Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Double-Changed Changeling, Resilient Beast of Bourbon

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Description

This slender humanoid stands five feet and ten inches above the ground.
Clear, almost luminous skin adds an ethereal look to his subtle, sculpted
features, an almost indiscernible point to his ears and chin, but the human
blood is clearly starting to catch up, as slight wrinkles form at the corners
of his eyes and mouth. His long, dark hair has the ever so slight highlights
of a much lighter honey gold and is interspersed with strands of silver and a
streak of white, and the arch of his thin eyebrows draw attention to the
sapphire orbs below. His eyes are somewhat distant, a look, not of sadness,
but of calm contemplation within.

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Score

Level	51	Sex	male	Race	half-elf
Ethos	Chaotic	Align	Neutral	Class	shapeshifter
Practices	0	Trains	0	Hometown	Udgaard
Exp	468500	To Level	22700	Sphere	Deception
Age old, 249 years old (506 hours)
Hit Points	461	Mana	1001	Movement	812
Strength	15	Intelligence	24	Wisdom	21
Dexterity	18	Constitution	10	Charisma	19
Carry #	0/33	Carry Weight	0 lb 0 oz
Gold	0	Silver	0	Copper	0
Wimpy	100	Morale	Moderate
Hitroll	0	Damroll	0

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Chapter 15

Background and Motivation
Added Sun Oct 8 15:15:05 2006 at level 6:

Not much to my background, really. I don't know where exactly I was born,
or who my parents are. No one I asked knew either. All I really remember
is growing up on the streets of Udgaard Loke's Farm.

Growing up wasn't easy. Unlike many, I had no one to take care of me.
I suppose someone must've taken care of me when I was younger, for I don't
see how I could've taken care of myself, but that time's a little fuzzy.
Eventually, though, I was forced to take care of myself, which meant finding
food, clothing, and shelter. The clothing and shelter weren't all that
difficult. People liked to throw out old clothing for some reason, and the
local Temple didn't mind my presence at all. Food, however, was a little
more difficult. I couldn't really steal it; I'd seen what happened to thieves,
and I knew I wasn't nearly good enough to get away with it, and no one really
wanted to hire me, as there were too many others with actual skill. Begging
worked decently enough, and every once in a while, I'd find some dead creature
someone had killed and feast upon its remains. I especially learned to like
their hearts and eyes. It just seemed so novel to eat such things, and the
eyes tend to have the most lovely texture... that wasn't how I best managed
to keep myself fed, though. No, my belly remained full because I learned
how to trick others into feeding me.

It was a fun skill, really, deception, lying, trickery, and it gave me a sense
of enjoyment in life that I never suspected I could find. It gave me a purpose,
a goal, and my life finally had meaning. No longer was I confined to merely
trying to exist, but there was something in life I actually enjoyed. I don't
know why, but for some reason, I just love a constant change to things. I
despise monotony, and deception and intrigue allow me opportunities for its
banishment. I suppose this is also why I joined the guild of Shifters, as
well; I love change. That, and the guild seems to offer a lot of useful skills
and abilities. I suppose that's my purpose, though, deception, seeing what
all I can get away with. I haven't really thought about it. Perhaps it will
change one day, but for now, that's how I define myself. My purpose in life
is to get away with as much as possible and have fun while doing so.

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Chapter 14

Early Manipulations
Added Fri Oct 13 17:02:44 2006 at level 15:

Being a Shapeshifter is a lot more difficult that I imagined. All I can say
for certain is that I'm very weak without any forms. I've gotten in more
fights I couldn't handle than I can count, and I've died to five of them.
I have to learn to be more careful in the future.

I've met several people of many different races and professions. I like the
Gnomes, most of all, though I met one, a fellow by the name of Nelzon, who
is an insult to the race. Fortunately, I've convinced many Gnomes that I'm
somewhat of an intellectual, that my whole goal in life is intellectual pursuit.
This has allowed me to talk about this Nelzon fellow to them and be taken
seriously. Perhaps I need to talk to more Elves, as well, have them think
the same. Having people take me for a scholar could be very useful.

I've been managing to convince people that, whatever their beliefs, whatever
path they follow, mine is a similar and compatible path. It's been quite
simple, really, convincing the Dark that I'm Dark, the Light that I'm Light,
and the inbetween that I am as well. I've slain innocent children one day,
and donated money to an orphanage the next. People suspect nothing. Perhaps
I will have to try more difficult manipulations, as these are so simple, it's
almost boring. I'll have to ponder on this.

I've started to take an interest in religion. I'm not sure why, really, but
it's something I know little about. It isn't wise to know so little about
something. One God in particular strikes me as fitting, Lyristeon. The only
problem is, I don't know how to follow such a powerful being. Would it be
wise for me to try to contact Him? I should try to find His shrine, at the
least. I haven't the slightest idea where to look, but if I can start
convincing people that I'm on a quest to visit the various shrines, in order
to learn more about the Gods, I might get lucky and hear some clues on its
whereabouts. I'll have to ponder this more, but for now, I'm satisfied with
the life I've thus far managed to lead.

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Chapter 13

Neutrality
Added Wed Oct 18 11:56:08 2006 at level 25:

Much I have learned, traveling with others. I've been finding companions of all sorts, from all backgrounds, and been talking, listening, and asking questions. I've explored much of this world, fought with many of its denizens, conversed
with many more, and feel I'm beginning to understand some things that growing up on the streets didn't teach me.

