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Chapter 7

Journal entry 5
Added Thu Apr 22 20:26:58 2004 at level 38:

Journal entry 5

I continue to be perplexed by the actions of those I see within this world,
but now my own actions perplex me as well.

Firstly, I have had several invitations to join the Fortress of Light. I had
considered this in the past, but felt my own lack of desire to redeem the
darkness to make me unsuitable. The ultimate act for those of the Brigade is
the redemption of a dark soul. My only wish is to see those dark souls sent
back to the hells which spawned them. However, after much discussion, I feel
perhaps my views would not be so unwelcomed after all. it is something to
consider.

Secondly, I gave offer to Lady Soucivi, a good woman in her mortal life if
accounts are believed, to give up a portion of my life that Lady Verv may
continue to live. Lady Verv is the High Herald of the Inn of the Eternal
Star, a place of rest and succor from the battles of the world. I myself
spend little time there, as I seek battle and do not shy from it. However,
many of my companions seek out the solace Lady Verv offers. Their spirits
seem to be rejuvinated from their time there. I may not partake of the
spirits and laughter therein, but I do appreciate the affect it has on those
few I call friend. Lady Verv may not embrace the light as a matter of choice,
but few actions I can think of are more noble than her desire to salve
wounded spirits, and so to offer less than my own life for hers would be
unworthy of me. Lady Soucivi will seek higher powers to consider my request.
I only pray they are in time to save this woman, whom I call friend.

Perhaps my time spent among others has done me some good. I find myself
feeling far more compassion for this mish-mash of lowborn beings than I ever
thought possible. Lady Audriels influence on my spirit no doubt. I find
myself in constant admiration of her goodness and generous nature. While my
path may be the path of war, for indeed that is still what drives my heart,
perhaps opening myself a little to others is not such a bad thing.

Or perhaps I am losing my wits in this madhouse world outside of the Vale I
so cherish. Also something to consider.