*Tivald section*

The hardest thing I have ever done, and ever expect to do, in cf, is delete a heroed, 7-path, 5 elem masteried(I think, might be 6 or 4), Invoker.


I was REALLY close to auto-deleting. Was goign to let him autodelete, but considering recent events, I figured now was a good time.

The reason I dropped this char?

I guess after azharadon died, and synbendorial dissapeared....and after about 120 or so hours of NOTHING happening with respect to the quest that was "going on" I was tired of really only getting a friend to join me when they wanted a sword...or mace...or bracer...or necklace.

I never got to really explore, cause noone was willing to go with me.


Then there was that one time when I logged on naked, without the grimoire, as the only warlock (as most of my last 50-75 hours were). I decide to take 30 mins or so to get some basic clothes...maybe pick up a shield wand...planning on trying to retrieve from the grove. I thought there was at least a ranger in my pk to defend...so I was playing it safe.

It turns out I was wrong, that ranger wasn't sylvan...but I didn't know that, as that ranger had attacked me with sylvans in the past.

And I am about 5 mins from making my attempt...when Gherian jumps up my rear end "Do you plan on just leaving the grimoire there?" or something like that.


I did retrieve (even though the ranger took my hero invoker from the massive 500 hp I had to 20 hp in the process) without the shield wand, because it sounded like gherian was getting ornery.

That left a bad taste in my mouth. Sorry to lay this on your feet, Gherian, but I didn't appreciate that, considering how many times I solo retrieved or retrieved in groups of non-warlock allies that I organized, I had the feeling that none of my efforts were being noticed. That bad taste was just a small thing, but on top of the mountain of boredom of almost always being the only warlock, with no friends willing to do anything fun...

And, that I had thought up another character that I wanted to play (phaedacil), and I only like to play one char at a time....so Tivald kinda dissapeared.

I did have a few friends, drop a line here, and I'll reply. I logged ever second of my life, so I will probably post a few logs of the more interesting moments.

I *DID* actually have a role with Tivald. But between trying desperately to power rank to get to hero so I could take place in this COOL quest stuff that was happening, and spamming spells so I could help in raiding, and then being dissapointed that this cool quest that I struggled so hard to be able to be a part of just seemed to be going nowhere for so long...I never got around to actually putting it in. If anyone is interested, I'll post the log of the interview I had with Azharadon and Gherian (with quest stuff).

**Phaedacil goodby**

Good god, when will I freikin learn that I just can't compete in pk with sword specs?

I rolled this char without a clear idea of a role...but a vague Idea that I had never played a dawn or maran...and wanted to try one. The role popped into my head around rank 20, it wasn't really as "epic" as my handful of role-contest honorable mentions, but despite feeling that it was somewhat I went with it and got squire.

I did somewhat well in pk with a few assassins, I did somewhat well in pk with a few tribunal rangers that had crappy time in forest, I did somewhat well in pk with Tivald, I even did somewhat well in pk with a mace warrior or two...and I did marginally well with an axe warrior (aieckina) and a felar staff/hand spec (lachis).

But I've never been able to pk with a sword spec. But for some reason I keep getting uncontrollably drawn to them.

I deleted phaedacil for a few reasons.

1) I lost count at around the mid 20's missed pks when my foes were able to flee at writhing or worse....and that was a while ago.
2) I really didn't believe that with my record of never closing a pk, and always falling to stupid gang situations that I shouldn't have gotten myself into in the first place...that I was "Maran" material (especially after hearing a certain felar squire-then-maran always cb about people he killed...no way I could live up to that).
3) I again got another idea for another character....

Normally I would just hold off on the next char until this one was done...but the new char idea, combined with my conviction that I had noway to advance from squire, clinched it.

I had few CLOSE friends with phaedacil, mostly just acquaintances.

I'll miss Ysylonna, and a BIG Thanks to Jirash for the induction. Oh, and thanks to those paladins and healers that kept me alive as much as they could....I know it was a chore.