For one thing, I've learned a lot of this world seems to center on the Path one follows in life, what lies in the hearts of people. Light, Dark, they seem to be constantly at war, or at least, certain factions of them do. The rest seem
to just attempt to make ends meat and to justify whatever actions they take. Some find meaning in the Gods, others in knowledge, others still in greed or blood, and many simply strive for survival.

It is not for me to judge the actions of others, however, but I am curious about myself. From what I've seen, Light can be just as ignorant as Dark. I've questioned the actions of some who would call themselves Light, asking why
they do some of the things they do. They rarely give a satisfactory answer. I ask why a particular beast needs slain or a person brought to justice, what harm that being brings to others, and the response is often along the lines that
since they're Dark, or evil, they must be slain.

What is evil, though? Many would say that not caring about others is evil, but why? Why must a person care about others to not be considered evil? How many must one care about to be considered good? Perhaps had I not grown up on the
streets of the Farm of Udgaard Loke, I would know this, but even my observations of the Golden Voralian City show me that there is poverty, greed, and callousness. The streets of Darsylon are better, but I've met more than one Elf
who thinks that just because a person utilizes the art of magic, that that person deserves to be slain. It just doesn't make sense.

Do I think myself evil because I only care about myself? Of course not, but then, I am not the one who made the definition, now am I? I don't think myself evil, though. Sure, I can be pretty malicious, I play with people's emotions, I
lie, I cheat, and I've shed the blood of innocents, but it's not like I take pleasure in bringing harm to others. Well, perhaps I take pleasure in tricking others into believing what I want them to, but my actions all stem from one sole
source, Survival.

Yes, Survival, I am in a category of people, I am like others, a fish in the sea. How can I know anything else, though? All these things I do, they keep me alive. I try to keep those who are Light at arm's length just as much as I try
to keep away those who are Dark. It's kind of funny I do this by bringing them all closer, but I suppose that ought to be pondered another time. Everything I do, though, all the playing with people's emotions, the shedding of blood, I do
to survive. It's what I grew up with, it's all I know. Can a person really call me evil for wanting to exist?

It's not like I'm purely selfish, either, or don't care about others. I honestly do. I try to be generous when I can, and I try to do the right thing. I rarely succeed, but I try. Isn't that what counts? Is it my fault that I
prefer life to good deeds? I don't think it is. All I know is that if a person thinks me good or evi

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Chapter 12

Love
Added Mon Oct 30 20:29:51 2006 at level 40:

A lot's changed, hasn't it? One moment, everything's normal, the next it
isn't. That seems to be my life, though. That's always been my life,
unpredictable. I never could have predicted this, though, never in my 96
years could I have imagined such a thing.

I've done a lot, lately, accomplished a lot. I've made Orcs think I'm their
savior, their servant and their king, and convinced them that I'm much better
alive than eaten. I've caused Imperials to think me some sort of Dark servant,
someone who brings them valuable information or who is truly their friend.
I've convinced the Tribunals I'm a law abiding citizen even though I care
nothing for their silly laws, and I've convinced Outlanders that I despise
the cities, though I spend nearly all my time within. Finally, there are
the Scions. Oh how I love the Scions. I've made friends with at least two,
or at least, I'm almost certain they believe that. First there's Seffar.
I made contact with him early, agree to work for him, be his ally. In return,
he offered me protection, and the occasional piece of equipment. Oh how I've
used the former. I had a small misdealing with another of his employees,
and was able to completely unman the person because of my contact. The second
is Malic, the Vampire, a very dark creature indeed. I haven't yet done much
with him, but I've set the wheels in motion. I think I'll have fun using
him for everything he's worth. It promises to be amusing.

Yes, I've done much, accomplished more, and my entire life has been
unpredictable, even to me, but this, this is just, ugh. What do I do with
this? This wasn't supposed to happen. This wasn't supposed to be. I'm not
supposed to actually -care- about someone. I'm not supposed to develop
feelings.

I met someone, a woman, a human. Her name's Zaphoedine. She's pretty, lovely
eyes, a look of determination, idependance, defiance, and she moves with a
grace unknown to most Elves. And oh, her legs, her beautiful, sexy legs,
so powerful, so strong, I would love nothing more than to feel the
security they offer. She can cling to the ceiling of a cave with them, I
wonder.... Hmm, but I digress. I talked to her like I talk to all women I
want to use, flirtatious, but subtle, and yet, when we started to actually
talk, I felt something, something new. She spoke so eloquently, so
intelligently, I just, couldn't help myself. She's like a large,
attractive, female Gnome. I care about her. I actually care about her, and
I'm finding myself doing things I wouldn't. I told her my past. I
actually told her my past. I can't believe it, and I promised her I would
do my best to not slay those who follow the so called Light, and I meant it!
I promised that and I meant it! What the Hell is wrong with me?! I'm not
like this. I don't let other people choose my path. This is my life. I'm
in control. I don't tell people the truth. I've never told people the truth,
not the complete truth, and yet, I can't bring myself to lie to her. I just
don't get it. I don't know how to act; I don't know what to do.
Everything's in turmoil. I just don't get it. I don't know who I am
anymore. This is all so confusing. If my life wasn't chaotic before, it
certainly is now. I hope this works out for the best. I need to think.

