So despite an amazing idea and role, and having Arvam as my Immortal which is awesome (I'll be back, Arvam, you're an amazing Imm) and having something I loved to RP, I just ended it.

Lessons learned?

1. Don't do "blank canvas" roles for Imms. They're busy enough as it is and putting more work on them just doesn't seem to pan out (aka Amaranthe and her role contest folks).
2. Don't make a character that "needs" anything from the Immortals. You're just setting yourself up for disappointment.
3. Don't post on the other forums or the Immortals will hold it against you (I should just cave and get a proxy but again.... stubborn).
4. My personal quest to try and not be angry at Baerinika is not going well...

Peace,
Torak

p.s. Oh the names were from watching Archer :) "Lona....Lona.....LONNNNNA!" "What!?" "Danjuh zone!"