Role

Chapter 18

What must not happen have happened. On her way with her brothers to explore
some haunted keep, Arrna charged into battle before she had determined if her
foe was someone needed to be cleansed or not. Just as she strikes, she
realizes that her foe is not dark of heart. But it is too late, her heavy
body has already driven the polearm into the poor poacher, and killed him him
with one heavy blow... In despair Arrna threw down her weapons, holding up the
lifeless body, tears streaming down her face. She has done the opposite to
what her war is meant to do. Instead of protecting the innocent, she has
killed one.

Her first reaction is to take her own life, but she quickly realizes that
this wouldnt help. Nothing she can do will bring the poor poacher back to
life, and taking her own life will only strengthen the darkness. So what can
she do but asking the lords and ladies of the light for forgiveness, even
though she knows she is not worthy of it, she sends up her prayers, while
swearing that she will fight the war even harder than before, and never, ever
again strike someone innocent.

She also decides that she is not worthy to carry Arins weapon, the
thunderlace that he so kindly gave to her to fight the wicked. Perhaps it is
not for her to decide, but for now, that is what she can do. She must speak
with Lady Iunna about this, and seek out the gods of the fortress. Until
then, she shall meditate upon what has happened and continue to fight the
war, maybe she is no longer worthy to be of the fort, but that is not for her
to decide, if shes not, she will continue the war on her own, as she did for
so many years before.

As she hours later to return to the spot of the tragedy, the poacher has
returned. And he is as trusting to her as he was before. This made Arrna
think of her own problem, why cant she trust people? This poacher, was
killed by someone he trusted, someone sworn to protect him betrayed him, and
yet, he continues to offer Arrna his trust. So why couldnt Arrna continue to
trust others, why cant she be such a good person?