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Chapter 11

Intrigue, Planning, and the Heralds
Added Tue Nov 21 11:46:25 2006 at level 51:

A lot has happened since I last wrote. I really must update this journal more often, but I feel
as though I never have the time. There's almost always something going on, something else
I need to do. I meet one goal, which puts a new one on the horizon. I don't think there's
need for complaint, obviously, as it lends itself to an interesting life, always changing, and
never dull, but it does make it difficult to do everything that needs done.

I'm working on long term planning, now. I've pulled many successful coups, and it's so
easy to manipulate others. Right now, I'm at least partially allied with multiple Scions, I'm
completely immune to the Empire and most Imperials think me one of them, the Fortress
thinks me weak, incompetent, and confused, which is precisely what I want them to think,
several people in the Fortress think me their friend, more than one Outlander likes me, the
Tribunal thinks I'm a model citizen, and a lot of orcs think I'm on their side and not the type
of Half-Elf that needs eaten. The only real trouble I have is with those Lions of the Village,
hypocrites, a lot of them, and fools, but they're only a minor nuisance, especially now that
I'm a Herald, though there's still some. I'm simply have a longer lifespan, is all.

Speaking of which, I'm finally a Herald. It feels wonderful. I was very surprised to be let in
after one event. I thought I was going to have to spend a lifetime trying to prove my worth.
But now, I'm able to plan events without a vile taste on my lips each time. I have a few in the
works and am thinking up more. It takes a lot of my time, but I really don't mind. Not only
does it help my manipulations, but I just plain love it. I'm glad Zaphie convinced me to join.
Not that I've seen her, lately. It's funny, how she had so much influence, only to vanish...

I'm a scribe to the Heralds. I should do well with it, though it's time consuming. I'm
working on my first submission as I write this. It'll be the discussion on Truth and
Morality, edited a bit and made more readable and enjoyable to read. I'd like to get it
finished before I plan another event like that. I think I'll have the next one on Immortality,
and the one after that on Life and Death, though that may change, I don't know. I don't
know what else I might try to write. I can think of a few things, but with as busy as I am, I
don't know if I'll get around to them. Maybe when I get a few more things done.

Which brings me back to my planning. I can easily manipulate others, but I'm not really
accomplishing much. Right now, I'm trying to form as many "pets" as I can, build my
relationship with them, until I can figure out how to use them. It's working quite well, but a
couple of the ones I already had plans for have died. Riadhana would have been quite
useful for helping me tear apart the Empire. It is unfortunate that her dealings with them
was her demise. I hope to find a replacement, soon.

I've only had one successful coupe recently, unless I count the whole thing with the Empire
and the Fortress. That was quite fun, and accomplished a lot, but it's still ongoing, and thus
difficult to write about. No, the one to which I refer is the one involving Yasmeia and Malic.
It was quite something, first getting

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Chapter 10

Not to Lyristeon
Added Wed Nov 29 14:14:18 2006 at level 51:

"Garnish, with Cherries on Top"

Lyristeon,

I've been thinking about what You said, as well as the three Tenants. You asked
me if I thought I had garnered what I seek, or if I was just now realizing that
I have a way to go. That is a tricky question to answer, but I shall try my
best.

Now, I have left some gaping maws, several, in fact, I would argue. Those I can
and am willing to give examples of. If that's all there is to the earning,
though, I would say that yes, I definitely have garnered what I seek, but I'm
not sure that's all there is to it. The real question is whether it has been
enough of my focus, which I'm not so certain about. Now, there are many times
when chaos is my goal, and I use deception and wisdom to achieve it. I like to
have fun, and to be quite honest, causing chaos, surprising people, and toying
with their emotions is very fun to me. A lot of times, though, I'm trying to
strive for something more, for a few reasons.

One reason is because it's useful to me. It's useful to me to have almost
everyone in the world trust me, even though I'm lying to all of them. It's
useful to me that the leaders of every cabal call upon me for help. I have a
lot of power, a lot more than anyone realizes, and it amuses me quite thoroughly.

Another reason is because I'm trying to accomplish something larger. I'm trying
to breed friendships and trust in order to use people to create some real chaos.
Now, I'll admit, due to a lot of untimely deaths, this isn't getting nearly as
far as I've wanted, but it doesn't mean I've accomplished nothing. Currently,
I'm breeding a lot of distrust in the Empire and causing a schism to form.
Given a few more years, I think I'll start to see some really positive changes
take place within. The fun part is, I'm doing it just because I can. I've been
thinking along these lines for a really long time, though I'm getting old and
don't know how to increase my life expectancy, so I may have to be content with
the Empire.

The final reason is a bit silly, I admit. I've been wanting to get into Your
religion, perhaps even become one of Your representatives, tattooed, as it were,
especially now that I'm old, but I believe I've misunderstood it. One of the
reasons I was trying to do some of these serious things, beyond my own
amusement, is because the smaller, though quite fun, chaotic accomplishments of
mine just haven't felt worthy of Your attentions. True, I've left people with
their maws agape, but I didn't think that'd amuse You, only me. As I said, that
was a foolish mistake, but one I will admit.