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Phaedacil the Baroness of Fire
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Level : 36 Sex : female Race : arial
Ethos : Neutral Align : Good Class : warrior
Practices: 21 Trains : 0 Hometown : Galadon
Exp : 279519 To Level : 5731 Sphere : Courage
Age : mature, 21 years old (61 hours)
Hit Point: 173 /534 Mana : 107 /459 Move : 165 /592
Str : 19(19) Int : 23(23) Wis : 20(20)
Dex : 25(25) Con : 17(17) Chr : 17(17)
Carry # : 4/37 Weight : 51 lb 15 oz (Max 315 lbs)
Gold : 0 Silver : 0 Copper : 9
Wimpy : 0 hp Morale : Moderate Position : Standing
Hitroll : 6 Damroll : 7
AC pierce: -50 Very well armored AC bash : -50 Very well armored
AC slash : -50 Very well armored AC magic : -38 Very well armored
vs Spell : Not protected vs Paralysis : Barely protected
vs Breath: Not protected vs Petrification: Not protected
You have 0 weapon specializations.
You are specialized in sword.
You are affected by:
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-173/534hp 107/459m 165/592mv==5731tnl==10 AM- prac
charge 1%( 1%) axe 73%( 73%)
dagger 79%( 79%) flail 71%( 71%)
mace 85%( 85%) polearm 73%( 73%)
spear 75%( 75%) sword 100%(100%)
staff 86%( 86%) whip 75%( 75%)
bash 84%( 84%) berserk 79%( 79%)
dirt kicking 100%(100%) disarm 100%(100%)
dodge 99%( 99%) enhanced damage 100%(100%)
hand to hand 85%( 85%) kick 1%( 1%)
parry 100%(100%) rescue 75%( 75%)
trip 89%( 89%) second attack 100%(100%)
third attack 94%( 94%) fourth attack 93%( 93%)
cross 80%( 80%) offhand disarm 73%( 73%)
shield cleave 1%( 1%) pugil 1%( 1%)
lash 1%( 1%) fast healing 92%( 92%)
haggle 71%( 71%) meditation 85%( 85%)
recall 100%(100%) lore 78%( 78%) warcry 81%( 81%)
shield block 80%( 80%) dual wield 100%(100%)
double thrust 92%( 92%) flourintine 100%(100%)
riposte 83%( 83%) jab 94%( 94%)
flurry 79%( 79%) drive 1%( 1%)
parting blow 80%( 80%) feint 97%( 97%)
retreat 71%( 71%) dash 76%( 76%)
pen 1%( 1%)
You have 21 practice sessions left.


role
Your role chapters are:
From the past:
< 1 > Last name ?
Added Thu Aug 21 01:16:18 2003 at level 23:
< 2 > Her personality
Added Thu Aug 21 01:09:20 2003 at level 23:
< 3 > Why Maran?
Added Thu Aug 21 01:08:25 2003 at level 23:



role read 1
Subject: Last name ?
Added Thu Aug 21 01:16:18 2003 at level 23:
In her upbringing, when a female got married, she would always take the
family name of her betrothed.

She had looked forward to the day when she would be known to all as married
to her Love, with the last name of "Sorkanath", but now that will never
happen.So now whenever she is asked what her full name is, she only ever
answers "Phaedacil, just Phaedacil". If people ask why no last name, she
will let them know that it is because she has no family, but that is as far
as she will go.

role read 2
Subject: Her personality
Added Thu Aug 21 01:09:20 2003 at level 23:
She hates being morose. She hates being sad. She hates dwelling on the past
and succumbing to the pain. Why? Because she knows that that is not how her
Love would wish to be remembered.

So to cover the pain that always lingers underneath, she tries to put forth a
faade of easygoing cheer, a slightly irreverent playfulness that is
reminiscent of the way her Love treated authority.

It is just a faade, however. Often something will happen, sometimes a small
thing like a smell or the way the light reflects off of a swinging blade,
that will remind her too strongly of her Love, and the inner turmoil will
show through momentarily.

Her need to maintain that faade, is also why she will only reveal her past
when absolutely necessary, and will try to never let anyone "inside" her
defenses.


role read 3
Subject: Why Maran?
Added Thu Aug 21 01:08:25 2003 at level 23:
Not many people are lucky enough to be clutched at the same time as their
soul mate, in neighboring aviaries. Phaedacil and her love were two such
blessed souls. They knew they were meant for each other almost before they
were old enough to hold the idea of love in their heads. Phaedacil had only
one love. But her soul mate had two. Since he was old enough to wield a
stick ... everyone knew he was born to swing blades. He was not just good at
it; it was as if the Lords had gifted him. He was gorgeous when he moved at
the blades.

He only had two wishes in life, and he did not know which was more important
to him.He was a very pious Arial, even young, and he only wished to become
a good husband to Phaedacil, and to repay the Lords for the gifts they had
bestowed upon him by eventually joining the Maran, and using their gifts to
do their work.

Phaedacil shared his dream for him, and always supported him. Unfortunately
neither of their dreams would come true.

On the anniversary of their betrothal, he went out to pick a bundle of her
favorite flower. Unfortunately her favorite flower was very rare, and he had
to range far. Night was falling and he had yet found even one. Knowing that
the violet and gold flower bloomed more often above the tree line on rocky
slopes, he traveled up the mountainside. Only to be caught in an avalanche
and killed.

Phaedacil was devastated. And understandably (if not truthfully) blames
herself for her Love's death. She has convinced herself that it was because
of her that his beautiful gift of dancing and singing blades will be forever
denied to all of Thera.

After her mourning period, she could not see herself finding another to take
his place, she could not see herself just living as a widow. She dedicated
herself to her Love's dream. She knows that she will never have his gift
with the blades, but she thinks that maybe, just maybe, by following his
dream, she can honor his memory.


*Who is the Drizzle!!!!!!!!!?*