This post may or may not be long, but here goes.

First let me start off by saying I knew this would be a hard character to play and that everything I sought to do would be a challenge. I expected no less. I totally agree with how the redemption arc should follow going to Neutral first and then finally good. I perhaps would have liked to become Neutral at the 140 - 150 hour range instead of 180ish (I think that is right?). Since I took Late Bloomer (to reflect my time as an Imperial Shadow) that left my character with 350ish hours before Age Death (based on most humans was my guess). So waiting so long for the alignment change gave me a sort of dread of possibly not being good for long before I would kick the bucket (as a story however that would have been so poetic to obtain full salvation and die shortly after).

I also had a hard time figuring out exactly what was expected of me. I tried to play Eybaen as person who grew and changed, early I was vengeful, full of rage and seeking to make sure the Empire felt my wrath, but as he grew older and saw the world as it was, he would grow more compassionate, more understanding, more empathetic to the struggles of everyday people. I really hope I was able to show this change through my RP.

Next, which is something I really want to touch on with the Immortals. While I can sit down and agree on what GOOD really should be, what it should really reflect, and how it should conduct itself, I still keep in mind this is a game. When I killed the Darien Captain (he's neutral) for gear I got a finger wag. Sure, all in all, that was not a good action, but basically losing the ability to fight neutral mobs really put a restriction on the character that I felt was too harsh. CF was not designed and has not been changed via areas/mobs to restrict good players from killing neutral mobs for gear. There has to be some suspense of RP for the sake of Game Play. I was pretty much left with only being able to kill Evil mobs for gear and a lot of their gear is Evil Aura. So I was in a big bind, especially since I was uncaballed leaving me with little options for gear and exploration in some cases. I think it is bad for the game when everyone has to be held to Paladin statures (and a lot of that is in the Fort too).

I've always been a proponent for free roleplay. There has to be a point where force roleplay perspective and restrictive definitions have to take a back seat to see where a player is going to go with their character and their take on a particular alignment/ethos. For the most part, if they aren't driving a different direction, its ok to let them grey a little for the sake of fun and gameplay.

Not getting into Outlander: Man, this was pretty rough and I understand some of it. First, I was asked to learn about Thar-Eris. I did IC (though I already knew a bunch and RPed out to give other players a chance to share their thoughts). Next I had to get five recommendations. This seemed hard as folks weren't willing to speak with me for a long while. Hell, I don't even know if I got five. Then I had to get my wilderness time up (it was really good until I had to pretty much solo my 40's in a civilized area). This was were I thought I was stuck. I spent a lot of time just chilling in the wilds doing nothing to get this up. I did not realize, Ergush was waiting on me to become Good aligned. Had I known that, I would be less frustrated especially since I had Outlander murder monkeys (this is the term I coined for non-rping reavers who just want cheap PKs and delete under 50 hours) trying to or killing me (one death came from being attacked as soon as I had disengaged the Warmaster...). I would love to have gotten into Outlander, especially as an Orderly character. Never worried about the powers (all you PGamers crying go Chaotic for Windwalk).

Then there was all the Imperials who quit playing because things got tough. I lost a lot of fun dodging players, fighting Imperials, dying and killing them. Kudos to you folks who stuck it out (Angaph, Deklast, Vantiglia, and Inaj). Also, I think I was attacked in town twice, despite Imperial Law over riding Trib Law. I think in fact I attacked Imperials more so in town, even got flagged once. But losing a whole set of enemies from band wagon jumpers sucked, but it was it is.

The other cabals. There seemed to be a lot of confusion on who I was, what I was about, who were my allies. This confusion really helped me keep daggers out of my back. Tribunal believed/knew I was with Outlander so was unsure if they should warrant me when I came to help retrieve the fetish, especially since I would defend against them in Promisy.

Scions and Empire generally thought I was going Fortress, though I think Narra was even trying to perhaps gain me as a Scion ally, and I know at least one Scion(or at least candiate) saw me as an ally to fight the Empire so never fought me. My "defending" of the Fortress wasn't so much defending it as striking against the Empire. I would even solo raid the Empire to get the Codex and depending on who was on would give it to Outlander or Fortress.

Fortress for a long time did not trust me. Some would attack me despite me telling them I was seeking redemption. Some even told me they shouldn't bother with me because everyone fails. Well, the reason people fail is often lack of support, especially from a group that should be seeking to redeem evil first and slaughter it second. Even Shokai once told me the Marans sought to redeem the darkness through prayer first, then fire second. So I would like to say, Fortress players who go there just to a murderer in a gold aura, you are missing a whole avenue of RP.

All in all though, I really enjoyed the character. I got slammed with a ton of hours for work before I deleted as we were taking measures to get the restaurant I work at prepared for reopening to the public, coupled with my house flooding my hot water eater going kuplutz, not having hot water for a week, and getting all that straight just caused me to lose my vibe. I really wanted to Age Die, especially since it would probably been 350ish hours, but not having a cabal to interact with makes it really hard.

On a final note, I just want to thank everyone, Imms and Morts who made Eybaen fun.

Beroxxus