So, with that in mind, let me try to answer Your question. I have caused maws
to gape, and I have used deception to do so. I have used wisdom in that,
although I have spread chaos and confusion, toyed with emotions, lied, did
exactly what I said I wouldn't and been caught, and caught people off guard with
actions they would never expect, the people I've affected still don't know who I
am, what I do, or why. Almost all of them trust me still, even though I've done
things that should break that trust, and not because they're overly stupid or
trusting, but because I've been able to talk my way out of it. I delight in
that. I've also used wisdom in that I'm almost never caught, when I do
somethi

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Chapter 9

Tsyda
Added Fri Dec 1 12:31:44 2006 at level 51:

I am a fool. I have lost the thing I most desire. I lost it when I only just
realized. How could I let this happen? How could I let my life fall apart like
this? Am I so worried about others and about the things that have no meaning
that I've lost sight of the things I do? Reality is subjective, sure. No one
disprove that, but that doesn't mean I should live like nothing matters. It
matters to me. And now I've realized what I've always wanted, what I've been
missing. I realize that the one thing I was too afraid to let myself have is the
one thing I needed. And then I found it, but I lost it. I found it, but I lost
it. What kind of fool am I? Intelligent? Ha! I'm not intelligent.

I am in less danger than anyone I know. More people trust me than anyone I know.
I have a lot of power, and yet, I don't care. It doesn't matter to me. I can
make those I don't care about think whatever I want about me. I have total
control, but what about the people I -do- care about? What about them? I was
never supposed to care about anyone, and then I did, and now look at me.

Nothing else matters anymore, nothing at all. The manipulations don't matter.
The chaos doesn't matter. Philosophy, learning, talking, entertaining, humor,
none of them matter without you. I am a fool. I love you, and I lost you. I
would give you anything, but I didn't see it soon enough. I didn't realize it
soon enough, and then Zaphie came back, and I got confused, and now I have to
break three hearts, instead of just one. I yearn for you, ache. I need you.
You are all I want. You are my life, my everything. I would give anything just
to have you back. I would give you my life, my body, and my soul. I will wait
for you, faithfully, forever. I am in love.

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Chapter 3

Free at last
Added Tue Dec 26 01:29:33 2006 at level 51:

Freedom, finally, after all these years, I'm free. It is wonderment, amazing.
It took my breath away, and I wanted to shout to the world. It was a very
painful process, I should say. I had just finished praying to Lord Twist to
watch over my wife and Lord Corrlaan to guide me, as I do quite often, and
suddenly there was a terrible pain in my chest as it exploded, severely damaging
my clavin, and when I regained enough of my senses, I noticed the infernal
tattoo was gone. Gone at last, finally, it was gone.

I was ecstatic, euphoric. I told Gringora right away, and then told Tsyda, as
soon as she returned. Of course, Lyristeon tried to screw with me a bit more,
after that, sending in a prostitute to try to condemn me and giving me some sort
of rash in my, er, private areas, but a little ointment applied by my wife
helped soothe it immensely.

I'm almost certain it was Lyristeon who removed the tattoo, though I'm not
why He did it. Could be any number of reasons, really. One never knows with
Him, but then, I'm not even certain it needed to be gotten rid of in order to
spend my afterlife with Tsyda. I certainly couldn't take the Imp's word on it,
though. If there's one thing He isn't, it's trustworthy, and I just didn't want
to take the chance.

Speaking of such things, I've realized I still have feelings for Zaphie, and I
know she still has feelings for me, but I will never betray Tsyda. That much, I
know. Perhaps the three of us could work something out, if not in this life,
then the afterlife. I suppose it all depends on the future. Everything depends
on the future, but at least I'm happy, Tsyda's happy, and the people for whom I
care are, as well. That's what really matters.

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Chapter 8

A Most Wonderful Day
Added Sun Dec 3 18:58:52 2006 at level 51:

It has been a most joyous day, most joyous day indeed. It started well, it ended
well, and it was just, altogether, a very lovely day. It began like most days;
I came to the Inn with some poetry in hand, having sat up the night before,
writing to calm my heart. Meora was there, and so were a few others, and they
asked me to recite it, so I did. Midway through, I stopped abrubtly; a familiar
scent had come through the door. There she was, so pure and disarming, smiling
at me, with her eyes agaze.

"Don't speak," said she, "Till I have spoken. Don't break me from this spell of
thee."

And so I stood there, waiting patient, as she spoke to me, her face aglow.

"I am yours, and you are mine, and together we shall be most free. Hold me here,
kiss my lips, love me now, and I will be your wife."

And so I came to be engaged, the fiery Pirate lass my own. Now I'm happy, to be
with Tsyda. Now I'm happy, our hearts entwined.

Ahhh, but this is but the beginning. For you see, there was more that happened
this day. It was a day of many confessions, many tears, and many embraces.
This day wasn't just mine, and it wasn't just hers. One other took part in the
marvel. A cat, a Fela, my dear friend Meora. She has made this day complete.

For it was this day, that I learned her secret, a secret she has shared with few.
It was this day, that she let go, she found peace, and she is free. A confession
she made, a confession most troubling. She had never forgiven herself for the
death of her siblings. We talked about it, undecided. We talked about it, and I
despaired. But then she asked me, her 'older' brother, she asked me to take her
to where the river meets sea. We traveled there, upon the Martyr's Sorrow, and
there, did she, find her peace. A sight to see, this cat so drenched, wading
through the river's tears. She thought and pondered, reflected on her past.
She though and pondered, until she saw. Her past, her present, her future, they
all converged into her life. She saw this, she watched, and finally, she knew.
She understood, and forgiveness was hers.

Yes, it has been a most wonderful day indeed.

