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Chapter 1

Lost in desire, filled with despair, and the power of lust.
Added Mon Aug 6 09:55:48 2018 at level 26:

A forgotten whore, lost in sinful desire. An orphan who transitioned into what
she was admired for as her body grew into womanhood. A beauty, a soothing voice after
laying with those who payed for her services, yet seeing very little of it herself in coin.
Now, carrying an insatiable desire for being more than nothing. Being nothing but a whore
for the pleasures of those with coin, with power, with anything worthwhile, her lust is
for that which controls and is not controlled...

Nijee was raised in Balator, though her origin is unknown, though Hamsah seems most likely.
Her parents are obviously a drow and a human, yet who they might be is unknown, only
a crude copper bracelet that was left with her as a child with the last name that is smeared.
A deep despair lingers in her life though, a tragedy so deep that in her voice
it can bring those around her who hear it feel incomplete, or even emotionless as
despair seeps from her tongue like a dying breath.

Though mostly lost in this world, Nijee does desire some things and while she resents
her life as a prostitute, she grew fond of some of the more physical aspects of her
means of living. The sensation of touch and the passion sometimes was overwhelming
but even in the end, despair would always creep in, at being a weak, useless tool with
no power.

I am currently living in my sin, though it feels so odd wishing for it.
is it not wrong to be sinful, but it's all I've ever known, is it wrong to be
so filled with desire that I lust for power, lust for desire itself? Is this
blinding to me and my cause, or will does it strengthen me, this I am unsure of.