If you read your PBF the imms, who WERE watching your "roleplayed actions" couldn't figure out your reasons either. You weren't "roleplaying by doing" because if you were they wouldn't have said things like this...

Tue Sep 19 21:34:33 2006 by 'Drokalanatym' at level 30 (36 hrs):
Outlander low XP penalty super-murderous mace spec. Jesus, man, get out of the rut! You're like Graatch in a skirt... and it's not even a pretty skirt anymore.

And...

Tue Sep 26 11:46:56 2006 by 'Innis' at level 32 (54 hrs):
In watching Chanya, I am struck by the lack of rp in pk situations...just run in and kill, loot if desired...not a comment about city-dwellers...nothing.

Wed Sep 27 13:08:48 2006 by 'Innis' at level 32 (59 hrs):
I am not sure why Chanya kills whom she kills...no rp or purpose. Nothing to further the aims of Outlander, just killing.

Thu Sep 28 08:56:19 2006 by 'Twist' at level 37 (61 hrs):
So I'm watching the roleplay, reading the role - still no idea why this char is sphere deception and not sphere death, combat, war, or something else that goes with "I kill everything that moves."

3 seperate imms watching you, all with the same message. These are the people who watch your so-called "roleplayed actions" and they couldn't figure it out either. That says a lot. Generally I see PBF comments about how great someone is, when from my interactions they were ####. In this instance, it seems the staff saw just what everyone else saw.