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Chapter 7

The State of My Soul
Added Wed Dec 6 14:57:11 2006 at level 51:

Now that Tsyda and I are engaged, we've been trying to figure out how we're going
to become married. I've agreed to take her last name, Qa Vansedien, since I
don't have one of my own, having never known my parents, but the actual wedding
itself is a little trickier. As such, I decided to seek out the Lady Rayihn, as
She helped me quite a bit when I was trying to work through my feelings and
hopelessness. To my surprise, She agreed to actually do the wedding. I had
merely planned on asking if it would be okay for some Priest to do it. I'm glad
Meora was with me, even if it did add a little confusion, early on.

While in Rayihn's presence, I thought to ask Her about the afterlife. I know
very little, you see. I wanted to make sure Tsyda and I wouldn't be seperated
after our deaths, for her sake, as well as mine. Well, it seems that those who
do not follow a God go to a Neutral area, and thus we could be together, were
that the case, but neither of us are certain if my attempts to follow the Imp,
for a time, have made it so I would go to His realm upon my death. Obviously, I
don't want this, but I'm not quite sure what to do about it. I'm looking into
as many ways of prevention that I can think of. Perhaps merely stating that I
give my soul to Tsyda will do, but then, perhaps not. I'll try speaking to the
Lord Corrlaan, next. Maybe He'll be able to help, or maybe there's some sort of
ritual, like those that Necromancers do to become Liches, that would allow me to
give my soul to my love. I certainly don't trust the Imp to tell me the truth in
the matter, but I shant give up until I am certain that I will be able to spend
my afterlife with the woman with whom I am in love.

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Chapter 6

Marriage and Selflessness
Added Sat Dec 9 13:01:43 2006 at level 51:

The wedding was wonderful. We decided to have it at the Consortium's Garden;
that's where Tsyda fell in love with me and where I first started looking at her
as a potential love interest. Meora, Lin, and Ado were there; Ethelle and
Itholin couldn't make it, Nanorab just barely missed it, and I completely forgot
to invite Fuddo. I felt rather bad about that. I really like that Gnome.

The ceremony itself was brief, which is what I preferred, anyways. It was night,
and the moonlight on the snow was quite enchanting. I was wearing a dark blue
robe, a white ruffled shirt, and tight black dress pants that Adovaryn had sewn
for me, as well as some black boots, my green sash, my blue halo, and my glasses.
Tsyda wore a beautiful white gown and silk sash. I was so enchanted with her, I
could have died in her arms and never been happier.

Rayihn had us stand in front of her, holding hands. She told us that She didn't
really believe in marriage and wasn't one for tradition, but that I had told Her
about Tsyda's and my falling in love and the challenges we faced, and said that
it was the strength of our bond that has made the relationship stronger, in the
end. Love is more than passion, more than fire. It is fulfillment, a
completion, and a home. We then read our vows to each other, I going first. I
have recorded them in a book, so maybe the world will see them, yet. Hers were
wonderful, of course, quite touching, and I couldn't help but beam. She told me
that she'd been in love with me since the that time in the garden. I have her
vows recorded as well, though whether I'll share them with the world remains to
be seen. After that, we exchanged rings that the Lady Rayihn provided, kissed,
and then we were married, man and wife. My life, my love, my purpose.

I did manage to speak with Lord Corrlaan before all of this. I told Him the
situation with my soul, my worries and fears. He told me that if I lived with
with a purpose in this life. I'd have that same purpose in the next, and He told
me that if I lived a selfess life, perhaps my past transgressions would be
forgiven. So, that's my new life. My purpose is Tsyda, and I live for others.
I probably won't succeed with it in all things. I'll probably make plenty of
mistakes, have plenty of failures, but I'll never stop trying. I just hope that
entertaining others, and causing them to question their views in order to better
understand themselves and their world, and otherwise being generous and offering
aid count as being selfless. If not, hopefully someone will point me on the
right path. Perhaps if I just don't commit a selfish act, it'll be enough. I
don't know, but I'll do my best, and pray that it's enough.

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Chapter 5

The Mark of the Imp
Added Thu Dec 14 10:52:49 2006 at level 51:

It comes as no great surprise to me, really, what has happened, though I'm sure
He would like to believe otherwise. The only surprise is how long it took Him,
knowing that I no longer wished such a thing. Though I didn't tell Him my fears,
I'm sure He sensed them. I'm sure He knew I didn't want the tattoo, and that is
precisely why He gave it to me.

My life is like one of those Epic tragedies. I'll have to write about it one
day. Perhaps it will be entertaining. The instance of the mark is simple enough
to tell. Ethelle had just finished having her discussion on the Fortress as we
had agreed, and the Imp showed up to poke fun at her late husband. Well,
naturally, I didn't want Him doing this, so I pulled out a statue I had of Him
and attempted to distract Him with it. Well, next thing I know, I'm marked, and
he's made a snide comment and left. Well, Ethelle isn't too worried, because
she knows He likes to do this sort of stuff to mess with people, but now I'm a
bit worried on the state of my soul.

Well, the best I can do is continue to live as selflessly as possible, and to
continue to live for my wife. It's tempting to get back into the religion, after
a century of trying to be one of His followers, but I will resist the temptation,
as I do not wish to bring harm to my one true love. The Gods may think I'm doing
all of this for myself, but truly, I do it for her. I could be happy living in
the Imp's afterlife. It has always been a part of who I am, but Tsyda means more
to me than everything else combined, and she is the one I dedicate my life to.
She is the one I worship. I won't let anyone harm her, especially myself, and I
won't let some Puppetmaster keep us apart.

