When someone writes such farewells then he isn't leaving anywhere. I had breaks from CF myself: sometimes for a year, sometimes a bit more, a lot of shorter ones. But never even thought about writing farewells i think. When you do it - you aren't ready to quit, and there is no even need for this.

The thing is after so many years and emotions CF simply became part of life for many of us, and it's very hard to replace it when we all are about 40 years old already.

You'r cool and smart guy actually, and like jalim said you simply try too hard to become "best". You don't have to, it's good enough to be above average and just have fun, no matter ratios or numbers or whatever. In fact all these ratios and numbers come from killing weaker enemies and totally avoiding stronger ones, so they mean nothing anyway. It's hard at first, but becomes much easier when you play CF less often and thus take it less seriously.

You also have rl friends playing CF, also very competent players whom it would be huge loss to loose. It all might affect them somehow too.

Almost everybody use ooc methods to gain some kinds of advantage, and now i'm not even so sure you'r the worst current cheater. But it's not older days already when people from same cabal would login at totally same time, the level of cheating was slowly decreasing all these years.


What i would do is to simply accept you did bad things and report about them to Imps yourself. Though if you report too many of them then it might hurt too many people i guess :) Find thin balance here. But simply saying you didn't do anything at all only proves that you'll continue to do the same if the ban was removed. And right now you'r basically saying you didn't do anything bad at all, but it's obvious lie.

Think what is the best after you calm, but like i said when we'r 40 years old and basically played cf for half of our life it's very hard to replace it with anything. And i'm sure Ishuli and other Imps are humans too who understand that mistakes are to be made, but can be forgiven if something is done to prove that they won't be repeated.