Technically, Rayihn is my favorite to play. While my times have gone down because I just need to sleep these days an extra hour or two a night, I don't think it's a lack of time committment that makes Merg "MIA". I'm just so burned and frustrated by all of the bitching and abuse for just trying to help somewhere that needed it that I thought maybe putting Merg on the backburner for a little while would help me recharge those batteries, but I guess it's a catch 22. To give an example, Derogker talks about this nice IC note he wrote to me, but he doesn't mention that the very night before writing it he went on a huge rant about what a "stupid bitch" Mergulla is. I really try and brush things like this off but I'm only human and they genuinely do bother me. Further, they completely extinguish my will to play this game. And maybe that's the intention.

However, I haven't quit or given up or even gone the way some of the higher level imms have, concentrating more on game mechanics and less on being active with the player base. I have to remind myself that I play this game for players like you, Java, Isildur, and characters like Satoshi, Lornis, Masigner etc who appreciate the work imms put in and have fun with it. This is why I haven't deleted Mergulla yet even though I've been sorely tempted. Well, that and the fact that her presence irritates Parv. Har har.