Role

Chapter 4

More Deceptions and the Truth about Snuzzly
Added Fri Dec 15 11:23:46 2006 at level 51:

Well this tattoo is nothing, if not useful, even with me almost never seeing
combat. I so wish I could keep it, so wish I could stay in this religion. It's
so much fun, but I love my wife far too much to risk her unhappiness over my
desires.

The tattoo is useful, though, as it's allowed me to get in on better terms with
the Scions, allowed me to lie to them more easily. I do hate the deception,
though. Farigno says I should be careful about them, lest the Imp's hold on me
become permanent. Of course, it seems like every God is saying something
different. Corrlaan says I just need to live with a purpose, Iunna seems to
think that I'll be able to be with my wife in the afterlife no matter what I do,
Rayihn says it's all up to who represents me, and Farigno says I need to be
completely selfless. This is, of course, overlooking the fact that -no one-
understands Lyristeon. He seems like such a great God, too. Sure, He likes to
create mischief, but He does a lot of good in the world by doing so. He brings
a lot of fun and is able to bring humor to even the saddest situations. I so
wish I could trust Him. I would serve Him and be a model priest if I could but
know for certain that I could be with my wife in the afterlife, but I just can't
risk it. I can't risk my soul.

So, while naturally I cannot exactly trust Farigno, I don't like taking chances
like this, but these Demons, if what Farigno says is true, and I believe it is,
they are -very- bad for this world, and very bad for my wife. I have to stop
them, even if I have to lie, deceive, and manipulate to do it. I'm not good at
much else. Why shouldn't I use my gifts for good? I'm not using them for
myself. I'm using them to try to help the world. Where is the fault in that?
I need to talk to Lord Corrlaan about this.

On a completely unrelated note, Yasmeia seems to have returned, at last, and I'm
finally coming to understand how I really felt about her. I kept telling myself
in the past that she never really meant anything to me, that she was just another
one of my manipulations, but I know now that I was merely deceiving myself. I
really am quite fond of her, so much so that I would mutilate anyone that messed
with her. I would cut off their noses, split their tongues, remove their
eyelids, and let them forever walk around as freaks, loved by no one, because
I care about her just that much. I don't love her like I love my wife, but I do
love her. I could have loved her like I love my wife, I think, and she could
have loved me. She told me the reason she disappeared for so long was because
she -was- falling in love with me, and she knew it was a bad idea, due to her
frequent disappearances. She didn't want to hurt me. I love her all the much
more for that, and in some ways, I'm glad it happened that way. We never could
have worked out, she and I. She's just too Light, and I'll never be. I can live
for my wife, and I can do my best never to make another selfish action, but I'll
never be a Lightwalker, just like I'll never fully be able to supress the chaos
within me, no matter how much I try. It's part of who I am, and I have to accept
it, but it doesn't mean I won't do everything in my power to make sure my Tsyda
is happy. We will be together

Role

Chapter 2

Iunna
Added Sat Dec 30 20:59:53 2006 at level 51:

Iunna respects me. She actually respects me. All this time, I wasn't sure.
I thought She didn't like me. I thought She didn't care. Well, no, I knew
She cared, but I wasn't certain what about. She kept showing that She cared
every time She talked to me, but I thought it was just not wanting me to
screw something up. Now I know better.

It took me a very long time to become a Herald, and I don't mean joining
them, though it took a while to do that, as well. I originally wanted to be
one simply because it was convenient, a good base of operations for my
manipulations, and a good excuse to be involved with many people without
suffering wrath. I don't know if She saw that.I don't think She did, but
She certainly didn't let me in right away, and I resented Her for it.

For a very long time, I was publicly displeased with Her. Even after I
started to admire Her, I tried to keep up that public appearance. It made me
want to never show any weakness in front of Her, and even now, I act that way
around Her, almost unconsciously. After I became a Herald, the displeasure
and secret admiration turned more to fear, but I would never admit that to
Her. No, though I was afraid of Her, I made certain to conceal it as best I
could. It certainly made me feel awkward around Her though.

I'm not quite sure when I actually became a Herald. I think it was a gradual
change that took place over a long period of time. I do know when I realized
I was one, though. It was just after I was married. I had decided that
Lyristeon just wasn't worth it anymore and was, instead, using my connections
to try to do some good.I found myself able to communicate with every Cabal
and thus have them communicate with each other, even if they didn't realize.

Iunna, though, I wasn't sure she was noticing, but She pulled me aside one
day, talked to me. She told me that I'd been doing a lot for the Heralds and
She thought highly of me. I was very touched, very confused, due to my
relationship with Her, but very touched. I used to detest Her, now I'm not
sure how to feel. I suppose I'll figure it out, eventually, but just knowing
how much Iunna respects me says a lot. I'm finally proud to be a Herald.

Role

Chapter 1

Zaphoedine and Balim
Added Sat Dec 30 22:01:58 2006 at level 51:

Well, Zaphie's story has finally come to a close, at least how it applies to
my life. It's an odd ending, and I'm not sure how happy it is.It involves
a Bard, an Armadillo, and a couple of W'raithes.

Camilla, Zaphie's W'raithe, had apparently done much harm to Zaphie, which is
why she's been acting so strange. Well, that all came to a head when Balim,
a Nexan Bard who apparently also has a W'raithe, came in and started
communicating with the two of them. Apparently, he spoke some arcane
language that had a lot of effect on Camilla, causing her to go crazy, in
turn effecting Zaphie. It all came to a head when, without realizing it, he
spoke the language, causing Camilla to take control.

Next thing I know, Camilla's threatening me, and Balim's telling me he has to
undo what he did. Well, obviously, I agreed, because I couldn't stand to see
her harmed. So, with Tsyda there as an armadillo, he began speaking the odd
language. I soon found myself able to understand it, and his W'raithe and
Camilla began a battle.

After a bit of success, the four of us moved to the plains. There, Camilla
caused Zaphie to strike at Balim a few times, so it was lucky Tsyda was
there, as her armadillo was very helpful. It seemed hopeless for a time, but
I finally spoke, asking Zaphie to come back to me, which allowed Balim a
final strike, which weakened Camilla.

In that instant, Balim drew Camilla into him, a change that was permanent,
and one I did not like, for it bound their souls. I was, however, able to
convince him into letting me share the burden and binding my soul, as well,
and Tsyda decided to get in on it, too.So, the four of us our bound
together, united in our love for Zaphie.

Of course, with all good, there comes a bad, and this is where it is. I knew
of Balim's feelings for Zaphie, and I knew Zaphie was vulnerable, but I
couldn't stand the thought of it. Zaphie promised me she would never have
another lover, and I promised her that we would be together in the afterlife,
her, Tsyda, and I. I couldn't stand the thought of it, and in this instant,
I failed Lord Corrlaan.I was selfish.

I told Zaphie how I felt, once more. I reminded her of her promise. I
thought of myself. I did not think of others. She told me she'd keep it,
but in doing so, she hurt Balim, and possibly herself. I don't know what to
do, though. I can't let go of her. I just can't. Tsyda knows this. She's
fine with it. She knows of our promises, so it's not all bad, but still, I
failed Lord Corrlaan, and I don't know if I can correct it.

Immortal Comments

Sun Oct 22 21:17:10 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 29 (96 hrs):
An Immortal added 750 exp for: Role, deception, neutrality, starvation, all good stuff

Sat Oct 28 18:30:20 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 37 (128 hrs):
An Immortal added 1000 exp for: Nice rp with me.

Sun Oct 29 20:03:31 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 40 (141 hrs):
An Immortal added 1000 exp for: For participation in the costume contest.

Mon Nov 6 18:03:03 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 47 (197 hrs):
An Immortal added 1000 exp for: For updating his role, it's a pretty interesting read

Tue Nov 7 13:12:15 2006 by 'Twist' at level 48 (207 hrs):
I suggested he return to his hometown pit when he came back from a crash naked (his corpse had decayed a couple of ticks prior).

Thu Nov 9 20:11:04 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 48 (223 hrs):
An Immortal added 2500 exp for: For getting some good rp going and working his way fairly well within my religion.

Fri Nov 17 22:29:00 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 49 (273 hrs):
An Immortal added 1000 exp for: For holding a philosphical debate about truth and morality.

Wed Nov 22 20:42:58 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 51 (300 hrs):
An Immortal added 1000 exp for: One of two recipes submitted to Kadlin's Thanksgiving Feastiness (he won).

Sat Dec 9 07:58:34 2006 by 'Rayihn' at level 51 (402 hrs):
Lastname granted after his wedding to Tsyda

Wed Dec 13 15:08:17 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 51 (428 hrs):
An Immortal added 2500 exp for: For explaining things with wisdom and deception in a chaotic way to Ethelle. Gave him my tattoo as well for really busting his ass to get it. Let no one say I don't tattoo people who get their ass kicked a lot.

Fri Dec 15 00:07:31 2006 by 'An Immortal' at level 51 (439 hrs):
An Immortal added 3000 exp for: Per Farigno, Great deductive reasoning in the Demon Lords quest!

Sat Dec 23 20:56:03 2006 by 'Lyristeon' at level 51 (480 hrs):
Prayed to Corrlaan for guidance and wisdom, removed the tattoo and gave him a little bit of pain.

Sat Dec 23 21:14:42 2006 by 'Lyristeon' at level 51 (480 hrs):
He had a prostitute come to him and kiss him. He now has syphilis.

Sat Dec 30 11:28:57 2006 by 'Lyristeon' at level 51 (497 hrs):
Titled 'Messed With the Imp and Caught Crotch Rot' for blaming me for his syphilis. It was a prostitute hired by me. I don't have syphilis to give.

Tue Jan 2 22:29:28 2007 by 'An Immortal' at level 51 (503 hrs):
An Immortal added 3000 exp for: Demon brothers quest coolness.

Tue Jan 2 22:30:35 2007 by 'Daevryn' at level 51 (503 hrs):
Extra form and syphilis cureage for his quest participatoin and stuff.

Tue Jan 2 22:49:34 2007 by 'Qaledus' at level 51 (503 hrs):
De-syphillused and formed from the quest. Titled up.

PK Gank-O-Meter

PK Gank-O-Meter

Total PK Wins	2
Total PK Assists	1
Average Group Size Per Kill	2.33

Death's Gank-O-Meter says: Super-Ganky

Average Group Size Per Death

1.04

Death's Ganked-O-Meter says: Destroyed By The Honorbound

PK Statistics

PK Statistics

Total PK Wins	2 (0 at level 51)
Total PK Losses	26
Total Mob Deaths	37

PK Wins by Class
VS. anti-paladin	1
VS. shapeshifter	1

PK Wins by Cabal
VS. None	2

PK Wins by Align
VS. Good	0
VS. Neutral	1
VS. Evil	1

PK Deaths by Class
VS. transmuter	2
VS. warrior	10
VS. anti-paladin	1
VS. necromancer	3
VS. bard	3
VS. shaman	1
VS. healer	1
VS. conjurer	1
VS. berserker	3
VS. shapeshifter	1

PK Deaths by Cabal
VS. None	11
VS. BATTLE	11
VS. EMPIRE	2
VS. NEXUS	1
VS. TRIBUNAL	1

PK Deaths by Align
VS. Good	1
VS. Neutral	11
VS. Evil	14

Spell List

Level 1	faerie fire	99%
Level 1	ventriloquate	100%
Level 2	detect magic	99%
Level 2	shell of the armadillo	84%
Level 3	detect invis	100%
Level 3	hooves of the gazelle	97%
Level 4	invis	99%
Level 4	tail of the lizard	1%
Level 6	claw of the lion	1%
Level 8	horns of the bull	94%
Level 9	eyes of the cat	1%
Level 10	fly	100%
Level 10	paws of the cheetah	1%
Level 11	giant strength	100%
Level 12	fangs of the serpent	92%
Level 13	faerie fog	97%
Level 14	teleport	75%
Level 14	water breathing	94%
Level 14	ears of the bat	74%
Level 15	haste	100%
Level 15	identify	100%
Level 15	locate object	100%
Level 15	shapeshift	93%
Level 17	dispel magic	82%
Level 18	cancellation	91%
Level 18	slow	100%
Level 22	fumble	87%
Level 23	enlarge	84%
Level 24	pass door	100%
Level 24	stone skin	100%
Level 26	reduce	78%
Level 28	word of recall	100%
Level 34	spiderhands	1%
Level 36	control translucence	100%

Skill List

Level 1	dagger	100%
Level 1	staff	83%
Level 1	whip	95%
Level 1	scrolls	82%
Level 1	staves	81%
Level 1	wands	75%
Level 1	recall	100%
Level 1	spellcraft	100%
Level 2	improved compare	79%
Level 5	meditation	100%
Level 8	haggle	85%
Level 10	taletell	71%
Level 11	inspect goods	1%
Level 13	scribe	77%
Level 14	trance	100%
Level 14	cease fighting	75%
Level 15	fast healing	100%
Level 15	mix	91%
Level 17	artistry	70%
Level 19	parry	80%
Level 20	pugil	1%
Level 20	lash	1%
Level 20	pen	93%
Level 21	toss	74%
Level 25	hand to hand	83%
Level 29	shapeshift skill	100%
Level 30	careful vision	1%
Level 30	second attack	100%
Level 34	control levitation	100%
Level 35	control speed	100%
Level 36	control skin	100%
Level 37	control phase	100%

Statistics

Experience Breakdown

Experience from Cabal raiding	500
Experience from Skill improvements	10197
Experience from Exploration	12400
Experience from Quests	11600
Experience from Commerce	5096

Adventuring Statistics

Character Created	Sun Oct 8 12:14:30 2006
Quests Completed	23
Exploration Points Found	46
Bonus Experience from Immortals	16750
(WANTED) Criminal	1 times
Hours spent at Hero	217 hours
% of lifetime in the wilderness	19 %
% of lifetime in the cities	19 %
% of lifetime in the Inn of the Eternal Star	33 %
% of lifetime caballed	43 %

Title History

Fri Dec 8 19:37:19 2006, level 51 (396 hrs):
Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Grand Master of Changelings

Sat Dec 30 11:27:16 2006, level 51 (497 hrs):
Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Grand Master of Changelings, Messed With the Imp and Caught the Crotch Rot

Tue Jan 2 22:47:25 2007, level 51 (503 hrs):
Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Double-Changed Changeling, Messed With the Imp and Caught the Crotch Rot

Tue Jan 2 22:47:41 2007, level 51 (503 hrs):
Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Grand Master of Changelings, Resilient Beast of Bourbon

Tue Jan 2 22:48:25 2007, level 51 (503 hrs):
Tiatan Qa Vansedien the Double-Changed Changeling, Resilient Beast of Bourbon

Timeline

Sun Oct 15 13:31:39 2006 at level 20 (45 hrs):
Tiatan advanced to level 20

Sun Oct 22 21:28:27 2006 at level 30 (96 hrs):
Tiatan advanced to level 30

Sun Oct 29 15:52:57 2006 at level 40 (138 hrs):
Tiatan advanced to level 40

Sat Nov 18 21:31:33 2006 at level 49 (280 hrs):
Inducted into HERALD by Iunna.

Mon Nov 20 20:10:36 2006 at level 51 (287 hrs):
Tiatan advanced to level 51

Wed Dec 13 15:14:31 2006 at level 51 (428 hrs):
Tattooed by Lyristeon.

Sat Dec 23 20:54:17 2006 at level 51 (480 hrs):
Tattoo removed by Lyristeon.

Cabal Specifics

Cabal Statistics

# of logins with their cabal item	0
# of logins without their cabal item	0
# of logouts with their cabal item	0
# of logouts without their cabal item	0
# of times they lost their cabal item	0
# of times they retrieved their cabal item	1
# of times they took another cabal item	1

Class Specifics

You can shapeshift into the following

Level 16	Deer	Confident
Level 24	Giant toad	Confident
Level 30	Gazelle	Confident
Level 35	Hare	Confident
Level 44	Hyena	Confident
Level 47	Porcupine	Confident
Level 51	Albatross	Adequate